Right now I feel...
- DJ_CJ
- meeting the neighbors
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So God damn alone
Focusing "inward" can be good for self-improvement but like a microphone pointed at a speaker it can create a feedback loop that multiplies exponentially if not stopped. Just like a mic you need to "ride" the volume control in your mind or forever be deafened. Don't live with the squeal of constant negative thoughts. I wish you a clearer more positive focus. Good Luck
- Poya Maitri
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- { Phoenix }
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Right now, I am feeling...
Frustrated.
Hungry.
Worried.
Annoyed.
Tired.
Un-pretty.
Angry.
Concerned.
Guilty.
Apprehensive.
In physical pain from a sore back.
Unimportant.
Ignored.
Depressed.
Bored.
Irritated.
Sad.
Cold (temperature-wise).
Yeah... I'm feeling a lot.
Confused,
Catrina
Frustrated.
Hungry.
Worried.
Annoyed.
Tired.
Un-pretty.
Angry.
Concerned.
Guilty.
Apprehensive.
In physical pain from a sore back.
Unimportant.
Ignored.
Depressed.
Bored.
Irritated.
Sad.
Cold (temperature-wise).
Yeah... I'm feeling a lot.
Confused,
Catrina
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You can hide underneath me and come out at night,
when I turn jet black and you show off your light.
I live to let you shine.
~Please think twice about your replies before you post. Everyone here deserves respect.~
~Formerly known as DarkSkada / Talia Quietis~
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You can hide underneath me and come out at night,
when I turn jet black and you show off your light.
I live to let you shine.
~Please think twice about your replies before you post. Everyone here deserves respect.~
~Formerly known as DarkSkada / Talia Quietis~
~Cut-Free since December 4, 2003~</center>
tired
frustrated
alone
--
mage
frustrated
alone
--
mage
"If you hear a voice within you say 'you cannot paint,' then by all means paint, and that voice will be silenced." -- Vincent Van Gogh
"Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate, but that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?" --Nelson Mandela
No hugs, thanks
"Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate, but that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?" --Nelson Mandela
No hugs, thanks
- Poya Maitri
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- Poya Maitri
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- Poya Maitri
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- ArchyOpteryx
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no no no no no no no no no no no no
no reply
i hate everyone
i don't really
but i want no human contact at all
and the mantra "hate you" repeats
and repeats
hate
hate
hate me
hate you
hate me hate me hate me hate me
antidepressants sleeping pills alcohol pot morphine
do nothing
no love in me for me
no one loves me
hate you
hate you
hate me
hate me
hate me
shit
shit
shit
shit
cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut
cry for help?
yes
but keep the fuck away i hate you
do not talk to me i am in hell
don't look at me i'm hideous, jerry, hideous!
i need to write this but i don't want anyone to read it
but i need to write it
i
fuck
if you read this
you will tell me all kinds of reasonable things
i do not want reality reminders
i remember reality
i can not reach it
i am in hell hell hell hell hell hell hell hell hell
this feeling is real
i want to rip my spine out and smash it
burn my body to ash and burn the ash to nothing and erase the nothing from ever ever ever
i fucking hate this existence
i am nothing
i feel hell
no one knows or cares
(shut up don't say you do!
fuck you!!!!!!
fuck you!!
!!!!)
fuck all of all of every where one thing place time
cut like crazy last night
bunch of times
most ever
hurts some today
still a bit numb and liking it and planning more
planning
really just want to work on my car
i'm going to work on my car
fuck
i hate everyone
i don't really
but i want no human contact at all
and the mantra "hate you" repeats
and repeats
hate
hate
hate me
hate you
hate me hate me hate me hate me
antidepressants sleeping pills alcohol pot morphine
do nothing
no love in me for me
no one loves me
hate you
hate you
hate me
hate me
hate me
shit
shit
shit
shit
cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut
cry for help?
yes
but keep the fuck away i hate you
do not talk to me i am in hell
don't look at me i'm hideous, jerry, hideous!
i need to write this but i don't want anyone to read it
but i need to write it
i
fuck
if you read this
you will tell me all kinds of reasonable things
i do not want reality reminders
i remember reality
i can not reach it
i am in hell hell hell hell hell hell hell hell hell
this feeling is real
i want to rip my spine out and smash it
burn my body to ash and burn the ash to nothing and erase the nothing from ever ever ever
i fucking hate this existence
i am nothing
i feel hell
no one knows or cares
(shut up don't say you do!
fuck you!!!!!!
fuck you!!
!!!!)
fuck all of all of every where one thing place time
cut like crazy last night
bunch of times
most ever
hurts some today
still a bit numb and liking it and planning more
planning
really just want to work on my car
i'm going to work on my car
fuck
- shadow of a smile
- building community
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scared. scared. oh yeah, and scared.
i accept hugs!!!
my grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness
1 Corinthians 12:9
my place
my grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness
1 Corinthians 12:9
my place
- Poya Maitri
- spiffy maximus
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- DecemberLivy
- just plain inspiring
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exhausted, fed up
<center>my walpole cafe
"My life's a mess"
"That's the way it's supposed to be" - soap -
</center>
I think I'll paint roads
on my front room walls
to convince myself
that I'm going places.
"My life's a mess"
"That's the way it's supposed to be" - soap -
</center>
I think I'll paint roads
on my front room walls
to convince myself
that I'm going places.
- silent tears
- unpacking boxes
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- what_if
- part of the fixtures
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worried, very worried
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Living life is easy with eyes closed
The future is just a concept that we use to avoid living today
You can live with dignity; you can't die with it
~* My Place! *~
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Living life is easy with eyes closed
The future is just a concept that we use to avoid living today
You can live with dignity; you can't die with it
~* My Place! *~
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