Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by fried okra » Wed Oct 26, 2005 5:40 pm

I'm scared of hamsters.

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Post by marshmallowfluff » Wed Oct 26, 2005 6:12 pm

PMs okay.........

I killed my hamster. It's MY fault he died. I didn't feed him, i didnt clean him out, i neglected him. I didnt want him to die, i was so upset when he did, because i knew it was MY fault

I talk to my dog, because i know he cant answer me, and i wouldn't have to listen to him tell me what a bad person i am for everything i've let go wrong in my life. I spent about an hour once talking to him, whilst i walked through a wooded area, tears streaming down my face. I hoped to god someone would murder me right there, but i got so scared when i saw a car and a lorry on a dirt track, i ran the rest of the way.
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Post by marshmallowfluff » Wed Oct 26, 2005 6:42 pm

I always go on the connexions website and look for the nearest branch to me, i want to go, i need to go to talk, but i cant.... :(
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Post by Lynn » Wed Oct 26, 2005 6:43 pm

Talking about hamsters... when I was 13 I neglected mine. It was so so unhappy and stressed :( I didn't give her any fresh water for a week sometimes and I'd find the water-thing empty a lot (it's a miracle she didn't die because of me). I forgot that I had a pet at all (telling people I hadn't). I almost never took her out of the cage. I didn't clean the cage for months and one time it was so dirty that a kind of 'thing' ( forgot the word) grew in her cage. Ooh bad me :(

When I was 16 I had rats and I have never ever done anything bad to those though. They were extremely happy.

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Post by red umbrellas » Fri Oct 28, 2005 11:26 pm

i can't find the words to say what i really feel
and when i do find the words, i don't have the guts to say them

i sometimes wish that SI still felt easy. I wish I was still doing it sometimes
i wish i had the self-control to stop eating

the idea of too much physical closeness scares the hell out of me

i am a liar
It's all life and fire and lunacy
And excuses and excuses and excuses

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Post by Licentia Poetica » Sat Oct 29, 2005 10:49 am

i dont love you enough to wanna stay here
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Post by Blake 1 » Sat Oct 29, 2005 8:12 pm

i wish i was dead but i don't have a courage to kill myself.
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Post by Frozen » Sun Oct 30, 2005 12:36 am

sometimes the need to be fucked over is too strong. But there is noone, which is mainly i selfharm nowadays

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Post by foreverlost » Sun Oct 30, 2005 4:53 am

I constantly worry I'm not good enough.

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Post by Forget Me » Sun Oct 30, 2005 5:15 am

i cried in the movie thirteen because everything was too close to home.
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Post by HiddenByLies » Sun Oct 30, 2005 5:44 am

Atleast once a day, the thought of SU runs through my head...
the worlds her stage the people her crew
she looks so happy to me and you
but inside her body are secrets and lies
they're all her own that she hides behind
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her radiant mask her wonderful grace
but inside she's wondering why she's stuck in this place
but into her being she'll fall and remain
until someone frees her it's all just the same
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Post by DecemberLivy » Sun Oct 30, 2005 1:46 pm

pm ok

-he told me he loves me, but i'm scared he doesn't mean it

-i'm worry my head off about him alot because he has alot of su thoughts

-if something happened to him i dont know what i'd do

-my ma wants us to move to vancouver. i dont know, i really dont. i have friends here and i'm doing my GCSEs. maybe i could go after my GCSEs?

-i put on a new t-shirt today and i didn't like my body shape, i'm going to start rowing everyday now.

-i eat when i'm upset, and i've been eating alot and doing next to no excersise. must stop this.

-on the whole, feeling pretty damn good about myself. but i still act shy and sad around my family because i dont want them to guess i'm in love, my sisters done that before and i got in alot of trouble. is this stupid?
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Post by snorkmaiden » Sun Oct 30, 2005 4:31 pm

i want to hurt myself so bad that everyone will see i need help.

i want someone to look after me.

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Post by Blake 1 » Sun Oct 30, 2005 9:39 pm

I hurt.
I'm not as
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asi wook

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Post by HiddenByLies » Mon Oct 31, 2005 11:45 pm

- I still SI

- I want to die


PM's okay.
the worlds her stage the people her crew
she looks so happy to me and you
but inside her body are secrets and lies
they're all her own that she hides behind
Image
her radiant mask her wonderful grace
but inside she's wondering why she's stuck in this place
but into her being she'll fall and remain
until someone frees her it's all just the same
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|-MY PLACE-|
|-my poetry-|

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Post by Blake 1 » Tue Nov 01, 2005 6:04 pm

I want to die
I'm not as
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asi wook

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Post by foreverlost » Tue Nov 01, 2005 7:25 pm

I'm horrible and I'm so scared for the day everyone else realizes that too.

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Post by xanemicroyaltyx » Tue Nov 01, 2005 7:43 pm

- sometimes i wish there was room for me to feel fat too.

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Post by balletomane » Tue Nov 01, 2005 8:22 pm

i resist treatment because i'm afraid i will never get better.

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Post by Blake 1 » Wed Nov 02, 2005 4:12 am

i really want someone to show that they care about me because i don't like me and i wish i was dead. i want someone to tell me that i matter and that i have worth. i want to feel loved.
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