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Post by kurdt_kobain » Tue Dec 21, 2004 3:28 am

I want you so badly, don't ever let go of me.
trying to follow in the footsteps of the masters,
but it's a lot harder than it looks because even though
they had the same size feet as us, they weren't looking
down the whole time while they walked to make sure
they were doing it right.
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DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Post by broken_words » Thu Dec 23, 2004 11:37 pm


Jerod- i like you but i'm just not ready me and mike just got done i made Kalee angry and i feel like shit...you are still with krystal right? then why did you kiss me? I feel like a slut and i know someone thinks i am one...i don't understand myself..so how can you?

Mike- you haven't emailed me back so i don't know how you feel all i know is FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU CAN HAVE THAT HALF-MAN NADINE CUZ I DON'T WANT YOUR LYING ASS ANYWAY!!! YOU HURT ME SOOOOOOOO BAD!

Mom- i don't know what your deal is ... one moment your happy the next i'm the devil and you want me to die...wtf?

Dad- all i did was meet a guy at a CHURCH CAMP and now i'm talking to him...damn...it's not like we frickin had sex or anything...shit...

Kalee- i'm such a bitch and i know it...i'm so fucked up and i don't know why i did it....maybe i feeel like you do at times...i just want someone to love me...that's all. I wish you would tell me how you TRUELY feel the first time...and not beat around the bush... i miss you...and i'm soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sorry!

Myriah- i'm sorry ... but i've gone 6 days without si...that's good i suppose....

Aaron- i hate you for hurting Myriah and i want to hurt you!!!!!!!



dang that felt awesome!

See these tears fallin'?
they're pure and true,
but why can these tears,
be truer than you?



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Post by ShellyT » Fri Dec 24, 2004 10:45 pm

James...i don't really want to hold hands, or kiss you, or anything like that. I just want to be with you. All day. I just like being with you. You're such an awesome guy. I'm just too shy to tell you. I like you. A lot.
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Post by VowsOfSadness » Mon Dec 27, 2004 8:33 pm

John-Please, I'm so scared, I want to help you, your reaching out for help, my arms are out....just fall into my arms.....and I'll never tell....no one has to know about this

Liz-don't ever talk to me you tranny get a life I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN SO STAY OUT OF MY WAY, MY FRIENDS, AND MY LIFE hoe.

Katye-I know your mom died, and I was nice to you, hell i don't even know you, I told guidance I didn't even want to get you involved, BUT YOU BROUGHT YOURSELF INTO THIS so don't expect special treatment. YOU CAN DISH IT OUT, BUT YOU STILL HAVE TO TAKE IT BITCH!!!


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Post by Dungeon_Lilly » Mon Dec 27, 2004 9:42 pm

I hate you. I hate how you treat me. I hate the way you make me feel. But I hate myself more for always going back.
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Post by marylou » Wed Dec 29, 2004 11:23 pm

D- That was crazy, that was scary, that totally freaked me out. That was beautiful. I can't thank you enough. Wow, God is incredible and scary and so powerful. And... I just can't express how I feel about the whole thing. How I feel about what you did for me, about what God did through you. Nothing I think of to say seems like the right words. Thanks.

You're can still drive me totally crazy and make me hate you so much, but staying up with me til that crazy hour, it bought you so much time! You can be an idiot for quite a while, and it won't matter coz you still did what you did at church. I think that's what drives me crazy so much. That somedays you can be so annoying and not get back to me and stuff and other days you just blow me away with how much you're there for me. Y'know I really try not to call you all the time and to be less needy and crap, but it's hard times just now. It's long days and nights, and God is using you to help me. Which is incredible. Please don't give up on me.
I know it sounds so crap and cliche and cheesey and all those things I wish that it didn't sound like, but I really couldn't do this without you.

Thanks for not being weirded out. Thanks for being holy (you had better have been or else that is like SO wrong!). Thanks for holding me down and for sticking it out with me, for forcing me through to the other side, the better side. Thanks for not making a deal out of holding my hand, for not being weird about it all. I needed that hand and I needed that hug so much, I can't describe how it made me feel. So safe, so very very safe.

D, thankyou okay. I mean it, like seriously, THANKYOU. Anytime you need someone to sit on you and stay up with you until 5am, you give me a call! I owe you.

God- Thankyou so much for helping me. Thankyou for being with me and D that night and for helping us through it all. It was scary and I was so mad at you, but you never gave up on me. You never walk away.
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Post by kurdt_kobain » Mon Jan 03, 2005 4:55 pm

I love you.
trying to follow in the footsteps of the masters,
but it's a lot harder than it looks because even though
they had the same size feet as us, they weren't looking
down the whole time while they walked to make sure
they were doing it right.
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Post by ~*Star*~ » Mon Jan 03, 2005 5:59 pm

why? why do we have to always end up like this. fighting. why cant we just sort everything out without killing eachother. why am i saying we its not even we. you. why is everything you do surounded by violence? everything you do, everytime you need something you resort to it. why cant you just talk? how hard is it? you're killing me. i just want to be normal and have people come back to my house like all my friends. i can never invite anyoone round because of you and i hate it. i hate you and everything about you. i hate your stupidity and petty little ways. why did you ever even have to come into my life? i cant explain, words dont mean anything anymore to you, all you know is action.
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Post by blink182 » Wed Jan 05, 2005 1:00 pm

Mum - I'm sorry that after you died I couldn't take the pain of losing you that I was selfish enough to cry out and tell you that I needed you. That I wanted you here wth me, that I loved you. I'm just sorry that I can't cope without you, that my whole life depends on you, you and nobody else. Nobody can replace you, not even M. I love you and I'm sorry. Please don't be mad at me. I need you but I can't have you, you're the person I want most right now and its breaking my heart that you're not here. That all I have is pictures of you and nothing else. I need more than just pictures, I need you . I miss you. Every day is a struggle for me, but I get thru it for you. Nobody but you. I cry for you every night but I just want somebody to hold me and tell me I'm gonna be okay, but they don't . They don't listen.

