Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!

jup0se1 · Post by **jup0se1** » Fri Dec 23, 2005 11:32 am

- PMs fine -

I keep pushing people away...

I'm giving up on life...

I hate that I love her...

I don't know how to begin feeling better...

candiperfumegirl · Post by **candiperfumegirl** » Fri Dec 23, 2005 6:40 pm

replies fine

I keep telling him its fine he didn't get me an engagment ring for christmas after all. this is the first time i've lied to him.

I tell him its okay and it will be as soon as I can stop crying

marshmallowfluff · Post by **marshmallowfluff** » Fri Dec 23, 2005 7:03 pm

I hate you so much...

i had the urge to ******, but i didnt... and im glad i didnt. i have thoughts about doing it all the time and the amount of times i nearly have...

my head feels fucked

pms are fine

Reisu · Post by **Reisu** » Mon Dec 26, 2005 8:07 pm

SU
i have promised myself that even though i have improved, if i continue to feel bad in january i will su. but i know that i wont.

I sometimes find myself planning on how i would attempt SU but not die from it; then i realise that that is defeating the object.

/SU

i listen to clannad when no one else can hear
i want to be able to tell someone everything, but i dont want to have to say it.
i wish i had an excuse

sweetyesterdays · Post by **sweetyesterdays** » Tue Dec 27, 2005 4:26 am

pms are fine i think...

-i hate everything about myself
-when people say "i care about you." or "i really want you to get better" or anything like that, it makes me so angry that i want to hit them.
-i lied to my doctore about how much medication i took everyday so he wouldnt put me in rehab. and the withdrawl i went through messed up my heart and brain. and i still feel it today. (a year later.)
-i lied to the man at daytop. i told him i had only done heroin a couple of times. i had done it a lot more times. he couldnt know i was addicted.
-i want to do more drugs.
-i hate complements.
-i am a very angry, hateful person. and i lie a lot. too much...
-i want someone to save me.
-writing all this down makes me kinda sad...

Skyeler · Post by **Skyeler** » Tue Dec 27, 2005 5:18 am

I don't really want to be a dad.
but
I want her to be a mom.

Sky · Post by **Sky** » Tue Dec 27, 2005 5:25 am

this is kind of a happy one.

After waiting by the phone for so long, after checking my email anxiously and feeling depressed when you didn't write me, after missing you for so long I realized something:

Allen, I don't love you anymore.

I don't fucking love you anymore.

And it feels amazing!

I still care about you, and I'll never forget you, but I don't love you anymore!

I used to wonder whether I could live without you...

Thank you so much for letting me realize that I can.

balletomane · Post by **balletomane** » Tue Dec 27, 2005 7:57 am

I have never felt so empty.

I have never felt so alone.

candiperfumegirl · Post by **candiperfumegirl** » Tue Dec 27, 2005 6:37 pm

PMs fine

pretty soon I'm afraid I won't know who I am anymore I'll be what they want me to be

red umbrellas · Post by **red umbrellas** » Wed Dec 28, 2005 4:56 pm

i'm afraid of being happy. if you love me, you're sure to let me go. it just takes time for you to realise who i am. i'm not good enough for you. but i want to be. i don't want to lose you. i wish i was a better person.

acdcrocker1909 · Post by **acdcrocker1909** » Wed Dec 28, 2005 6:15 pm

pm's fine

I watched the "Dirty Little Secret" music video.. and I connected with more than 4 of the secrets.

I think I am afraid to be happy, because when one gets to happy, something bad happens.

I want someone to catch me when I fall

I want to punch people when they look at me and for some reason send fake pity my way, like they *know* whats in my head.

I dont want to flat out say I'm not okay, but I really wish someone would look at me and notice something is off

Beasty · Post by **Beasty** » Thu Dec 29, 2005 7:42 pm

If you asked me to marry you, I would. If you asked me to sleep with you, I wouldn't have any second thoughts.

There is a guy I've met online and I think he is go gorgeous. If he tried to kiss me, I wouldn't stop him. But I prefer you.

