last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

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Post by bonita_05 » Wed Mar 02, 2005 11:59 pm

just keep telling myself... one more day. just one more day.

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Post by swanfaerie » Fri Mar 04, 2005 5:55 am

i don't want to have fresh scars when i go on vacation
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Post by (*Haven*) » Sat Mar 05, 2005 9:29 am

I want to be able to go a month and only have one day that I've harmed myself....I'm almost there!
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Post by singo » Sun Mar 06, 2005 12:02 am

I didn't do it cuz i had a good cry, posted a message here and then went to sleep hugging my stuffed dog harvey. i also stopped myself cuz i don't want fresh scars at my formal.
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Post by Tainted » Tue Mar 08, 2005 2:53 am

I didnt because I have this new wonderful guy friend that I a mable totalk to about stuff....he has always been a good friend but I have just told him about stuff...cause he had noticed a scar on my arm...hes very relaxed and never gave me a funny look at all......he just smiled and said

'show me one person in this world who does not have scars'

It was rad...now we are able to talk alot...and it is nice to have someone who can talk with me...:):):)

He helps me not SI....him and the fact that i really do want to get better
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Post by singo » Wed Mar 09, 2005 1:34 pm

I was at school @ lunchtime & instead of going to the toliets & SI i went & found people to talk to & be around & who cheer me up like my good friend MJ, god she is a darl
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Post by Crazyboi0789 » Fri Mar 11, 2005 5:33 am

One time I wanted to, and before I got to do anything I just ran outside put on my rollarblades and just went away and thought about stuff.
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Post by prettyvacant » Fri Mar 11, 2005 1:19 pm

Because I had a doctors appointment this morning and she looks so damned disappointed. :(
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Post by Noone » Tue Mar 15, 2005 12:11 am

I didn't because I came on BUS and I felt so much support and love here through all the posts I read, that it shows that some people really care about others and it made me feel better
I don"t know if what I wrote made some sense but thanks to all of you ....

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Post by Something Else » Tue Mar 15, 2005 6:25 am

Welcome, Noone! Here's a cow for you!

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I'm glad the board helped, and I hope to see more of you on the boards!

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Post by Something Else » Tue Mar 15, 2005 6:30 am

I came close to SI-ing today. I didn't because it's Lent, and I've promised myself to try not to SI as a Lenten penance. And I won't be satisfied that I tried hard enough if I SI. Plus, I know abstinence from SI does make me stronger (even though it doesn't always feel like that at the moment).

I guess I'm glad I didn't. At the same time, I can't wait for Lent to be over.

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Post by soul sista » Tue Mar 15, 2005 7:20 pm

Last time i wanted to si n didnt is because it will only make me worse and i promised him i wouldnt
it´s all over but the crying
fade to black I´m sick of trying
took too much and now I´m done
It´s all over but the crying
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Post by (*Haven*) » Wed Mar 16, 2005 6:28 am

Last time I wanted to SI I didn't because I told myself it was stupid and it wouldn't help anything. And I'm very proud of myself.
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Post by WildSoul » Sun Mar 20, 2005 12:43 pm

because I want to take better care of my body, and because I know it wouldhurt those who love me, to see marks on my body

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Post by nika » Wed Mar 23, 2005 1:08 am

I was convinced I was going to SI as soon as I got home from some very stressful things, but instead I threw myself into my homework, and I actually got a lot done because of the feverish energy ... now I have a little less to be stressed about. :) I can't really believe it ... but it feels good.

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Post by singo » Thu Mar 24, 2005 1:17 pm

I played the Sims 2. It's incredibly addictive and helps me escape from my own problems eg: @least my stove isn't on fire :lol:
I played it for a full 3 hours
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Post by Catylyx » Fri Mar 25, 2005 2:45 am

last time i wanted to si..i actually did :cry: :oops: .....but i didn't do it [worse] like i wanted to, because i was on the phone with my boyfriend and i forced myself to tell him that i was really badly urgy, and he helped me fight it...soothing me and telling me that he loved me and he just wanted me to sleep, and not do anything........i'm proud that i did what he said...but the urge still hasn't left me, and it's getting hard to fight again :cry: .....(hope this counts...i'm not sure, sorry...)
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Post by empty soul » Sun Mar 27, 2005 12:52 am

singo wrote:I played the Sims 2. It's incredibly addictive and helps me escape from my own problems eg: @least my stove isn't on fire :lol:
I played it for a full 3 hours
^^thats such an awesome game!! wooo!

i just looked at my arms and realised i dont want to have to look at more scars every day because thats hurts inside too much
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Post by nika » Tue Mar 29, 2005 1:23 am

I was thinking obsessively about SI even though nothing was going wrong or anything. I ended up scratching myself a little (no marks, so doesn't count) and then got myself together and hung out with family. :)
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Post by swanfaerie » Tue Mar 29, 2005 7:22 am

because a good friend reminded me that it wouldn't help me get my kids back.
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