last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

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Post by pretty » Tue Sep 07, 2004 11:36 am

Because when I looked the urge in the eye, it kind of wilted. When I actually looked at it, there wasn't really much there. I was just tired, so I distracted myself then caught up on some sleep.
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Post by Mystik » Wed Sep 08, 2004 8:48 am

I didn't because I was in an exam today, but I didn't but I still had my blade though.

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Post by kazeldya » Wed Sep 08, 2004 2:09 pm

Because I was in class and so surrounded by people. Plus the only "tool" I had was fingernails... I still sort of want to but I'm working on not.
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Post by swanfaerie » Fri Sep 10, 2004 4:56 am

cuz someone else was hurting worse than me and i helped her instead.
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Post by jaded melody » Fri Sep 10, 2004 6:44 pm

Because i was too tired, i just went to sleep.
Hey, it works!

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Post by pretty » Fri Sep 10, 2004 6:50 pm

I tricked myself out of it. I decided I'd do it in the morning, when I'd have time and space to. But, of course, morning came and I didn't. I got up, got dressed, and then I was all covered up so it'd be more effort to find some inconspicuous skin to cut. So I didn't, and now the urge is as good as gone.
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Post by kurdt_kobain » Tue Sep 14, 2004 2:56 am

Oh, wait, I did.
trying to follow in the footsteps of the masters,
but it's a lot harder than it looks because even though
they had the same size feet as us, they weren't looking
down the whole time while they walked to make sure
they were doing it right.
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Post by kazeldya » Tue Sep 14, 2004 3:56 am

kurdt_kobain wrote:Oh, wait, I did.
Oh... I'm sorry. :(
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Post by 8586 » Tue Sep 14, 2004 4:03 am

I was at work....

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Post by silent screamer » Tue Sep 14, 2004 5:01 am

Last time i wanted to, i put my knife in a drawer (out of sight, out of mind) balled my hands into fists, and cried it all out. clenching my fists so tight, i almost cut my palms with my finger nails, just rocking back and forth on the floor. i was crying so hard, i was hyperventalating. but i didn't do it. as soon as i could talk, i called my boyfriend and talked to him until i fell asleep. he was the only reason i didn't do it. i promised him i wouldn't.
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Post by limestone » Tue Sep 14, 2004 5:13 pm

cried, listened to loud music, and then phoned the samaritans the next day. also a really big thing was to just let myself be ok with the fact that I felt angry. :star:

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Post by ludo » Sat Sep 18, 2004 12:34 am

my five year old daughter came in to see me so we had a cuddle instead, with her looking out the window and chattering about what she could see, while I just enjoyed the uncomplicated contact and was able to start breathing again
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Post by BuyMeLife » Sun Sep 19, 2004 5:04 pm

well i postponed it...still continuing to do so..

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Post by Molly5 » Mon Sep 20, 2004 8:32 pm

last time I kept the door to my room open... you can't really do it with people walking by and saying hi

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Post by Bathelina » Tue Sep 21, 2004 11:16 am

Uhh... what stopped me last time was the fact that I'd had two bad urges the weekend before and I feel really proud and good after I've got over and urge. Sometimes I am so close to self-harming but I am now able to control myself.
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Post by pretty » Tue Sep 21, 2004 11:50 am

I distracted myself until I wasn't on my own anymore and knew I'd be safe. I posted on here, and got the support I needed. I kept busy, made sure I did the things I need to. And it passed, eventually.
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Post by P!nk » Wed Sep 22, 2004 4:19 am

...because I can't. I have to work & use my arms & am afraid of what I might do... because I can't mess up yet as I just started work & I don't want to end up in the ER or IP. I don't wan't to dissapoint my mgr, my T, my parents, even me...

stupidest reason of all... the gilmore girls season premiere is on tonight... but still trying to remember the above reasons so I don't do it at all...

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Post by Rogue » Fri Sep 24, 2004 4:56 am

Last time I wanted to but didnt, I started writing poetry, and kept reminding myself over and over of how Michael would be upset if I did.
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Post by sine nomine » Sat Sep 25, 2004 3:09 am

just wanted to say how much i love reading this thread. it's this whole litany of triumphs and people trying to cope, even if it doesn't always work. thank you.

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Post by Sparrow » Sat Sep 25, 2004 12:05 pm

I can't honestly say I have managed to 'not' when I 'wanted' to and thus ended up SI'ing in the end. 'But' ,,, what I do that often works for me is to remove myself from the house entirely,,,go out into my yard where I have my gardens filled with flowers. I then pick some of them, make myself a little 'you'll be okay' bouquet and that makes me feel better enough right then to not do it. I then stay outside long enough until the urge subsides. Sounds dumb I guess ,,, but whatever works then I'll take it.
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