Things Left Unsaid *LA*

kurdt_kobain · Post by **kurdt_kobain** » Tue Aug 10, 2004 9:44 pm

please love me.

nirvana · Post by **nirvana** » Wed Aug 11, 2004 2:52 am

i can't breathe.

random idiot · Post by **random idiot** » Wed Aug 11, 2004 2:57 am

Mac -- I'm sorry I judged.

Becky -- I love you

Raj -- I still imagine us spending our lives together and i'll always love you.

Lisa -- It still hurts that you lost all respect you ever had for me and that you gave up on me when I needed you the most.

sam_girl · Post by **sam_girl** » Wed Aug 11, 2004 5:30 pm

iain~ i love u, im here 4 u because u keep me going. i want 2 break up because i am so dependant on u but i want 2 stay 2gether more because im so dependant on u and because i love u. don't hurt me, don't leave me 2 be eaten by the demons in my mind. but also, don't love me, hate me and leave me 4 some1 new and better. i want u 2 be happy and i don't understand how i can do that. leave me alone but never leave me alone.

sam_girl · Post by **sam_girl** » Wed Aug 11, 2004 7:34 pm

my brother~

u r such a selfish arrogant twat! out of all the brothers in this world why did i end up with u?! do u know hwo much ur words hurt me? can u see my eyes glaze over cos i try 2 shut them out? you tell me everyday that im pathetic, that im a bitch and that im selfish- well look in the fucking mirror! u have no respect 4 other, inc our parents, who then take it out on me. im sorry im smart, im sorry that ive always worked harder than u at my education but u could have worked harder urself, thats not my fault. don't punish me because i'm trying 2 make something out of myself. u do bloody a levels and then go in2 a full time job- i don't care that im not working full time! i want a god damn break! if u knew, if u even knew, how many times u've lead me 2 SI....... but i can imagine ur reaction anyway. ud tell me that i was pathetic and that i was seeking attention and being selfish etc etc, ive heard all the insults b4. u'd think i was doing it 2 be dramatic. well u know wat? FUCK OFF cos u know shit all about me. u don't know about the nites when i cry myself 2 sleep, or how ill look at all my anti-depressants 4 5 minutes sometimes deciding whether or not 2 take them all and end this stupid life. i mean, wat am i needed for when im just 'pathetic and selfish and a bitch' huh? well ur lazy and nasty and disrespectful and arrogant and ignorant and selfish! yes! ur the selfish 1! let me live my own life, im not the same as u. let me be myself and support me and appreciate me.

nirvana · Post by **nirvana** » Thu Aug 12, 2004 3:43 am

ben - fuck you. you did it again; i let you. what the hell was i thinking?

me - stupid. stupid. stupid. your fault.

Firinn Annam · Post by **Firinn Annam** » Thu Aug 12, 2004 5:13 am

D- i'm a part of you so have to love you somehow, but i dont know you. You were never there and when you were, you were outta your mind and only made me want to hate you more.

M- stop talking about how good you want to be and how sorry you are for the past. Act on it. Show me you want me here now when i need you

Sis You are not too good for this family. Dont bring me down. We are very different, accept and appreciate that, I do not want to be like you, but i love you and wish you were in my life more.

Bro and sis I am sorry i can not tell you my deepest darkest thoughts, i would scare you. BUt i AM thankful you are in my life. I love you guys.

A & B... Why leave? i am selfish to want you to stay i know, but i need you guys. My wing men who have saved my life more than once. I want to see you more often

MR - You tel me you like me and want to be with me, then fall for your ex's lies. When that fucks up you think you can come back to me... NO i will not be second best anymore. We should have never been together, the guilt eats at me everyday. Be my friend like you used to be. ! Hold me, hug me and tell me it's ok

ST - i am sorry. You helped me, i needed your wisdom. I am so thankful everyday

G - i miss our hanging out. You took me away from the crap feelings. I miss that.

Those things in my head that haunt me - FUCK YOU for my weakness. Fuck the way i crave and need you to survive, but you are the thing that prays on me and stops me from trully living. Either give me the strength to leave and take you with me to make sure you can not haunt anyone else. Or the courage to ask for forgiveness. I am too proud and i blame you. Stop judging me i judge myself critically enough, I dont want to need you. Fuck the drugs you pollute my mind and body with. I hate you for making me feel so alive and happy on a synthetic high - allow me the pleasure for one day to not be driven by you...

everyone -I AM TRYING THE BEST WAY I KNOW HOW. I HAVNT SLIPPED IN OVER A YEAR. HUG ME AND TELL ME YOU ARE PROUD OF WHO I AM, THAT TO LIVE IS OK. [/b]

Meander · Post by **Meander** » Thu Aug 12, 2004 9:50 pm

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Aug 13, 2004 10:45 am

I'm glad he's dying.

say · Post by **say** » Fri Aug 13, 2004 7:45 pm

It's so easy to push you all away.

