Things Left Unsaid *LA*

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by demidivine » Wed Mar 23, 2005 12:15 am

but i wish i didnt fancy you. i know why i do, it's because i'm lonely; and its nothing in comparison to k.

why am i so competitive? why is self harm competitive? why am i never good enough at it?

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Post by demidivine » Fri Mar 25, 2005 12:55 am

i hate people.
i hate this neverending cycle.
i hate never being good enough at anything.

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Post by singo » Fri Mar 25, 2005 12:10 pm

B-STOP BEING SUCH AN INCONSIDERATE BASTARD. YOU'RE ONLY CONCERNED WITH YOUR OWN FUCKING FEELINGS. SHOW ME SOME FUCKING AFFECTION!!!!!! SHOW ME THAT YOU LOVE ME WITH THE OCCASIONAL SMILE. You hurt me everyday. :cry:
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Post by Guest » Fri Mar 25, 2005 12:29 pm

shut the fuck up, all you do is fucking moan. you're a stupid prick so just shut up and leave me the fuck alone!

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Post by Wall » Fri Mar 25, 2005 4:40 pm

I think I finally understand. In that, I'm glad. I will work to be the calm you need. I will work hard, but I am not perfect. I love you too much not to do all I can for you. It is what I must do. I know this is a long road. We'll travel it together. And, I know that for me it will get worse before it gets better. I will bear scars, physically, from our travel. When I look back on them, giving you the life you deserve will be worth it.
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Post by VowsOfSadness » Fri Mar 25, 2005 5:33 pm

everyone--Can you tell when I'm lying, can you tell I have no friends? I spend all my time alone, I know I've said that, but you say you will hang with me but you dont you leave me alone. I don't hold it against you, but I do not like being alone so much.

Anyone-I DONT KNOW WHAT A FRIEND IS????

Bill- I don't know if I am sorry I dont know if I knwo anything, likeif were friends or not I dont know. Seems you don't want to be my friend and I dont care because I acted liek a bitch, but you know what dont act liek you NEVER DID ANY THING LIKE YOUR SO FUCKING PERFECT *tears appart everything* I FUCKIN HATE YOU SOMETIMES IT SEEMS. *crys*
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Post by GLaDOS » Sat Mar 26, 2005 2:35 am

Á... a fasz kivan már ezzel az egész szarral, hogy nem tudok normális lenni. De szarok rá. Illetve, dehogy szarok. Csak ez van.
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Post by Wall » Sat Mar 26, 2005 5:22 am

oh really? everybody is somebody? great phrase. very catchy. i can see it on the posters, the postcards, ink pens, key chains, t-shirts. people everybody is somebody, except when they're not and a platitude for a slogan doesn't change that.
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Post by xanemicroyaltyx » Sun Mar 27, 2005 2:40 pm

:cry:
you make me want to die. over and over again.

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Post by angelwithapintglass » Sun Mar 27, 2005 10:59 pm

I'M LONELY!

and i want to be held like that again..

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Post by Dungeon_Lilly » Mon Mar 28, 2005 5:22 pm

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Post by liltinkerbell » Mon Mar 28, 2005 8:59 pm

Dani: I cant believe u over a damn EASTER PARTY u tell people the girl I like???? n now u EXPECT ME to FORGIVE u n tell u ne thing n everything?? I will NEVER EVER trust u! I may not neccessarily hate u but I am damn pissed right now!!! everything u have been doin all that adds up ...... thank you so much for repeatedly trying to ruin my life........... well ty u have thouroughly accomplished just that..............
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They say it's my fault but I want her so much
Wanna fly her away where the sun and rain
Come in over my face, wash away all the shame
When they stop and stare - don't worry me
‘Cause I'm feeling for her what she's feeling for me
I can try to pretend, I can try to forget
But it's driving me mad, going out of my head"

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Post by shadow of a smile » Tue Mar 29, 2005 7:29 am

mom and dad-
yes, me and nigel are back together. no, i'm not gonna dump him just b/c you want me to. last time you broke us up i was 16 and living at home. now i'm nearly 20 and out of the house. he's not the reason i started cutting. actually i didn't really start cutting til after you broke us up the first time. i really don't understand why you don't want us together, why you threatened to not let me live at home this summer. why you insisted on coming to my therapy session and start into the whole i don't communicate with you and you don't want me to see him, etc. you say it's not b/c he's black, but what else is there? yes he comes from a broken home and has had lots of drama, but that's not his fault and does not dictate how he will live his own life. he loves me so much, and he's so good to me. i'm not dependent on him to make me not cut like i was with brandon, i think that's why brandon dumped me. b/c i put too much shit on him. but with nigel it's different, i don't usually call him when i'm nuts. he knows me better than anyone ever has before and i love him too. so deal with it.
mom and dad i love you, but you just need to let go and realize that i'm a big girl and can make my own decisions. trust me, this is not a bad decision. and mom, don't go bitching to kevin behind my back about it either. i hate that.
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Post by xanemicroyaltyx » Tue Mar 29, 2005 8:29 pm

beth,jen,charly- he assaulted me okay. he hurt me. he tore out my insides.

and all i wanted was for someone to look after me.

and all i got was people 'not taking sides'.

and now you're still not there for me.

and i'm going through this.

on my own.

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Post by Wall » Wed Mar 30, 2005 4:46 am

would you just hold me. hold me and let me weep. don't tell me it's going to be alright. don't shhhhh me. just let me weep. hold me while i shake. hold me safe and tight. i don't often get to feel safe. hold me and just be here. don't tell me of your troubles during the day as if someone not liking your idea for a solution to their algorithm is the same as me having no will to live. just be here and hold me so i feel safe. . let me feel your arms around me and know that i exist. hold me so i feel your arms about me. hold me so i don't implode.
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Reckless abandon wrapped in common sense
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Post by lost down here » Wed Mar 30, 2005 3:40 pm

i'm too scared to go through next year without you, the dream made me realize that you're all i have.... :cry:

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Post by amyfairy » Thu Mar 31, 2005 2:54 pm

james, you're a wanker and now i realise this you can never hurt me again because i don't care :)

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Post by kurdt_kobain » Fri Apr 01, 2005 12:59 am

Jesus Christ, I love you.

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Post by amyfairy » Fri Apr 01, 2005 1:01 pm

you know... i don't fucking like being completely and totally ignored. i know i'm worthless but you always said you cared but what-fucking-ever.
and i do have feelings. yeah big surprise. you make me so mad.

but whatever. bitches.

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Post by Queen Zandra Ava » Sat Apr 02, 2005 8:45 pm

All I fucking wanted from you was for you to hold me and tell me that you care! All I want you to say is that i matters that I live and not die! Why cant you do that?
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