last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

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Post by treesleeper » Sun Oct 31, 2004 1:48 am

Because I believe in a spiritual realm, and I believe that my depression/si urges are attacks from evil spirits. I've been having urges since last night but I refuse to lose the battle. I pray, write on myself, attempt to distract myself with homework, and play minesweeper (I love minesweeper!)
You're bound to lose if you let the blues get you scared to feel. -Joni Mitchell

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Post by coldblood » Sat Nov 06, 2004 9:54 pm

What I did was got on this website. :gooddeal:
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Post by DarkAndLonely » Mon Nov 08, 2004 12:52 am

last time i wanted to si properly i didnt because my cat jumped on me and made me feel better :) i dont know what i would do without that cat :)
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Post by 9mmPrincess » Mon Nov 08, 2004 8:04 am

as much as i wanted to do it, the actual thought of doing it made me sad

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Post by Intricate » Tue Nov 09, 2004 1:50 pm

I want to be proud of myself, i can't let myself down just as much as i can't let others down.
I hang on to the achievments I've made and create bigger achievements.
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Post by pistachio » Fri Nov 12, 2004 2:53 am

i was too tired

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Post by marylou » Fri Nov 12, 2004 3:12 pm

I thought I would be sick if I did.
"You loosen my chains and just ask me to trust you. But it's so much easier this way, even though I know that I am bound."

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Post by tkdtiger » Sat Nov 13, 2004 6:32 am

i made a promise to a good friend of mine that also si's. if i don't si she won't si, and vise versa, so far we've both made it a week and a half. :1beaming1:

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Post by TwistedVision » Sat Nov 13, 2004 9:44 am

i made a smart choise today, after one really bad day with my family i was smart enough to take the first chance to keep myself in the company of my friends for as long as possible [im still there and not leaving yet... i still want to SI but not tonight...]

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Post by Sarita » Sun Nov 14, 2004 8:41 am

i put it off and i guilted myself all day about it...i suppose that kind of made it worse, but then my dad took me out and i had a good time, so i put it out of my mind...
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Post by treesleeper » Mon Nov 15, 2004 7:57 am

Because it makes my dad cry.
You're bound to lose if you let the blues get you scared to feel. -Joni Mitchell

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Post by marylou » Mon Nov 15, 2004 10:43 pm

Because it's been two weeks and I feel like if I start today I'll just go crazy and it'll be worse than ever.
"You loosen my chains and just ask me to trust you. But it's so much easier this way, even though I know that I am bound."

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Post by limestone » Wed Nov 17, 2004 11:22 pm

I didn't si because I phoned the samaritans for an hour.

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Post by Copasetic » Thu Nov 18, 2004 10:12 am

Because there were too many people nearby... and I didn't feel like dealing with that.
So this is the new year - and I don't feel any different...

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Post by Bridget0688 » Mon Nov 22, 2004 8:33 pm

I didn't want to have to face my friends...
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Post by Priceless » Mon Nov 22, 2004 10:04 pm

because i thought of the six month that i done without, that i could make it one more day

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Post by lollipop4571 » Tue Nov 23, 2004 6:49 am

because if i did, i would be letting myself and others down
What else, what else can I do?
I said I'm sorry, yeah I'm sorry.
I said I'm sorry , but what for?
If I hurt you then I hate myself
Don't want to hate myself, don't want to hurt you
Why do you chose your pain?
If you only knew how much I love you, love you

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Post by Twitter Mouse » Wed Nov 24, 2004 1:45 am

Because I remembered it would be even more difficult to get my bass home if I hurt my hands.
And it's hey babe, with your guardian eyes so blue,
Hey my baby, don't you know our love is true,
I've been so far from here,
Far from your loving arms,
Now I'm back again, and babe it's gonna work out fine.

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Post by fairy_punk_princess » Wed Nov 24, 2004 4:49 am

because i am the happiest ive been in ages and i wudve fucked it all up.
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Post by nirnaeth_arnoediad » Thu Nov 25, 2004 9:39 pm

I thought of how much it hurt my best friend the last time I hurt myself so I stopped myself from doing it again because I love him more than I love myself... perhaps not the best reason but it works for me!

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