Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!

flipflopfetish · Post by **flipflopfetish** » Tue Feb 07, 2006 1:01 am

My friend's friend attempted suicide yesterday and is at the hospital.

I'm mad at her because I've seen how bad my friend is feeling and I wouldn't want to wish that on anyone.

But that's not even the worst thing (because I don't truly believe anyone would care that much about me)

I'm second best now. So what if I SI? She's tried to kill herself and besides, she has more problems than me (and yes, that is how my friend would react). And anyways, if I killed myself I'd be the second person to try, not the first. It's embarassing and I don't like admitting in

And I don't even know this girl

Copasetic · Post by **Copasetic** » Tue Feb 07, 2006 5:55 am

I feel ignored around the people I love the most.

_MessedUp_ · Post by **_MessedUp_** » Tue Feb 07, 2006 3:35 pm

Comments Ok-PM

I play sad songs to make myself cry

I drink to forget, but deny that

I smoke, and have done since december last year (may not seem much of a secret-but i hide it from everyone including my bf and family)

i'm jealous of the fact that lifewise my boyfriend has been through so many bad things, yet has come out a stronger person thatn i can ever be

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I wish i'd never taken the OD, cos i can never forget the look in my mum's eyes when i told her. I hurt her so much and i could see that in her eyes. That look, that memory will haunt me forever

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Feb 09, 2006 12:27 pm

Im hurt that i havent been included. It makes me sad to know that ill be the only one that doesnt get a special big thing for them made on my birthday like everyone else has got. I try to pretend it doesnt affect me and i wont be bothered by it...but i know i will be if come my birthday no one has done anything like they have this year for people's 18ths which i know they wont

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Fri Feb 10, 2006 2:34 am

I really want to see my bf but I'm scared that once he gets here and sees me I won't be good enough for him and he'll leave me

I cling to my ED because I think it makes me a better person

I've thought about OD'ing everyday this week and if Darren wasn't coming to see me I would have done it too

Skyeler · Post by **Skyeler** » Fri Feb 10, 2006 5:57 am

Nobody's ever really cared if I was suicidal before

Now that someone does

I don't know how to tell her.

theboldeditalics · Post by **theboldeditalics** » Fri Feb 10, 2006 6:23 am

I've had a good night.

But I know I'll either drink myself to forget it all

or cut until I can't think.

DecemberLivy · Post by **DecemberLivy** » Fri Feb 10, 2006 4:38 pm

i'm jealous of her

delagurl925 · Post by **delagurl925** » Sat Feb 11, 2006 10:17 pm

comments are okay go ahead and pm me

***MAY SI/SU TRIG***

-i told my sister i stopped siing but really i went deeper

-i hate myself for being such a loser
-i feel like nobody wants me around
-i have no friends
-i want to die

-i love him but im afraid he'll never accept me for who i am

-i'm afraid that my parents will send me away if they find out i si

ioa · Post by **ioa** » Sun Feb 12, 2006 3:02 am

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I've successfully decieved my therapist into thinking I'm OK - that I don't SI or even think about it anymore.

I think about killing myself at least once everyday.

I am 18 years old and have never kissed a boy. Mostly because I'm afraid to admit to myself that I'm a lesbian.

No one knows I had a lesbian relationship for 6 months with a schoolmate when I was 13, and I hate myself for ruining it.

I'm a senior in high school and I spend most of my weekends alone. Not out of choice, simply because of my lack of friends.

I honestly believe the only way I will ever get better would be to be hospitalized for an extended period of time - and that scares me to death.

I have no idea where my life is going.

mephistopheles · Post by **mephistopheles** » Sun Feb 12, 2006 4:24 pm

comments ok.

I think the voice that screams in my head is me. But I can't remember what is was that made me scream like that.

I think I'm anorexic. But if I tell anyone I'll have to stop.

I wish my Mother was dead instead of Eva and Alexei.

I don't want to know what happened to me that makes me dissociate at least once a day.

BlackKat13 · Post by **BlackKat13** » Mon Feb 13, 2006 5:47 am

PM comments fine

I have been single every valentines day my entire life. So on this day, I buy chocolates, and roses for my single friends. I even buy pink roses to give to single girls I meet that I don't know....I just want them to feel special.

But, there is no one to make me feel special.

I just wish I had someone to buy me flowers...

Skyeler · Post by **Skyeler** » Mon Feb 13, 2006 6:12 am

I always told her I handrew all the valentines I gave out.

Which is true

Since she's the only one I ever gave one to.

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Tue Feb 14, 2006 1:06 am

pm's ok

i feel like an idiot for getting myself into situation where i need to get the morning after pill to reassure myself im not pregnant...in theory i shouldnt be but i don't want to risk it....the only reason im in this situation is cuz it felt so good

_MessedUp_ · Post by **_MessedUp_** » Tue Feb 14, 2006 1:04 pm

PM'S ok

I'm sat in a computer room surrounded by stangers. I have tears in my eyes. But i know i can't let them see me cry.

PM'S OK

marshmallowfluff · Post by **marshmallowfluff** » Tue Feb 14, 2006 4:44 pm

Yes, i lied to you. But you dont know that and you never will. To be honest, i dont care, because i've lost count of the times you've lied to me.

amyfairy · Post by **amyfairy** » Tue Feb 14, 2006 10:23 pm

i thought about od'ing again.
i haven't in so long.

i want to be happy again but i keep falling and i'm so scared and i'm so sad.

and i haven't eaten any meals in 2 days because i haven't thought about it, too much effort.

(comments are fine).

red umbrellas · Post by **red umbrellas** » Tue Feb 14, 2006 10:32 pm

i don't know if it's really what i want
and i'm fucking terrified of what the consequences might be.
and i'm just confused about everything.

jaded melody · Post by **jaded melody** » Wed Feb 15, 2006 3:10 am

now that she's gone, i think im going to die.

Im so ashamed of how dependant i am on her

and if i dont take my own life, ana might.

I love it when people hold my waist or hips because they always say how thin i am.

I went a year cut-free. Now i cant sleep until I've hurt myself.

And i have no help any more. I want nothing more than to run to the clinic and cry and tell her how awful things are.

People keep saying it'll get better but it hurts all the time. I dont think i can cope or stay alive any more.

I dont think i could get help from anyone but her. I want her back so much it makes me want to cry every second of the day.

And i just want to die.

I WISH I had been completely starving myself but im not doing well enough and im no longer satisfied unless i eat nothing. Actually, nothing is still too much.

Part of me wants this to kill me.

And nobody cares any more.

(PMs fine)

silenceBROKEN · Post by **silenceBROKEN** » Wed Feb 15, 2006 4:02 am

PMs are fine.

I claim to value honesty, but I continue to lie to myself.

I wish I had the strength to end my life, for living it isn't seeming to get me anywhere.

When I was younger, I used to flush the toiler when my dad was in the shower. I hoped that I would burn him so bad that he couldn't hurt me anymore.

A couple of months ago, I did actually believe that the abuse wasn't my fault. Now, I'm back to blaming myself.

I can't stand it when others judge people. I hate being judged because of my sexual orientation. And yet, I'm slightly racist.

A part of me enjoyed the abuse.

A classmate of mine passed away in a car crash earlier this year. I cried the entire day at school. What people don't know though is that I cried because I wasn't the one who died.

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