last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

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Post by Aros » Mon Oct 11, 2004 6:51 am

Called my friend instead. And I talked to her until I was too tired to do it anymore.(and didn't feel like it)

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Post by swanfaerie » Tue Oct 12, 2004 4:57 pm

1--i was at work and didn't dare
2--was NOT going to give the other person that power (which is what si is currently representing to me)
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Post by tragicbeautyqueen » Wed Oct 13, 2004 4:05 am

I went to school and was bored to tears and almost to sleep... Then my mom was home, and after being walked in on in the middle of SIing one time, I didn't want to risk it. Besides, I've made a goal to reach 6 months, and I don't want to have to start over at 0 again. 12 more weeks until I reach my goal...

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Post by torn » Wed Oct 13, 2004 6:27 pm

i couldnt get anything sharp enough
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Post by 8586 » Thu Oct 14, 2004 12:04 am

I am coming home (from college) this weekend and seeing Erik and Shannon and I don't want to have to worry about things like that. If I drunk and we have a shin-dig for his birthday I don't want to worry about being covered up (it's hard to do when drunk).
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Post by 9mmPrincess » Thu Oct 14, 2004 2:38 pm

i thought about the fact that the marks from last time are fading, and the fact that we're having a mini heat wave here in SF and everyday has been hot, and i want to be able to wear my tank tops, and if i'm marked up, i cant. so i didnt :)

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Post by badgirl22 » Thu Oct 14, 2004 9:10 pm

I didn't SI because I realized I had DBT skills to use in my "crisis" times which really helped because I had a list of things I could do instead.
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Post by NotWhoIUsedToBe » Mon Oct 18, 2004 5:04 pm

I didn't because I was all to aware of the emotion and what was causing it...

it is easier than dealing with the unknown. :o
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Post by Tsiya Ageyutsa » Wed Oct 20, 2004 8:18 am

The last time I wanted to SI and didn't, I spent the day with my best friend
playing Super Smash Brothers, and made him go to choir with me.

And oh how I wish that was more recently. :oops:

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Post by Saeth » Wed Oct 20, 2004 8:27 am

The last time I wanted to SI, I didn't because I knew my girlfriend would have a shitfit and my sister would be disappointed with me.
Everything is temporary.

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Post by Twitter Mouse » Sat Oct 23, 2004 2:21 pm

I went to the band room, got a practice room and played bass until I felt better. I do that a lot :-?
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Hey my baby, don't you know our love is true,
I've been so far from here,
Far from your loving arms,
Now I'm back again, and babe it's gonna work out fine.

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Post by pretty » Sat Oct 23, 2004 4:30 pm

I knew that if I started I wouldn't be able to stop. Somehow I managed not to start.
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Post by NotWhoIUsedToBe » Sun Oct 24, 2004 11:25 pm

I keep suprising myself that I've posted here :o
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Post by jaded melody » Sun Oct 24, 2004 11:52 pm

Because i couldnt let them do that to me...
because i knew there were people who would treat me better.
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Post by Autobot Headline » Mon Oct 25, 2004 2:18 am

I was triggered by a person who has been manipulating me for a very long time, and if I didn't SI, that meant she didn't have the power to make me hurt myself. So I posted a couple of nice long rants instead, here and at some other boards.
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Post by DecemberLivy » Mon Oct 25, 2004 11:23 am

i did not because i was myself in the mirror and i was pale and horid and i did not want to be like that, it was kinda like that smoking ad, where the woman sees herself in the mirror and i s all wrinkly and when she puts it out she is fine.
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Post by 8586 » Mon Oct 25, 2004 7:15 pm

Because I can't, I've left Patti, so I should leave SI. I can't SI because I feel like it would be disappointing Patti, even if she didn't know about it.

And now today is 13 weeks.
Cry as I may, but these tears won't wash you away...

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Post by marylou » Wed Oct 27, 2004 1:53 pm

Because I told my friend I was having a bad day and he phoned me up and talked until I fell asleep.
he is a good friend.

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Post by Kenya_bloostone » Sat Oct 30, 2004 3:24 am

Last time I wanted to SI and didnt was earlier today. :( I ended up scribbling all over my arms in red ink pen then wetting the ink so it ran down my arm. It worked actually. :drac: I lost the want to SI. Also I thought about my friend who loves me and gets scared when he finds out I SIed so yeah... good luck. :angelic:

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Post by amyfairy » Sat Oct 30, 2004 8:09 pm

Last night I cried instead and allowded myself to be hugged and wouldn't let myself into my room until i was safe and was so tired i slept.

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