last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

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Post by Poya Maitri » Fri Oct 14, 2005 2:27 am

I almost did today, but then didn't because I have
two days now and I didn't want to blow it

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Post by kickingmyself » Sat Oct 15, 2005 10:11 pm

Last time I didn't because I had a dance class the next day and you have to have bare arms so people would have noticed. I have to keep these classes up! :star:

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Post by Blake 1 » Tue Oct 18, 2005 12:17 am

today i wanted to SI but instead i did my laundry which i have been putting off for a while now and its been stressing me out.
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Post by snorkmaiden » Tue Oct 18, 2005 4:51 pm

i didn't cos i didn't want to face all the questions and disappointed looks from my boyfriend when he found out.

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Post by { Phoenix } » Sat Oct 22, 2005 8:47 am

Because I'm scared my fiancé will leave me if I do. And because I don't want to lose almost two years of "progress", because if I throw away all those months, I'll feel SU because of it.
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Post by toXic » Sat Oct 22, 2005 11:14 pm

just because i didnt want other people to see it...

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Post by STEREOPHONICS FAN » Wed Oct 26, 2005 10:57 am

Because a couple off months ago my nephews of 4 (twins) asked what i had done to my arms and if i had fallen off my bike, which made me cry and they said its ok it stops hurting in the end, and when i think about doing it i think of them and i dont want to explain to them what i have done even though i havent done it for a long time they see the scars and it breaks my heart.
They are more than precious to me x

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Post by kickingmyself » Thu Oct 27, 2005 8:05 pm

I came home after a really bad day and went straight upstairs with the intention to SI, but there was a letter waiting for me from my 11 year old niece on pink Hello Kitty paper. She wrote that she loves me loads, so I cried and went to bed instead.

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Post by Titania » Thu Nov 03, 2005 12:09 am

I pased back and forth chating "You are loved. Your mom loves you. Your Dad loves you. You boyfriend loves you. They love you no matter what you do." over and over for 15 minutes. Then I didn't feel wothless.:bfly:
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Post by swanfaerie » Thu Nov 17, 2005 6:52 am

simply no energy to do so
Don't do anything stupid.
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Post by AngelsTears » Mon Nov 21, 2005 12:17 pm

...because i was at work and couldnt get away
There's many things,
In life which i fear,
War, drugs, death.
But the one thing,
That i fear most,
Is to fear death no more,
For what now,
Will hold me back?

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Post by beautifulgarbage » Mon Nov 21, 2005 6:43 pm

^^

Same. It was yesterday, I was at work.
Then I was walking back home at night and I felt like doing it, but I didn't because obviously I was in the middle of the street.

When I got home... I didn't feel like doing it anymore, the idea just vanished for some strange reasons.
Certain things turn ugly when you think too hard,
And nagging little thoughts change into things you can't turn off.

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Post by art-girl » Wed Nov 23, 2005 3:07 pm

i didnt last night because my flatmate had confiscated and hidden my knife and even though i have scissors i'm really picky about what i use.... after a while it wasnt as urgent tho...
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Post by this_is_who_i_am » Sun Nov 27, 2005 3:27 pm

....because the next time i see my mom will be in a couple weeks at a christmas party (i haven't seen her since august), and i don't want her to see fresh wounds.... {she knows about my cutting and i tell her when i mess up (almost every time)} ....because she will already see the new scars and thats enough for her to deal with.
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Post by pretty » Fri Dec 02, 2005 6:26 pm

Because I really don't want to go back there.

Because I grabbed a good book to read on the way to work to keep me sane.
'this is what she says gets her through it,
"if I don't let myself be happy now, then when?"' - jimmy eat world

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Post by this_is_who_i_am » Sat Dec 03, 2005 7:26 pm

because....i didn't want to anymore. my reason just seemed stupid to me.
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Post by smr89 » Fri Dec 09, 2005 1:56 am

Because on the 17th it will be 9 months and there's not even a chance that I am going to ruin that! Plus, I've been tempted like 100000 times since I stopped and just haven't done it. Some of those times it was even worse so why give up and do it this time!?
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Post by pandablue » Sat Dec 10, 2005 6:38 am

my t talked me out of it

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Post by this_is_who_i_am » Wed Dec 14, 2005 9:56 pm

because...i want to say i have more than 6 days
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Post by BringMeToLife » Sun Jan 01, 2006 12:49 pm

I didn't because I've made it a few days without and didn't want the shame to come back.
I avoided the issue and eventually jotted some stuff down on paper.... like a release.

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