Things Left Unsaid *LA*

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by ghoulie13 » Wed May 18, 2005 6:36 pm

i know the bill is late!
because i did not fucking send it.
no i cannot work for you! you never work for me!
fuck off!!!
i'm sick in the head, you peice of self centered shit!
oh this feels soo good.

thanx

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Post by balletomane » Thu May 19, 2005 12:39 am

i feel so ignored. just a simple hello would help.

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Post by GLaDOS » Thu May 19, 2005 4:04 am

Nem tudom megcsinálni. Kész. Ennyi. Nem vagyok olyan ügyes, mint amilyennek hiszel. Se te, se a Gergő. Ennyi. Nem megy. Még fiatal vagyok hozzá. Bocsánat. Mindegy. Azért csinálom tovább.
This was a triumph.

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Post by NobodyToYou » Thu May 19, 2005 7:02 am

I am not that strong.
I can't handle all this!
Please don't expect too much from me...
I know I look ok, but I AM NOT OK!
Or maybe I am and I am just being stupid now.
nevermind.

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Post by Dungeon_Lilly » Thu May 19, 2005 6:30 pm

Is it really so much for you to support or encourage me
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I'm all lost in the supermarket
I can no longer shop happily
I came in here for that special offer
A guaranteed personality

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Post by DecemberLivy » Thu May 19, 2005 10:16 pm

nobody fucking cares
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"My life's a mess"
"That's the way it's supposed to be" - soap -
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Post by Over Here » Fri May 20, 2005 4:47 pm

ok -
E - i love you i love you i love you
A - ok, stop it now, u know why, so stop it before i do - even if i do enjoy it
J - dont even f-ing go there :x
M (and A to some extent) - damn it, my feelings are still there, dont bring them back again
desperate times call for desperate measures
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<img src="http://www.toxin.org/cgi-bin/count_hugs.cgi?hug=sas2506" height="40" width="240" title="HUGS">
<br clear="all">
*HUGS* TOTAL!
<a href="http://www.toxin.org/cgi-bin/hugs.cgi?& ... 2506">give sas2506 more *HUGS*</a>
<br><small><a href="http://www.toxin.org/cgi-bin/gethugs.cgi">Get hugs of your own</a></small><br clear="all">

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Post by Catylyx » Fri May 20, 2005 10:38 pm

Daniel: i still love you........i'm sorry i kissed you...this shouldn't have happened. :cry:

Sam: i love you, and i'm sorry for worrying you.

Nick: i'm sorry i worried you.......i shouldn't have told you....
<i>I am innocent and I have been set free
I no longer have chains around my feet
And no matter where I go or what they say
I am innocent</i> --Third Day
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Post by PoisonIvy » Sat May 21, 2005 6:53 am

I - I lied to you when I left. and I am SO sorry. I love you so much.

M - I do care about you - more then you know, more then I let myself know.

S - I hate Raj, I am so glad hes getting engaged, i wish you could see what an ass he really is

D - I hate you for giving me a knife and making me think that you don't love me

M - I hate that you are so dirty, you make my skin crawl with you sick jokes and habits

A - I hate that you lied to me when you said we would still talk, I hate that I let myself become as close to you as I did because it hurts so much more now
NO HUGS PLEASE
It takes hold and it won't let go . . .

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Post by Dungeon_Lilly » Sat May 21, 2005 11:29 am

Who am I really doing this for?
<center>

I'm all lost in the supermarket
I can no longer shop happily
I came in here for that special offer
A guaranteed personality

:tslug:

:dkpurpstar: :purpstar: :lpurpstar:

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Post by Wall » Sat May 21, 2005 5:49 pm

You'll never know what this is doing to me. Part of me hopes you'll open your eyes and try to see someday. Another part doesn't want the risk of you telling me again just how wrong it is to feel the way I do. If you wonder why everything is different after this, just remember all the things you didn't bother to want to know.
Fearless warriors in a picket fence
Reckless abandon wrapped in common sense
Deep water faith in the shallow end
And we are caught in the middle


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Post by balletomane » Sun May 22, 2005 5:36 pm

don't talk to me about depression. don't tell me about how you think i'm overmedicated and how this is all part of modern drug culture. do you know how hard it was for me to get this help? how scared i am of needing medication? maybe for once you can shut up and listen to me. try acting like a friend. i've tried so hard to be a good friend to you and what do i get in return? an oh-so-kind "fuck you and your melodrama" well you know what? you don't know the half of what i am going through. i am the least dramatic person you know. i only told you about my dep. because you were being horrible to me. i thought you might try not to hurt me so much, but i guess i was wrong.

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Post by Not_what » Sun May 22, 2005 6:54 pm

R - stop trying to be me. stop trying to please me. why dont you just fuck off and find your own way, there is fuck all wrong with you stop being a twat.

