who are you right now? *lang trigs*

[collide]

i am...a horrible person, horrid creature, full of defilment and repulsivness

i am not...worthy to live, and yet ironically i am alive though i tried to kill myself in some very dangerous ways and never really got harmed

i feel...like cutting, or wish death would take my hand

i want...to feel numb, to dissociate to a place of nothingness

i need...answers to why that hospital thinks i am "untreatable"

i have...too much mood swings lately, and depressive feelings

i love...my bf and i know he would be so sad if he knew how badly i am feeling

i hate...myself, my past, ppl that who i've trusted that decieved me, esp those mental health ppl who are supposed to help, hospitals and such...

[heartonmysleave]

i am...
clever
pretty
loved (by some)
insecure

i am not...
coping
hated (mainly)
a slut
stupid
ugly

i feel...
so very very tired
unhappy
lost
alone
confused

i want...
a hug
some sleep
and end to all of this
something to change.

i need...
a new start
someone here to comfort me
a new job
to stop punishing myself.

i have...
a problem with alcohol.
depression
friends who support me.
people who love me.

i love...
my friends
books
my bed
SI (horrible, but true)

i hate...
people being mean
people gossiping about me
getting up in the morning
being sober
having people stare at my scars.

[gin and kerosene]

i am...
breaking down
useless

i am not...
normal
ok with being myself

i feel...
bronken
lonely
terrified

i want...
Friends
a new life, a different life

i need...
to be loved

i have...
tried to do this on my own but failed

i love...
to hear people laugh at my jokes
to think of that day
my all star high top cons

i hate...
To think about the future
purging
being sad

[Arcadia]

I am...
*tense
* angry
*sad
*lonely

i am not...
*happy
*happy with my life
*calm
*resolved
*sociable

i feel...
*lonely
*insignificant
*sick
*hungry
*weak
*tired

i want...
*water
*food
*a hug
* company
*solitude
*stability
*relaxation
*alchohol/weed/drugs

i need...
* a hug
* food
*company
*solitude
* to know if i am single

i have...
*nice clothes
*a talent
* An essay to do
*whiny, unloyal, but good friends.

i love...
*Applesourz
*soem of my friends
*money
*peace
*sex
*good health
*fruit
*chocolate


i hate...
*loneliness
*Anger
*tension
*bullies
*uncommunicative suicidal boyfriends

[jamie28]

i am... scared and lonely

i am not... drunk or high (yet)

i feel... sad and desperate

i want... my wife to come home

i need... to feel secure with our relationship

i have... beer, whiskey, and marajuana

i love... my wife and daughter

i hate... feeling insecure and abandoned

jamie

[hbhpoems]

i am...
a woman
bright
intelligent caring
i am not...
a man
stupid
hateful
i feel...
afraid
scared
anger
sad
hopeless
i want...
a better life
i need...
a place to live
i have...
n/a
i love...
n/a
i hate...
n/a

[GirlInterrupted]

i am...

Pissed off
On the verge of SI
Lonely

i am not...

Happy
Sociable
In a good mood

i feel...

Unhappy
Unloved
Unwanted

i want...

A Hug
Someone who cares for me
Food

i need...

A new job
A new life
To feel loved and needed.
A Hug

i have...

Cigarettes
Alcohol
A knife

i love...

Nothing important, atm...

i hate...

Feeling insecure
Feeling unwanted
Feeling abandoned.
Myself.

[Xavier]

The negative state of mind says:

i am...
Repugnant, Callous, Uncaring, Rude, Obnoxious, Ungrateful, Hurting, Scared, Nervous, Flighty, Unloved, Needy, Clinging, Over excitable, Antisocial, Confused.

i am not...
Happy, Pretty, Content, Perfect, Finished, Intelligent, Brave, Strong, Loved

i feel...
Dizzy, Tired, Sick, Scared, Loony

i want...
My Childhood Back, Someone, Anyone, To Be Held, To Care, To Be Better

i need...
Sleep

i have...
Nothing

i love...
People Being Happy
Making People Smile
Sleeping
Doing Nothing
Sunsets
Sunrises
Rain
Wind
Sleet
Snow
Night
Walking
Cows

i hate...
Water
Crane Fly
Daylight
College
Alcohol
Chocolate
Scars
EDs
SH/SI
Myself

[Arcadia]

I love this tool.

i am...
slutty
stupid
panicking
tearful
craving
a drug addict...or habitual user i don't know

i am not...
safe
happy
relaxed
well

i feel...
scared
tired
thirsty
my throat hurts

i want...
a drink
a joint
a fuck
a pizza
ecstacy

i need...
water
a hug
sleep
more time

i have...
a dressing gown
good friends

i love...
hugs
food
my friends
stimulants

i hate...
beign ill
work
feelign rubbish
men
insomnia
stimulants

[HiddenByLies]

i am...
confused
frusterated
lost
alone
distant

i am not...
hyper
excited
anxious
trustful


i feel...
unwanted
neglected by friends

i want...
to feel wanted
to si
to have an ed
to od

i need...
to stop being sympathetic of myself

i have...
no life
no one irl that cares

i love...
my parents
my cats

i hate...
my life
who i am
who'll i've never be
how i can never satisfy anyone
being a loner
being a live
how pathetic i am
the way i look
my weight
my size

