last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

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Post by pink_flower » Fri Nov 26, 2004 12:49 am

i really wanted to si tonight, caus i just felt a bit sad. but my flatmate asked if i wanted to make some cakes so i did that all night and had a right laugh with her :D
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Post by ninetails390 » Sun Nov 28, 2004 9:49 pm

I remembered my promise to my best friend that I wouldn't hurt myself, so I didn't. :)
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Post by pretty » Mon Nov 29, 2004 8:11 pm

I went into the newsagents instead of the chemists, and bought myself a 2005 diary (stationary makes me happy, plus i needed one) and a Discworld novel (which also made me happy). Can't afford to do it everyday, but it made the start of my week a lot better than it looked like it was going to be :)
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Post by noldo » Sun Dec 05, 2004 8:10 am

I talked the whole night to a friend via messenger and fell asleep afterwards.
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Post by QuietPurr » Sun Dec 05, 2004 11:06 pm

The last time I wanted to Si, I didn't because I told myself (over and over) that I was stronger than that...
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Post by Ruby Tuesday » Tue Dec 07, 2004 4:44 pm

because I wanted to prove to myself that I could cope with feeling like this without it.

it's hard though. :cry:
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Post by Copasetic » Thu Dec 09, 2004 11:43 am

Because I realized rationally that it wouldn't have done me any good.
So this is the new year - and I don't feel any different...
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Post by Ruby Tuesday » Thu Dec 09, 2004 11:50 am

i don't want to go home for xmas with recent marks on my arms.
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Post by waxbutterfly » Sat Dec 11, 2004 3:41 am

because my wonderful boyfriend called me and made me feel beautiful and special, and i thought about how much he would be hurt if i si'd.

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Post by TheWeightoftheWorld » Sat Dec 11, 2004 9:11 am

because i fell asleep. and when i woke up, i still felt crappy, but i got to see my boyfriend and then when i still felt crappy and knew i needed other help, i called a friend who talked to me for awhile.
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Post by (*Haven*) » Mon Dec 13, 2004 8:32 am

Because I have something to prove to these stupid gits at my uni.
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Post by _MessedUp_ » Mon Dec 13, 2004 10:35 am

beacause my boyfriend talked me out of it (it took him a few hours)
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Post by pretty » Mon Dec 13, 2004 8:02 pm

I wanted to si to make the su thoughts stop. Instead I took the time to work out what was wrong, I wrote each thing on a post-it note, and then rationalised it underneath. I looked at all the things that made me want to su, and made myself see why they were all actually ok or going to be ok.
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Post by Melly » Tue Dec 14, 2004 4:16 pm

because i realised if i'm gonna scar myself, might aswell make it pretty, so i got a tattoo :)
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Post by to_far_gone » Wed Dec 15, 2004 3:30 am

last time iw anted to SI i didnt was like an hr ago and i knew i would feel worse if i did cut and then need to hide it
to me a tear drops purpose is to hold pain and when the pain becomes to much of a heavy burdon. the tear drops just let go and they stream down my cheek past my nose and to the floor...and then the whole process begins again.
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Post by marylou » Wed Dec 15, 2004 11:10 pm

Because if I can hold out until Christmas I will have gone a whole month without SH. That would be like the best gift to myself ever!
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Post by Jamais Vu » Thu Dec 16, 2004 5:44 am

I went to sleep.
there's an opposite to deja vu. they call it jamais vu. it's when you meet the same people or visit places, again and again, but each time is the first. everybody is always a stranger. nothing is ever familiar.
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Post by Tainted » Sun Dec 19, 2004 7:32 am

The last time i wanted to Si i didnt because....I cant handle to see the Look in Jeffs eyes...He loves me soooo much. And I almost lost him because if this(because I pushed him away) and now he is with me again. I dont want to see the look in his eyes if I fail. I know that every time i cut.....it chips a peice of his heart away.
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Post by GLaDOS » Sun Dec 19, 2004 2:21 pm

I promised my best friend that I'd stop. :P
This was a triumph.
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Post by butterflygirl348 » Tue Dec 21, 2004 7:30 pm

Last time I wanted to SI, I didn't because I was currently in a psychiatric hospital- and didn't want to give the ammunition to keep me in there longer.......

I know poor reason.

Another one too.... I chose not SI when I got out because I didn't want a couple of professors to find out.
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