I want to be proud of myself today

[Emma Wallace]

I read the other thread, the one about how I'm proud of myself today, and I want to be, but I'm feeling miserable right now.

I ate breakfast today, I got a full night's sleep three nights in a row, I finished 2 major projects on time though I missed the due date for a smaller one tonight, I haven't cut in a while, not since before I joined here. I don't keep track exactly, but it's been a few weeks.

All things I could be proud about, but so what? It's not enough. I feel like I'm living in a cage and when I think about it I start to cry.
-E

[ebmcs]

Just wanted to let you know I read.... I can relate to that feeling sometimes. But I've found that if I keep writing down the positive things and the happy things, eventually one day down the road I can feel the joy from them all ??? if that makes sense, as I look back on all of the good things that have happened. Might not feel much at the moment, but later on I'm glad that I saved them.

If nothing else, just recognizing that it's good can be beautiful even if you still feel yucky...

It's a journey!

[Emma Wallace]

Thanks for reading. On a tangent, I think I recognise both your psalms, I think I have sung both of them, though I can only recall the tune for the first right now, and they are beautiful.