Bitch Fest / Things Left Unsaid II *LA*

magebaby · Post by **magebaby** » Tue Sep 27, 2005 11:24 pm

"it won't happen again. you can trust me."

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"it'll be ok. it won't always be so hard. it'll change."

--
mage

(*Haven*) · Post by **(*Haven*)** » Wed Sep 28, 2005 1:05 am

From my T~

You can call me any time, no matter what. I'll get back to you as soon as I can. I worry about you all the time and I'm worried when I don't hear from you. I want to know when you're not okay. Tell me, please.

magebaby · Post by **magebaby** » Sat Oct 01, 2005 11:28 am

"honey, it's ok. it really is."

mage

Blake 1 · Post by **Blake 1** » Sat Oct 01, 2005 10:19 pm

Mom and Dad: We are so proud of you and we always have been.

pistachio · Post by **pistachio** » Mon Oct 03, 2005 12:28 am

ks-you can fucking deal with the fact that i will not always be god damn perfect. oh and im not a christian. oh and i still self harm. oh and im bi. oh and i still drink whenever i fucking can.
c&r-you need to understand that its not fucking true, you need to understand that there are things you dont know about me that i am trying to tell you if you would open your ears and your minds. you need to understand that i love you both so much but sometimes its so hard. you need to understand that there is no way i could be half as perfect as you.

Forget Me · Post by **Forget Me** » Tue Oct 04, 2005 1:51 am

lauren - i dont know if you will read this or not - sometimes you do, sometimes you dont. whatever. but either way, im worried about you.

Blake 1 · Post by **Blake 1** » Thu Oct 06, 2005 1:03 am

h - its ok that you still don't get it, we'll go over it again

anyone that matters - you really are smart

jayde3 · Post by **jayde3** » Fri Oct 07, 2005 8:30 am

My Ex: I know Im responsible for for the ways things are with you now, I know the abuse, both mental and physical, contributed to your problems today, and I wish I take away the pain you have suffered all these years. But I recognise your strength now, and I know you would never let a person hurt you like that again.

My Husband: Im sorry I dont take you seriously, I understand why you SI, and I want to help

My Parents: We never knew but we are sorry and want to help you now

Post by **strmdncr** » Fri Oct 07, 2005 9:05 am

That's a lot of very strong messages from people who have either been, or are now close to you. It doesn't really say and I don't want to jump to assumptions so I'm going to ask, please don't be offended I just want to make sure so that I'm not offending you in any way....are those the things that each of those people have told you, or the things that you would like to hear from them?

shadowavenger · Post by **shadowavenger** » Sun Oct 09, 2005 1:06 pm

dad: i'm sorry

lu: hi, if we could talk again that would be cool

j: i'm sorry i freaked out, it doesn't matter to me, i still like you

bev: i love you

kat: i need help

(*Haven*) · Post by **(*Haven*)** » Sun Oct 09, 2005 9:22 pm

D ~ I can't work with you anymore. You're too much of a risk. You're suicidal all the time and I can't risk having you attempt on my watch. When you can pull yourself together, call me. Or we'll find someone else for you to work with. I'm sorry I have to do this. I just can't work with someone like you anymore.

Kaelyn · Post by **Kaelyn** » Fri Oct 14, 2005 4:05 pm

M - I am so sorry that I keep coming back for attention. I'm just really hurt and lonely and I need someone to hold me. You said you cared so I came to you. I'm very sorry if I hurt you in any way. I was just being honest for once. I didn't mean to make you worried or hurt you. But I could tell I did the moment I had told you... the way you turned your head, your eyes. Maybe you thought I didn't notice, but I did. Please don't lie and say that it's okay that I tell you, and that you're not hurt by me. Please just be honest and tell me to shut up, or leave. Or whatever you need to tell me. I will listen, just like you did.

Blake 1 · Post by **Blake 1** » Sun Oct 16, 2005 2:16 am

can't you see that i'm reaching out for help the only way i know how??

what_if · Post by **what_if** » Sun Oct 16, 2005 11:04 am

Its almost over for you...you have to leave me alone after this. I await the time you're out of my life with an eagerness i've never felt before

(*Haven*) · Post by **(*Haven*)** » Tue Oct 18, 2005 7:33 am

D ~ I'm so glad you brought up the whole quitting thing. Because I was going to have to bring up the fact that I don't know what to offer you anymore. I can help you find a new therapist if that is something you think would be good. Or we can just end your therapy here. You are right, you are strong enough to get through life without therapy. You can do this. And you'll be okay. Even if you aren't, you know, you aren't. And at least I won't have to deal with all that legal stuff. So great of you. Goodbye.

Kaelyn · Post by **Kaelyn** » Tue Oct 18, 2005 1:07 pm

m - when are we going to talk? I really need to speak to you in private about it. can't you see that? I'm hanging on because of you.

Koru · Post by **Koru** » Tue Oct 25, 2005 1:36 am

Jim - I love you, you are special to me - said while totally sober and spontaneously
Ed - I'll get over you, this isn't entirely your fault

Forget Me · Post by **Forget Me** » Wed Oct 26, 2005 8:53 am

this isnt fair anymore.
why wont you help me? cant you see?
do i even need it? someone tell me what the fuck is wrong with me because i need to know but i cant let you help me because i know with every fibre of my being that you will only hurt me and thats just not fair.
maybe one day you willa sk me whats wrong and i'll have the courage to tell you.
but i dont think you will ever ask.
you called me happy and funny.

demidivine · Post by **demidivine** » Wed Oct 26, 2005 10:20 am

i am so, so lonely.

Skyeler · Post by **Skyeler** » Wed Oct 26, 2005 1:34 pm

S...

You shouldn't hold on to me as a life raft when I can't even stay afloat by myself.

When you say you hate New York, you hate ballet, you hate your family, it makes me sad because the girl I loved, loved New York, ballet and her family more than anything in the world.

I don't know who you are if you don't love those things anymore...

Don't cling on to me because I'm the only other broken person you know.

bus

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