Why you won't SI

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by VowsOfSadness » Mon Feb 28, 2005 2:29 pm

-Dont feel I should write this because then it would be in stone--

Im not going to cut today because I deserve better
*Challenges welcome*
I always love a :lpurpstar:

I woke up this morning, I suddenly realized we're all in this together.

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Ask me anything!!!

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Post by acdcrocker1909 » Sat Mar 05, 2005 4:24 am

:bluestar: I will not SI, cause i dont want to hurt myself anymore
:bluestar: I dont want to disappoint Brooke, who has helped me so Much,
:bluestar: I want control.
:bluestar: I refuse to give in anymore
:bluestar: I dont need anymore scars.
:bluestar: I dont want to be afraid of myself at times anymore
:bluestar: I want to find better ways to deal with my emotions.
:bluestar: I dont want people to lose faith in me
:bluestar: I want to be able to feel like me again
:bluestar: I want to be able to express emotion, instead of bottling it all up.
:bluestar: I dont want to see Brooke disappointed in me.. Yea this is on here twice, but shes helped me beyond measure, I want to keep free for myself, and her too.

wow.. thats alot..
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Post by bonita_05 » Wed Mar 09, 2005 1:17 am

1. it hurts my friends/family
2. i have 3 little boys that would be devastated if they knew
3. i need to pierce my belly button in like 11 days
4. my body is a temple of the holy spirit
5. scars are ugly
6. people ask me about it and i can't lie
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Post by ComfortablyNumb » Thu Mar 10, 2005 4:10 pm

:star: It hurts people
:star: It hurts ME
:star: I'm worth more than it

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Post by falling... » Thu Mar 10, 2005 8:34 pm

:star: i want to be free
:star: i can stop
:star: i wont let *him* win
:star: make my friend proud
:star: fed up of the lies
:star: dont want no more scars
:star: want to be able to go swimming
:star: want to sort my life out
:star: i dont deserve this
:star: i want be happy
:star: need to prove to myself i can give up,i have control
:star: i dont like blood any more
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Post by singo » Fri Mar 25, 2005 12:31 pm

Essentially, I'm stopping for the good of me.

But I hate seeing that look on my bf's face, the questions about scabs & scars, the fact that my parents know.

I'm getting close to forty days. Forty is a biblical number for a generation (meaning a long time) so I'm kinda exstatic (sp?) about this!!!
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Post by BsbOwnsYourMom » Sun May 01, 2005 7:24 am

:star: to not dissapoint/hurt other people

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Post by 44_false_starts » Sun May 01, 2005 8:42 am

:star: I made a promise to Matt that if i hurt myself, I have to donate blood and I HATE needles sooooo much...
:star: I don't want to lose Katie
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Post by scarlit_sky » Tue May 03, 2005 1:22 am

:star: I would lose whatever trust I have gained from my pdoc, T, family and friends
:star: I would lose whatever trust I have gained in myself
:star: It hurts my family and friends
:star: It would hurt my boyfriend
:star: I would have to start counting days all over again

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Post by VowsOfSadness » Tue May 03, 2005 3:13 am

BECAUSE I THEW EVERYTHING AWAY AND BURRIED EVERYTHING AND I HAVE THE SUPPORT OF MY FRIENDS!
*Challenges welcome*
I always love a :lpurpstar:

I woke up this morning, I suddenly realized we're all in this together.

Drop by my place & say hi :)
Ask me anything!!!

I'm fully Recovered!

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Post by silenceBROKEN » Tue May 03, 2005 3:37 am

hmm..this might be really hard for me to do..but i feel as if i really need to see this in writing.

:purpstar: i'm healthier without it.
:purpstar: it's easier to function in everyday life.
:purpstar: part of me loves myself.
:cystar: I want life in every word to the extent that it's absurd. :cystar:

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Post by kate_ » Tue May 03, 2005 7:59 am

i don't want to feel my pain inside anymore, si keeps me from numbing out
:lblstar: don't go hiding in the shade. :lblstar:


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Post by Thunder_chey » Thu May 05, 2005 2:30 am

because it upsets my co workers

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Post by ~*Star*~ » Thu May 05, 2005 7:06 pm

because it creates more problems, and isn't worthwhile, or effective in the long run.

i'm better than that...

[feeling positive today]
"I was down, I fell, I fell so fast
Dropping like the grains in an hourglass
Never say forever cause nothing lasts
Dancing with the bones of my buried past"

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"The stars are upside down"
Four Years and Nine Months


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Post by nisi » Sat May 07, 2005 7:25 am

1. I'm scared of pain.

2. I don't want to die.

3. I don't want to lose control.

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