This may be a little long (will make as short as poss). I am hoping that this can be a step in the right direction for me as in my heart of hearts I can just see some light at the end of all this, but the road towards this looks one which is rocky and painful.
Brief history: Have admitted to myself that am absolutely OBSESSED with my best friend. He has been an absolute star in every way, been there every step of the way etc and we have slept together loads and still very tactile.
I had a huge talk with him this weekend and I will summarise the outcome in bullet points (easier)
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Ok so arrrggghhhh shhhhiiitttttttt!!!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!
It's time 4 me to move on, no seriously this has gone on long enough and I'ms ick and tired of SI -ing, being physically sick when I think of him with anyone else, going thru his texts, and generally being miserable, not being ablke to get him outta my head and never meeting anyone else because of all this.
yes I'm crazy about him, but wanna get to a stage where I:
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I have no illusions that our relationship will ever be completely free from anything sexual, but I want to get to the stage where I am comfortable in myself and not obsessed and like moved on - so I can meet someone else and not feel like this
PLLLEEASSSEEE help me - anything any words of advice or encouragement
Didn't know which board to post this on so did on both.
Bear in mind - I have *SI* frequently and *SU* twice over this
Thanks so much
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