Triggery ??'s thingie....

[bonita_05]

1. how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?

i'll feel... numb, dissociated, relieved, angry

2. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation?

relief from the numbness and sadness that i'm feeling. take away what little self confidence i still have

3. how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?

good, elated, relieved. closer to feeling that way

4. if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then?

about 30 minutes-1 hour till tomorrow if i'm REALLY lucky.

feel sad and depressed and guilty and angry again.

5. what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then?

chat with my friends try and occupy my brain by playing a game. take a bath and go to bed after that

6. how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?

angry. mad. guilty. worthless.

sad. depressed. proud.

7. what do i really want to do right now? how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now?

cry and have someone hold and hug me.

go curl up in some blankets after i get offline and have some hot cocoa

[limestone]

hi, how did you get on? did it help answering the questions?