When You Feel You Cant Go On

[_MessedUp_]

reading taht peom/text is making me think better thoughts now thanx

[no ordinary]

Hold on because it's worth the terrible waiting

My mantra

[Mierke]

It made me think again. The first time in weeks I saw a little hope. Thanks so much for posting that.

[Its all a blur]

thank you

[_dreamwalkin_]

This really helped me. I've been thinking about cutting recently but never actually did it. My best friend has been there for me every step of the way and I e-mailed this to him. It helped him understand more about everything I'm going through; he didn't really understand before seeing how this hasn't effected him personally. I want to post some of the things that he said back, hoping they will touch other people and make them want to seek help or tell a friend what they have been going through.

"what you just gave me put into words what i have been trying to say. there is something out there for you, weather you can see it or not. there are people who love you, weather you believe it or not. nobody in this world goes unloved. nobody. especially not you. dont you see? you have so much to live for. i know, i agree with the advice at the end, im not gonna say i understand, because i dont. im the farthest one from understanding how it feels. but i understand you, at least a little bit, more than some, and.... i dont know what to say. hang on, laura. hang on to me. hang on to yourself. hang on to life, that shred of existence that keeps you sane everyday, and keeps you up every night. the shred of existence that wont let you go. keep going laura, plodding along with the rest of us. dont let go. you cant. come to me, i'm here, i'll be there for whatever you want, if you need a shoulder to cry on, a hand to hold, whatever, i will as always be here. you need to know this laura, because i wont let you go. just plain wont. period. you are not alone in this. i will say it again: i am here. i love you. you are not alone! ever! so, when the times are at their roughest, give me a call, think of me, whatever helps."

[VowsOfSadness]

wow, I am going to save this and when I feel like I can't go on (which is often) I will read it!!!

[neassa]

Thank you. You have no idea how much that message has helped me today. i cried real tears when i read it. Thank you.

xxx xxx

[bonita_05]

this is truely beautiful... i dont' know whether you wrote this or not, but if you did i'im truely amazed... it's amazing... WOW... thanx for making me think

Love,
Ellen

[pos]

Hello everyone. I miss you all so here's my personal update:
I wenT with my spouse and a friend and saw Pacifier
starring Vin Diesel. It had Chirs Potter from Kung Fu
the Legend Continues in it. The place was packed with
kids and others and everybody seemed to love the
movie. I recently saw a good tv show called NUMB3RS
which we ususally do not watch. But we needed
distraction. My mom-in-law wrecked her car and her
doctor says no more driving. She's 2 hours from us. I
went out Friday and took her to various important
appointments etc.
My sister on the phone from Arizona said I should take
care of myself, my spouse, and mother-in-law in that
order. I have a bleeding spot on my leg which I am
finally phoning my leg doctor to see. My foot doctor
said I should. Specialists!
I am looking forward to 24 at 9 pm tonight, then
MEDIUM, then Without a Trace at 11pm on TNT.
Bye for now
Love, pos

[lonelygirl]

This once helped me i hope it can help you.
nikki

I think this is really a progound piece~mama~

When You Feel You Can't Go On

I'm sorry that you're hurting so desperately right now. I know how painful the seconds, and minutes, and days can be, how long the nights are. I understand how very hard hanging on is, and how much courage it takes.

I ask though that you hold onto one day at a time. Just one day, and slowly this despair will pass. The feelings you fear you're trapped in will serve their purpose, and then fade away. Difficult to imagine isn't it? Almost impossible to believe when every cell in your body it seems cries out in agony, desperately in need of comfort. When it feels like the only thing in the whole world that can touch your pain and banish it is beyond your grasp. And after all this time, the assurance that you will heal has become an empty, broken promise.

Just let one tiny cell in your body continue to believe in the promise of healing. Just one. You can surrender every other cell to your despair. Just that one little cell of faith that you can heal and be whole again is enough to keep you going, is enough to lead you through the darkness. Although it can't banish your suffering, it can sustain you until the time comes for you to let your pain go. And the letting go can only occur in it's own time, as much as we would like to push the pain away forever.

Hold on. Hold on to appreciate the beauty of the earth, to feel the songs of the birds in your heart, to learn and to teach, to laugh a genuine laugh, to dance on the beach, to rest peacefully, to experience contentment, to want to be no other place but in the here and now, to trust in yourself, and to trust your life.

Hold on because it's worth the terrible waiting. Hold on because you are worthy. Hold on because the wisdom that will follow you out of this darkness will be a tremendous gift. Hold on because you have so much love and joy waiting to be experienced. Hold on because life is precious, even though it can bring terrible losses. Hold on because there is so much that you can't now imagine waiting ahead on your journey - a destiny that only you can fulfill. Hold on although your exhausted and your grasp is shaky, and you want more than anything to let go sometimes, hold on even though. Please hold on.

So much in life can be difficult, even impossible to understand. I know, I know... So many of us have cried in despair, why? why? why? and still the answers and the comfort failed to show. Survival can be a long and lonely road, in spite of all those who've stumbled down the path before you. And it can be a treacherous, torturous journey - so easy to get lost, and yet impossible to avoid even one painful step.

And the light, the light at the end of the dark tunnel for so long cannot be seen, although eventually you'll begin to feel its' warmth as you move forward. And forward you must move in order to get through the hell of remembering, of despair, of rage, of grief. Keep looking forward please. Rest if you must, doubt your ability to survive the journey if you have to, but never let go of the guide ropes, although when you close your fingers around them, your hands feel empty, they are there. Please trust me, they are there.

When you're exhausted, when all you have to count on is a weakened, weary faith, hold on. When you think you want to die, hold on until you recognize that it's not death you seek, but for the pain to go away. Hold on, because this darkness will surely fade away. Hold on. Please hold on.

wow thank you 4 this!
I'm definately goin to print this out.

[RG]

Thankyou for this. Lately things haven't been going particulairly well and si to this point has only been able to solve so much (as much as I am trying to quit). Made me think I am worth even a tiny something so someone out there and think of the possible good times ahead. Thanx again

Chels

[tweaker]

Thank you