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tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by VowsOfSadness » Wed Jul 13, 2005 10:14 pm

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I need to talk about this somewhere, so I am putting it in here*
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Okay, so I have lost some weight and look a bit better (weight wise) I bought a new bathing suit and for once in my life I don't care if some of my stomach is showing, BUT I feel so damn guilty I don't know what to do. The only reason I am toning down is because I have been purging and eating weird.
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Post by NobodyToYou » Thu Jul 14, 2005 12:48 am

hmmm...told a secret I didn't really want to tell. So I deleted it.
Bye secret.
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Post by balletomane » Thu Jul 14, 2005 3:23 am

Question about this thread: Are we allowed to comment on people's secrets, via PM or whatever? Or ask for responses?



I say the other people are really weird, because I'm afraid that they won't like me. :oops:

Comments via PM are welcome (on any past secrets as well)
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Post by BladeAngel » Thu Jul 14, 2005 4:03 am

I bet you could. I bet a lot of people are like me and wondering about what people thought... I almost came back on here an delete my secrets, because I've never told anyone any of them... then I decided it really did feel good to get them out.
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Post by VowsOfSadness » Thu Jul 14, 2005 4:05 am

Question about this thread: Are we allowed to comment on people's secrets, via PM or whatever? Or ask for responses?
Everyone please read first post I explained everything there.
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Post by magebaby » Thu Jul 14, 2005 2:58 pm

i´m not ok. people think i am but i´m not. i don´t want them to know because they´ll leave if they find out. people always do.

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Post by amarganth » Thu Jul 14, 2005 5:15 pm

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I think that the only reason that I read books, do work and create visuals, is because I'm so ugly and undesireable I can't expect any man to ever look my way. I create only in stubborn defiance and bitterness.

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Post by Illumina » Thu Jul 14, 2005 9:28 pm

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Post by DecemberLivy » Fri Jul 15, 2005 3:08 am

i am not independent, i am alone and its killing me. i want to change, i hate myself, i hate everything i am, i want to change so badly but i will never be perfect enough for myself.
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Post by starrynight26 » Fri Jul 15, 2005 4:14 am

I haven't actualy revealed much about myself to anybody at all. I'm too scared of their opinions. Sometimes I wonder how much of my true self really exists and how much is from others' influence.

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Post by Chessie » Fri Jul 15, 2005 5:10 am

*please comment-pm*

I feel rejected by the world.
My throat is bleeding again and really hurts.
My mother is capable of emotionally hurting me more than anyone else - and has many times.

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I'm still not over the "sexual assult" that my family doesn't know about. And never will, as far as I'm concerned. I'd hate hear all the remarks about me making myself a vicitim, being a slut, needing to go to self defense classes....I want nothing to do with any of that....
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Post by DecemberLivy » Fri Jul 15, 2005 6:14 am

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:redstar: I am a liar, I cannot stop lying to everyone I meet, I am ashamed of myself and I think this is a mental problem because I lie about everything, I've tried to stop but nothing is working.

:redstar: I hate myself more than anyone else. I hate who I have become and I hate the fact that I am trying to change. I hate everything I am.

:redstar: I think I may be bisexual... and I dont think its a phase. I am sometimes very much attracted to girls instead of guys.

:redstar: I know for a fact my mum is ashamed of my scars, she has told me.
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Post by glass angel » Fri Jul 15, 2005 10:12 am

*i nearly killed two people. they were my friends and now i hate them both for nearly dying.

*i'm not okay

*i'm supposed to be at work right now
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Post by Mistress » Fri Jul 15, 2005 2:46 pm

- Deep inside, it's not that I don't thinik I'm good enough, I know I'm not.

- I wish I'd died. And I really wish I hadn't promised him I wouldn't try to kill myself again.

And horribly, shamefully, terribly, I don't even want to keep that promise.
so here's us, on the raggedy edge...