kurdt_kobain · Post by **kurdt_kobain** » Fri Aug 13, 2004 9:40 pm

[size=0]
I wish you didn't suck. You suck so bad I can't believe it. I can't stand to look at you every day. I can't stand to wake up and be with you. I can't stand to have anything to do with you. I hate you so bad.
I hate waking up and knowing that I'm still you. I can't stand you. I honestly can't. You're a stupid bitch. A stupid, whiney overreacting, melodramatic, ugly, fat, disgusting, replusive, worthless and unwanted piece of shit. And that's all you'll ever be.
Just look at all those people. They don't like you. They don't want you, they don't need you. They could care less about you, because you are a horrible person. They all see it, and you're only fooling yourself by trying to make friends and wanting to feel like you're worth something.
Megan, you are worth nothing. I want to make this so clear, because I never want you to feel anything good ever again. I want you to die. I want you to live and suffer. I want everything bad to happen to you and for you to fall face down and be stoned to death by your gods. I want you to never have anyone, ever, in your whole life.
I don't want you to be friends with anyone because you'll just ruin that for them. You are worth nothing. I hate you. I hate looking into the mirror and seeing your ugly face staring back at me. I hate feeling you cry, feeling your tears pour down my face. You shouldn't be weak enough to cry. You need to hurt. You need to suffer. You are less then dirt. You're a liar, you're ugly, you're everything you never wanted to be.
That's you. You're so horrible. I wish you were dead.
I could think of so many ways to kill you off. It would be so nice. I want to hurt you. Every instinct that doesn't suck in me wants to hurt you, and kill you, and leave you lying on the ground with dirt in your cuts, watching the people walk by, because you are not important enough for them to stop.
I hate you. I really, honestly hate you.[/size]

random idiot · Post by **random idiot** » Sun Aug 15, 2004 12:23 pm

Ben if what i've heard is true you're a fucking prick!

Junebug44 · Post by **Junebug44** » Mon Aug 16, 2004 10:54 am

S - this is my vacation too. please don't corner me into doing that thing you love to do all the time. Gimme a break!

J - you need to take care of YOU. S can take care of himself; you WILL survive his absence.

M - please please please don't drink and drive again. I love you too much to lose you.

nirvana · Post by **nirvana** » Tue Aug 17, 2004 2:08 am

dad - fuck you. i guess i'm not worth your time.

gaelen - i'm so sorry. i really am, i'm a bitch. horrible friend.

bill - sorry i'm not good enough, sorry i'm stupid. and sorry for everything. i want to talk to you, i need to because i can't talk to anyone else. but yesterday you said you don't want to hear me bitch tonight cause i'm tired. fuck you, this isn't because i'm tired. it's because i hurt, and i pushed everyone else away, and i'm angry. i'm so angry. and just because you said that, i'm not going to tell you why i'm upset. i'll deal with it my own way.

ben - i'm sorry.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Aug 17, 2004 11:41 am

Still glad, and you can stop trying to make me pretend otherwise. I get my rocks off thinking about it, if you must know. Yeah, I'm that horrible. I'm still so very, very glad.

nirvana · Post by **nirvana** » Tue Aug 17, 2004 8:21 pm

bill - don't worry about me. you can't save me either way. and i don't know if i want to meet your friends. cause i'm stupid, remember? and i know that there's going to be at least one (probably more) girl there you've already fucked. how will that make me feel? let me wallow in my misery, like you told me to.

i want to cry.

nirvana · Post by **nirvana** » Sat Aug 21, 2004 3:46 am

don't tell me what i want.
don't tell me what i need.
do not tell me that you're helping,
when you don't know anything.
you don't know me.
and you can't save me.

i don't like regrets. but i can't live with this one. and i can't keep the secret inside me forever, because it's killing me. i'm so sorry. i want to take it back, more than anything.

alegria · Post by **alegria** » Sat Aug 21, 2004 4:27 am

Someone:You fucking betrayed me. I hate myself for not being able to get over it but i can never totally trust you again. I want to but i can't. So it hurts that i now i have someone who loves me and i can't go back to you. You left me sobbing on the street, knowing i wouldn't go inside when i was that upset. You couldn't even look at me. You made me feel like i was worthless, not good enough to care about cuz i wasn't perfect. I tried to tell you how i feel and you slept with your back to me all night. You said you wanted to meet me again when i was healthy. You turned your back on me when i needed you the most and so even though i have forgiven you i cannot go back to the way things were. I wanted to cut because of you but never did. And now i love someone else so much and i'm sorry. I wanted to be perfect for you and couldn't.

Someone else:I love you so much and i miss you and i'm not even allowed to do that because i never really loved you. I hate to be so affected by you but i am. I started cutting because of supressing my feelings about you. That is not your fault but it is true. I will never actually tell you that. I'm so sorry for messing everything up. I'm also so angry that you used me. I let you and wanted you to but you did anyway. I'm sorry i wasn't honest from the beginning how i was feeling about you. I wish my feelings could have mattered. I don't want to say that i've been ruined by two relationships. But i also don't ever want to trust anyone again. I don't want to care. I wish i could get mad at you. But all i do is miss you.

~me

miss_you_love · Post by **miss_you_love** » Sat Aug 21, 2004 7:58 pm

Leslie--Shut the fuck up and quit whining. Your problems are no one's fault but your own. If you didn't want those kids, you didn't have to have them. Don't fuck them up just because you are too selfish to be a mother.

kurdt_kobain · Post by **kurdt_kobain** » Sun Aug 22, 2004 8:04 pm

i'm sorry. i know i shouldn't have done it. i'm so sorry. please forgive me and love me again.

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