I'm sorry xxx
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Post by broken_words » Wed Jan 05, 2005 11:28 pm


Mom- i cannot wait untill i turn 18 and get the F**K out of your gay house and i won't have to use YOUR phone. Oh and thanks for making me stay up all night to do the chores you didn't do....and even longer to do my home work....i love that ... NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nadine- OMG!!! Didn't we agree about Mike??????????????????????????? THEN DON'T FUC*ING CALL HIM AGIAN OR I'LL BE FORCED TO DO THE UNTHINKABLE....i'll tell him what you said about him....HE"S MINE ANYWAY SO LEAVE US ALONE WE JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY DAMN IT!!!

Britt- you think your so clever b/c you broke me down..but guess what? i'll never forget that and when your lest expecting it....i'm gonna be there.... to tear you down....I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You don't even know me so stop telling everyone you do and i'm crazy!

See these tears fallin'?
they're pure and true,
but why can these tears,
be truer than you?



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Post by Mayalaen » Sat Jan 08, 2005 10:17 pm

Mom: Sorry I'm so messed up and not the kid you thought you could have.
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Post by the_grouch » Sun Jan 09, 2005 2:14 pm

J: Wow. it makes you a real big winner to play around with my emotions and bend me to your will, just because you can. you're going to get yours. oh yes. you just wait, because it won't be long at all.
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Post by Strange_And_Beautiful » Sun Jan 09, 2005 9:42 pm

Lauren: I fucking hate you. You've made me feel like shit and I hate you soooooo much!!!


Mom: I'm sorry I'm not you're perfect child. I'm just the survived abortion! That's all I am to you! You made me feel like shit even more than Lauren did!
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Post by Wall » Tue Jan 11, 2005 1:14 am

Please shut up. I'm tired of your garbage. Your attempts at getting your way disgust me. Your manipulations make me want to run the other way. I've tried explaining, asking, re-explaining, re-asking. I'm now to ignoring and next it'll be pushing away. I exist, too.
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Post by red umbrellas » Tue Jan 11, 2005 6:02 am

fuck you...how much effort do i have to put in before you care?

i know you're feeling bad right now, but i just need to know you're ok- i'm trying so hard....maybe i'm trying too hard, but just let me know.

stop messing with my head. damn you! decide if you want me round or not. stop telling me i'm great and then ignoring me. i hate you one minute then i don't and i dont know where i'm at.

Mum: i'm sorry. i never should have told youthere was anything wrong. i should have coped on my own. i don't want to hurt you, but i feel like i'm spiralling....i'm so so sorry
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Post by Elena » Tue Jan 11, 2005 11:47 am

mom: ... I never want to see you again. Just leave me alone until I can get out of your house for good. I've nothing more to say to you.

Mr. S.: So, you tell me to do something, and I go out of my way to do it. And then, you call me stupid for doing it, right to my face. First of all, that's just rude. Second, I'm smarter than you'll ever be. And don't tell me about what your God said I should or shouldn't do either, because I don't want to hear it. Quit being such a prick all the time.

L.- Leave me alone. Quit following me around. You must know I don't like you, so don't expect me pity.

Mrs. P.- I'm not your slave. Don't treat me like one. And don't treat me like I'm retarded either. I'm leaving in a couple weeks- good bye and good riddance.

S.- Don't be such a bitch all the time, and don't look at me like a freak. In fact, don't look at me at all. And, you're not being cute.

Mr. L.- I don't know, just go fuck yourself. No, actually, don't. Just cut it off! Serves you right, bastard.

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Post by VowsOfSadness » Tue Jan 11, 2005 9:28 pm

I DONT KNOW WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYY ARENT YOU TALKING TO ME BILL I DONT KNOW IF I LOVE YOU (AS A FRIEND) OR HATE YOU

YOU CONFUSE THE HELL OUT OF ME!!!!!
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Post by bright.eyes » Tue Jan 11, 2005 11:07 pm

why the fuck didnt u start talking to me? why are u making me feel like i've done something wrong, like i deserve to be punished? i haven't done anything wrong! but if i start thinking i have you KNOW what will happen, you know me, you've seen the fucking scars.... i don't want anymore but i'm so so so close...

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Post by marylou » Thu Jan 13, 2005 2:43 pm

Crap. I need you.
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Post by bright.eyes » Thu Jan 13, 2005 10:25 pm

i fucking hate you so much... are you purposefully trying to upset me? and why would you do that... we were together for ages, you now how easily i get upset, you know what i might do. how can you be so cruel, so uncaring, so inconsiderate of my feelings. well i guess they never mattered to you anyway, it was always what YOU wanted. i can't stand you, i literally can't, i'm so mad and i don't want to talk to you for a long long time, i don't even want to see you.

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