I've kissed my best friend. She's a girl and I'm a girl. Open mouth. I would french her. Only because I love to kiss. Call it a fix because you aren't there.

She knows and I know. You and I have loved each other in every past life in some way. We're destiny, persay. Call it a dream realization.

I cut when you weren't looking, but I won't again.

acdcrocker1909 · Post by **acdcrocker1909** » Fri Dec 30, 2005 2:56 pm

i am afraid that if i get help, i will be "fixed", and nobody would pay be a 2nd glance

glass angel · Post by **glass angel** » Fri Dec 30, 2005 4:34 pm

I sometimes find myself planning on how i would attempt SU but not die from it; then i realise that that is defeating the object.

me too

candiperfumegirl · Post by **candiperfumegirl** » Sat Dec 31, 2005 8:03 am

glass angel wrote:
I sometimes find myself planning on how i would attempt SU but not die from it; then i realise that that is defeating the object.
me too

I know that feeling too

BringMeToLife · Post by **BringMeToLife** » Sun Jan 01, 2006 2:26 pm

Great site!

I made it all up, now I can't remember which bits were lies and which bits were truth.

jaded melody · Post by **jaded melody** » Tue Jan 03, 2006 1:52 am

I dont want to tell my a doctor about my ED issues because I know she wouldnt take me seriously... im too fat to be anorexic...
I dont want to tell my T about my ED issues because I know she WOULD take me seriously... but i dont want to get better... im too fat to get better.
I want to be so thin that people are scared for me... but that makes me feel like an attention-seeker.
I hate everything about myself... and I know i dont deserve to have the friends i do... even though they hurt me... and i dont deserve help...
I want to steal my best friends life... she is everything i want to be... stylish, cool, popular with her friends, with an awesome social life and a reeally great personality.
I used to be a straight A student.... now I get on average Bs and i feel like a failure. I feel stupid.

PMs are fine.[/size]

Aly · Post by **Aly** » Tue Jan 03, 2006 6:57 pm

PM's would be nice....

-I dress sluttily to get people to notice me, and when they dont....I get cross...
-I go on webcam and practically totally strip so that Ill get people's attention and to make guys want me...
-I flirt with loads of guys other than T when he's around to try and make him jealous
-I wish I had been SA'd, I wish I has an ED even though I know these things would get me further away form my goal: being happy, I still feel as if they would solve stuff....logically I know this is bull...
-I dont tell anyone Im bi, because Im scared a friend of mine will think Im "copying" her...
-I kind of like it when he touches me like that, even though it also disgusts me...
-I sometimes wish a whole lot of them would disappear
-I want to go into a coma, so I wont have to deal with life, but wont be dead. Id like for there to be camera's everywhere so I could see how everyone would react to me being in a really critical condition with the possibility thatI might die...
-I exagerrate the truth all the time to what I wish had happened, I make it sound worse, because I wish it had been....

Priceless · Post by **Priceless** » Wed Jan 04, 2006 12:02 am

comments on pm welcomed
*sa/si/od/trigs*

It was my own fault i got saed by the first guy
Ive should not had been drinking when i was at home with a friend and her uncle raped me all night, it was my own fault, and he kept talking that i should be his kids stepmom, and he was grose
i wanna cut of my breasts
im scared of getting better
im scared of telling anybody about the sa, because im affraid that they tell me its my fault
i HATE the sound of people wistleling.........it makes me so angry and i want to explode, i dont know why?
i have no impulse control at all, well with most things
i dream of saving the world, i just dont know how
when i was a little girl, i dreamed that i had been swithed out with another baby at the hospital, and that my real parents would come and save me
i hate that im so fat
im still in love with rp

theboldeditalics · Post by **theboldeditalics** » Wed Jan 04, 2006 3:07 am

Reply via PM, please

I hook up with guys to make me feel better about myself. My sister and I took a secret trip to Virginia and met this guy and we made out all new years eve, new years morning, and we were sort of close to having sex, which is something i'm TOTALLY against. I want to be a virgin till marraige, but sometimes I think I can't even follow my own rules because I'm such a goddamned attention seeker.

whatever.

bus

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