M - i still fucking love you, you bastard. even after everything i still feel for you, and i hate that. i just wanna let go.

W - yeah i like you, but theres a 9 year age gap, and i CANNOT be dealing with men atm, why cant you understand and accept that?

L - youve been there for most of the bad times, you know whats goin on, why cant you just let me know that you know. it means that much to me.

S - get over yourself

J - i hate you.

sorry, but had to do that
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Post by balletomane » Sun May 22, 2005 8:45 pm

To Michael and Brian: you fucking bastards. you both think you are so smart. too smart to dignify my questions with a response, right? Well you know what, just because i don't have a dick doesn't mean i can't learn physics. neither of you can even hold a candle to my math skills, so don't give me that crap. i asked you questions about the lab since you started without me, so answer them goddamn it. unless you don't know yourselves. Be glad--very glad-- that i'm in your group anymore. because i would make your lives a living hell. i hope one day someone more brave than i tells you just what you are--useless fuckers with over-inflated egos.

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Post by bexy » Sun May 22, 2005 8:57 pm

What did he do that i didn't? I fought for your approval for so long. You love me but not as much as him. So I've fucked up and thrown away a lot of opportunities. He's not an angel. You have no idea how badly he's fucked up, how lucky he is not to be in jail. He's still your angel, the perfect one. The rest of us are never quite as good, never quite good enough. It's not fair.

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Post by Wall » Mon May 23, 2005 1:43 am

Our lives together will never be the same. You've shown me what I mean to you -- what I don't mean to you. You've shown me how much my opinion, my fear and pain, don't matter. I find you pathetic and small and a poor excuse for a husband and father. Don't plan on us being the happy family we once were. You've thrown all that away. You may have taken this impressive opportunity to show just how blah, blah, blah...but in the process you lost your family. Impressive. Really impressive. Loser.
Fearless warriors in a picket fence
Reckless abandon wrapped in common sense
Deep water faith in the shallow end
And we are caught in the middle


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Post by marylou » Mon May 23, 2005 3:35 pm

D- I feel like you don't respect or value what's important to me. It feels like you don't care. That hurts me alot.

O- Don't go.

C- I can't tell you, I'm sorry.

K- Thankyou.

M&D- I want to die.
"You loosen my chains and just ask me to trust you. But it's so much easier this way, even though I know that I am bound."

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Post by Over Here » Mon May 23, 2005 5:54 pm

you dont know half the shit im going through, so dont keep fucking insulting me just "cos you feel like it"
bloody arsehole :x :evil:
desperate times call for desperate measures
<br clear="all">
<img src="http://www.toxin.org/cgi-bin/count_hugs.cgi?hug=sas2506" height="40" width="240" title="HUGS">
<br clear="all">
*HUGS* TOTAL!
<a href="http://www.toxin.org/cgi-bin/hugs.cgi?& ... 2506">give sas2506 more *HUGS*</a>
<br><small><a href="http://www.toxin.org/cgi-bin/gethugs.cgi">Get hugs of your own</a></small><br clear="all">

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Post by Over Here » Mon May 23, 2005 6:04 pm

Em S - i know you can relate to me but you dont truly know what im going through. I want to tell you :( I wanted to give you access to things about me :( but you went offline and i wont see you till Sunday - even then i might not be there :( and i want to give you my penknife cos i trust you and i cant keep it in the house. and i would give it to laura or someone else but they wouldn't give it back if i asked (then again would you???) and they would screw at me :( oh God, please guide me through and dont let me mess this up all over again. Oh and i loved ur testimony.
Em B - i dont know how i feel for you. at all. im lost and confused and stuck in this place. and im trying to get out. You really confused me, but i forgive you for that. wasn't ur fault. but it didnt help either.
Em C - stop it you areshole, just leave me out of it. NOT MY PROBLEM!!
Laura - SORRY!! im so sorry we scared you on the minibus and in urger King :( sorry sorry sorry - if emma was here she'd say the same!
desperate times call for desperate measures
<br clear="all">
<img src="http://www.toxin.org/cgi-bin/count_hugs.cgi?hug=sas2506" height="40" width="240" title="HUGS">
<br clear="all">
*HUGS* TOTAL!
<a href="http://www.toxin.org/cgi-bin/hugs.cgi?& ... 2506">give sas2506 more *HUGS*</a>
<br><small><a href="http://www.toxin.org/cgi-bin/gethugs.cgi">Get hugs of your own</a></small><br clear="all">

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Post by Not_what » Mon May 23, 2005 7:11 pm

laura - i just want you to notice. i want you to help me through this, i want you to stop focusin on what im doing wrong and show that you understand what's happening right now. i just want you to care.

will - i like you, i really do, but this just cant go on because i cant handle it, and you know that i cant.

reidy - FUCK YOU
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**Hakuna Matata**

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