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Post by BrokenGurl » Fri Jul 15, 2005 5:55 pm

i say im fine..when infact im not.....when i feel out of control im scared...am i really here or is this a dream...
speak as though noone's listening....

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Post by pink_flower » Fri Jul 15, 2005 11:12 pm

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-Me and my best friend tell each other everything, except i dont, i dont tell her about my SI/SA and i feel so guilty :cry:
-everyone thinks i'm the happiest most carefree person they know, i'm not really
-I dont think i could ever kill myself, but sometimes i wish i was dead
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Post by Licentia Poetica » Sat Jul 16, 2005 10:55 am

comments are welcome by PM.

* I have a boyfriend, but I really like one of my best friend's boyfriend.

* I'm scared, because these meds aren't working and I'm realising that no meds can ever make my mum love me, or make me love me.

* It's all my fault. I did it all to myself. I know depression's not like that, and most people feel guilty about it, but I really really did. I did it on purpose. Nobody believes me. That makes me sad.

* I don't want to be happy.
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Post by Green Beauty » Sat Jul 16, 2005 6:28 pm

- I was the one that burnt down our garden shed, no-one else. It was me.

- I used to have a compulsive urge to steal money from my family, it only happened once with my grandparents, and once with my brother, but every time i went to my dads i would steal. I am ashamed of it, and despite how i have it under control i still get urges to do so.

- Sometimes i just want my scars to be noticed, i never show them, but sometimes i go out wearing long sleevs and no sweat bands hoping someone will pull my sleeve up. I want to know what reaction i would get, to find out who my true friends are.

- It is a harsh word to use but i hate 4 people who i lead to believe are my friends. Dave, ellie, kim and eve. If you read this. I HATE YOU. I cant stand you and i wish i never have to see you again.

- I'm scared to live, but i'm too scared to die.

- When i said how i enjoyed my previous job. I lied. I hated it.

- When my great nan died i had to act as if i was sad/mourning when it didnt effect me at all. I didnt know her, maybe i would see her once a year. There was no attachment.

- I love my family but i cant stand being around them, i am never happy when i am.

- I say how i hate people. I don't, i'm just scared of them. I am only totally comfortabe around my girlfriend. I am scared of everyone else. Even my friends and family. I am scared of being judged.

- I only chose my A-level subjects to live up to the expectations i believe people have of me. I am failing all because i picked subjects which i cant handle and dont want to do. If i go to uni i will do the same. I can't lead my life how i want.

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Post by DecemberLivy » Sun Jul 17, 2005 12:26 am

PM's ok...

-I have a confession to make... but I can't make it without being misunderstood. I know that I seem to love alot of people.. and that I'm a fake... but this is real and I need you to realise. I'm not a little girl, my emotions have progressed much further than I ever wanted them to. I can't help how I feel for him. Mark was almost an excuse... he was who I leant on in between the fights with the man I really love, but none of it was real. Every way Mark helped me... I told myself it was not him, but the man I love. I know now... all the time I was with Mark, I was wishing... praying that somehow I would be talking to the man I really love. Sometimes I hate him, and we fight... but I cannot control my emotions, and my heart is telling me the truth. I'm in love with Craig. Please understand this is real... and others are not. I love craig so deeply it hurts, I pretend I hate him, but I can't live without him.
I hate my mother because Craig likes her in a way he will never like me. It hurts so bad.


-I'm scared to be happy, because then I think my life will have no meaning and everything will be too perfect.

-I call everyone that I feel threatened by, an attention seeker. But really, I'm the attention seeker. I am a little pathetic self absorbed liar. I hate fake people, and I am a fake.
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"My life's a mess"
"That's the way it's supposed to be" - soap -
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I think I'll paint roads
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Post by Skyeler » Sun Jul 17, 2005 1:14 am

Pm's ok....

- Sometimes I have chest pain and I think I'm going to die...
- I bought a gun the day Ashley left, I didn't have the guts to pull the trigger
- I smoke because it gives me an excuse to carry a lighter around

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- My first boyfriend told me he had to be rough.... I believed him


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