Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!

Strange_Panda · Post by **Strange_Panda** » Tue Dec 13, 2005 3:55 am

PMs OK

As much as I know I need her out of my life so I can heal from all she's done to me...I still kind of miss my mom.

Sometimes I'm afraid that she'll commite suicide like my dad...

...and that will be all my fault, too.

I wish my parents had been better parents, maybe then I wouldn't have to live with the guilt of being so angry at them.

PMs OK

AngelsTears · Post by **AngelsTears** » Tue Dec 13, 2005 9:06 am

PMs welcome

I trusted you, you lied to me, yay im alone once again.
I carry a knife with me in case i feel the urge.
I promised myself i wont live past 30.

Skyeler · Post by **Skyeler** » Tue Dec 13, 2005 8:01 pm

if I kill myself before she gets to California, I won't ruin her life....

I just wish I knew she wouldn't cry.

acdcrocker1909 · Post by **acdcrocker1909** » Tue Dec 13, 2005 10:13 pm

i dont know how much longer i can fight the urges..

I have alcohol.. i have drugs.. i have tools.. but i dont want to use them.. but maybe if i did.. people would notice something..

i appear happy and i feel happy.. but im feeling something slip..

flipflopfetish · Post by **flipflopfetish** » Wed Dec 14, 2005 1:11 am

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I carved a smile into my arm, took a photo of it and emailed it to a bitch along with the message: have a nice and happy day

and I walked around the rockridge bart and telegraph at midnight on sunday hoping someone would shoot me

my friend has the same T as me but I hate her and she likes her

PMs nice

acdcrocker1909 · Post by **acdcrocker1909** » Wed Dec 14, 2005 1:56 am

i am not okay.. i am not okay.. i am not okay..

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Dec 15, 2005 1:19 pm

i know your secret

ballet_dancer7 · Post by **ballet_dancer7** » Sat Dec 17, 2005 12:20 am

*Comments are fine-PM*.
I freak out on people because I can't freak out on my parents
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I believe in Jesus but when I get triggered I run away and lock him in a box
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I lie to my parents about wether im doing better or not, even though they said they want to help

I come on here to read things even though I know i'm not safe and will probably be triggered

I still have the cravings to not eat and become beautiful and thin, even though I know my body can't handle it and it will only make things worse

When I hide my cuts and scars i'm really only hiding them from myself.. trying to convince myself that it was ok that i did it again...

*Comments are fine-PM*.

Strange_Panda · Post by **Strange_Panda** » Sat Dec 17, 2005 1:21 am

Comments OK - PM

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I wish I had cut bad enough to warrent stitches...maybe then you would have taken care of me, instead of jst getting mad.

smr89 · Post by **smr89** » Sat Dec 17, 2005 6:28 am

-I hate you and I love you. I want to hug you and yell at you too. I'm glad you at least know how I feel now. Did you know before? Oh, and I know she doesn't like me. But thats OK. I'm not sure if I like her either. You're way different when she's around (different for the worst!)
-I want one to hug me. I love them all, most all of them anyway. But I don't know if I trust them. There are 2 to thank for that I guess!
-I'm trying so hard to move on. Or am I? I'm not really sure. Maybe I'm secretly enjoying this in some really sick, aweful way.

ViolinPlayingGoat · Post by **ViolinPlayingGoat** » Sat Dec 17, 2005 11:08 pm

i think i dont really want to get over her because i dont know how to live without this. im not sure how i'd cope.
i tell people its not getting any better but how can it when i dont try? i dont know how to try.

pms ok

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Mon Dec 19, 2005 6:28 am

--i have never thought that im good enough to be here

--i dont tell people that im upset (irl) but i wish someone would care enough to notice

--i have a crush on someone on BUS

--i think ill never find love because im not worthy of it

--i wish i had a proper mum, one that doesnt just shout at me all the time

--i never had a childhood, and i wish i could have one now

black_butterfly · Post by **black_butterfly** » Tue Dec 20, 2005 10:54 pm

I feel so worthless. I keep on trying to stop but I am constantly breaking the promises I make to myself. I want to tell someone but I don't dare, I'll only end up hurting them as well.

Skyeler · Post by **Skyeler** » Wed Dec 21, 2005 5:20 am

She is the most gorgeous person I've ever seen.
And she's sleeping in my bed.
I'm scared it's just a joke.

toXic · Post by **toXic** » Wed Dec 21, 2005 5:44 am

Skyeler wrote:She is the most gorgeous person I've ever seen.
And she's sleeping in my bed.
I'm scared it's just a joke.

similar thing here, about a girl i went out with friday.. it almost seems too good to be true. i want it to last.

red umbrellas · Post by **red umbrellas** » Wed Dec 21, 2005 12:36 pm

i am so lonely
i tried to cut myself last night but the blade was too blunt and it didn't work, and that made me more upset.
i don't think he really loves me. not as much as i love him.\
i'm trying to lose weight, but it's not working. hard not to just stop eating.

i'm starting to fall...but there's no one here right now for me to tell

PMs welcome

VowsOfSadness · Post by **VowsOfSadness** » Wed Dec 21, 2005 9:34 pm

I dont think I care if he has a girlfriend

DecemberLivy · Post by **DecemberLivy** » Thu Dec 22, 2005 1:30 am

-PM's ok-

- i wish he'd leave me, so i didn't have to leave him
- i feel so lonely right now, its all coming back
- i really dont want to be me anymore
- i'm pathetic and i know it
- everyone is happy, except me
- i feel ugly, worthless, i wish i didn't have to hide it
- i know i'll never be wanted
- i've made promises i cant forfil. i'm in too deep and i cant dig myself out
- i think if i get thin i'll get noticed

Skyeler · Post by **Skyeler** » Thu Dec 22, 2005 6:59 am

She's still here
It's not a dream.

jaded melody · Post by **jaded melody** » Thu Dec 22, 2005 1:51 pm

I dont want to recover until i am thin enough to be considered anorexic.

I dont see the point of getting better if im not sick enough to be Anorexic according to the doctors. Why be forced to get better if im not even sick?

PMs ok.

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