[whoareyou?doyouevenknow?]

i am...
confused
angry
alone
distant

i am not...
happy
hyper
nice...


i feel...
unwanted
hated and unwated by friends

i want...
to feel..
have friends see me actually see me
a hug

i need...
to stop being attention seeking and turning everything into me
doing wotever they say

i have...
a family that loves me

i love...
my family
and (to some extent) my life

i hate...
the way i act
the way i look
the way i am
the way i can never do anything right

[Blake 1]

i am...
scared of change
not as smart as i want to be
mean sometimes

i am not...
stupid
a freak

i feel...
lonely
tired
stupid
bad

i want...
to understand this
a best friend
someone who i can talk to
a hug, a real hug
my knife back

i need...
a best friend
someone i can talk to
to do better all around
to be smarter and to get things quicker
to get more sleep
to be more dedicated

i have...
friends who don't understand me
too much stuff to do
GAD

i love...
rocks
a good nights sleep

i hate...
ppl who don't understand
when ppl make fun of me
feeling lonely
not having a best friend
not having the friendships i want to have
being like this

[gin and kerosene]

i am...
tired
invisable
teetering on the edge

i am not...
capable of putting things into words

i feel....
scared
violent
miserable
lost

i want...
to stop this


i need...
a true support system
to talk

i have...
nothing left

i love...
being in control

i hate...
not understanding what is going on.

not to be mean but LEAVE ME ALONE

[typ2]

I am...
awkward,
stubborn,
annoying myself,

I am not..
unpacking(like I should be)
settled,
relaxed,
comfortable,

I feel...
tired

I want...
to be different to how I am now,

I need...
for nothing

I have...
everything I need that should make a person happy,

I hate...
being perpetually disatisfied.[/list]

[Wargasm]

i am...
Stupid
Lazy
Tired


i am not...
Happy
Smart
Talented

i feel...
Horrible
Tired
Sick


i want...
Happiness
My friend to come over
Money

i need...
A job

i have...
Been a crappy friend
Been a crappy daughter
Been a crappy student
Been a crappy person

i love...
My friends


i hate...
Lots of things

[what_if]

i am...
tired
worthless
exhausted

i am not...
alright
as stupid as i believe
a person defined by SI

i feel...
numb
lonely
dead inside

i want...
to be able to feel again

i need...
to get these thoughts out of my head

i have...
people who are about me
a home
friends

i love...
my sister and my mom

i hate...
myself
hating myself

~ Nat

[Zalen]

i am...
at the end of my rope
exhausted
confused and lost

i am not...
sure of anything
stable
confident

i feel...
lonely
neglected
like a punching bag

i want...
an unjudgemental friend
the peace and quiet my rampants thoughts will not allow

i need...
answers to question, which do not have them.
my meds.

i have...
too many scars, both physical and emotional
few -true- friends

i love...
those few friends
to write and plan storylines

i hate...
writers block
fighting with those I am closest to
not being able to vent my fustrations in a... non-selfdestructive manner.

[snorkmaiden]

i am...
tired
lonely
alive

i am not...
ugly
evil
useless
unloveable

i feel...
overwhealmed
useless
rushed

i want...
to hide
to sh


i need...
to study!
to shower
to get on with things

i have...
a nice warm home
friends
God


i love...
my bf
my friends


i hate...
depression

[Shattered_Amethyst]

I am...

a singer
a songwriter
compassionate
complicated

I am not...

a bad person
useless
an asshole
unloved

I feel...

unnoticed
unloved
scared
slightly triggered

I want...

to call my boyfriend
to si
to purge

I need...

to go back to sleep
to do homework
to research for my speech
to fill out that application

I have...

Rebecca
Gabriel
a brain
actual valid feelings

I love....

Gabriel (my bf)
my cat
West Virginia

I hate....

abuse
depression

[swanfaerie]

i am...
alive
tired
loved


i am not...
required to answer to the mother
in a very good mood
hateful
thinking very rationally
ready to die


i feel...
scared
vulnerable
afraid
cold
tired


i want...
to be heard
to be validated
a decent night's sleep
a partner
to quit alienating my friends


i need...
love
understanding
the sores on my toes to go away
sleep
irl friends
a t


i have...
wonderful children
my hobbers
a house over my head
food in my stomach
a messy kitchen!
good friends


i love...
my boys
my cat
my friends


i hate...
the way i'm feeling
that stupid sh*t should matter
that i have no t
that the mother keeps meddling
that the guardianship isn't yet dissolved
that i yelled at my timmiebear (and it wasn't his fault)
that i'm held hostage by my emotions
that i'm so irritable
that i'm still su