tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.
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by Nazgul » Wed Jan 04, 2006 3:15 am
when I was little I was cruel to animals ( a friend's cat). nobody IRL knows this. NOBODY.
sometimes people make me so mad I really want to kill them but I act like I'm just joking. I'm scared if I get psychotic again what I might do.
I think I might be masochistic.
Every time I think a girl looks pretty I get scared that I might be bi. Even though I don't want that kind of relationship with a woman.
I'm scared to have sex, even after I find "the right guy" and get married. This is because I was SAed, even though not r*ped.
I'm embarrassed that I'm making this post.
PMs or posts in my Place (sorry I don't know how to link) are welcome
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by jaded melody » Wed Jan 04, 2006 10:29 am
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by jaded melody » Wed Jan 04, 2006 10:29 am
If i get diagnosed with EDNOS i think i will kill myself because it will mean that im not good enough at losing weight/being thin to be anorexic.
PMs welcome.
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by marshmallowfluff » Wed Jan 04, 2006 4:28 pm
i dont want to get better yet. i'm not ready.
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by flipflopfetish » Thu Jan 05, 2006 2:04 am
I haven't SIed in three days, I'm scared I won't want to again.
I'm a sick, horrible person, I shouldn't want to keep SIing.
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by Callisto » Sat Jan 07, 2006 5:14 pm
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PM's are fine
- i think i'm falling in love
- i'm scared of screwing it up again though
- i'm scared that because i'm so far away at uni that you'll stop loving me
- i'd be lost without you
- i don't know if i could take it if you did stop loving me
- i'm trying to trust you, i know that i can, but part of me still tells me that i shouldn't. that i'll get hurt if i do.
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by Not_what » Sat Jan 07, 2006 5:23 pm
I'm fed up of taking the blame, although it's probably my fault.
I wish I had the strength to SI
I wish I had the control to not eat ever again
I'm a fraud
Replies/whatever are welcome
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by Callisto » Sat Jan 07, 2006 8:01 pm
one phone call has made me feel so much better and less lonely.
but its also made me want to run back home and see him again.
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by Catylyx » Sun Jan 08, 2006 5:42 am
pm's are good...
Even though i know it wasn't my fault...i still feel like it was when i was sa'ed the first time. My cousin molested me...
i was too young to know what was going on....all i knew was that it wasn't right.....
i was molested by a stranger when i was 10/11 ...i was walking through my apt complex and he just grabbed me....
i tried to kill myself...but i hadn't eaten anything for weeks so i started throwing up...my step dad was right there and he never knew.
Nick kissed my wrist when i showed him my cuts. .....i never told anyone that....but it made me feel more loved than i ever had been.
i've stopped eating again...and nobody's noticing.
i hate sleep.
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by Callisto » Sun Jan 08, 2006 2:07 pm
replies ok
i convince myself that people hate me so that i feel less guilty about pushing them away.
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by steady hands » Tue Jan 10, 2006 6:57 am
*everything ok*
I can feel myself going slowly downhill again.
I want to swallow the entire new bottle of tylenol just to see what it feels like and if it'll kill me.
god, i'm so ashamed.
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by Callisto » Tue Jan 10, 2006 2:13 pm
pm's ok
im scared of ever really getting better so i deliberately mess it up everytime i try
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by VowsOfSadness » Wed Jan 11, 2006 7:40 pm
Im at the end
on the verge
I have been giving my friends little hints and clues but they havent noticed or they dont care or havent done anything.
I just try to release these feelings but nothing ever goes away.
I guess there is something wrong with someone who has so many friends who dont want her. I am an invisible friend.
And yes I'm mean and push them away because they are leaving me. I said I hate all my friends and want them to die but I guess I'm just so hurt and pain makes you say things, but it doesnt matter cause its as if they dont care either way.
all of them togather w/o me
PMS very VERY welcome
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by nirvana » Thu Jan 12, 2006 3:21 am
*replies welcome*
i'm still in love with him. he cheated on me for seven months, with his ex-girlfriend. and i took him back.
i don't trust him.
i thought i was a fool for no one, but baby i'm a fool for you.
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by Callisto » Thu Jan 12, 2006 4:34 am
i want to purge so bad
i plan to starve myself tomorrow
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by flipflopfetish » Thu Jan 12, 2006 4:41 am
I really want to go to the concert, but I don't know if it's worth being in the car with my mom.
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by Callisto » Thu Jan 12, 2006 2:51 pm
i only believe that people love me if they tell me everyday because im so insecure
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by glass angel » Fri Jan 13, 2006 6:20 pm
he stops me from self-harming and i resent him for it
"He loves you. You have so much."
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by ghoulie13 » Fri Jan 13, 2006 7:28 pm
today's secret..
i love over-alls and i buy them. i never wear them
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