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When I was cleaning out my room, I found a bunch of old meds I'd hidden away when I was planning my OD. I should throw them out because they tempt me, but I can't because they tempt me.

I'm torn as to whether I could "get away" with doing that again.

- Deep inside, it's not that I don't thinik I'm good enough, I know I'm not.

- I wish I'd died. And I really wish I hadn't promised him I wouldn't try to kill myself again.

And horribly, shamefully, terribly, I don't even want to keep that promise.

I came across this thread randomly and I must say I like the idea of a forum.. maybe not for twenty-somethings per se, but for those of us who are leaving our younger selves and lives behind, but don't yet feel adult as such or fit in to a more mature community. There again, this is a very subjectiv...

:star: how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I'll be calm, not twitchy, I'll ba able to sleep. I might not feel so disgusting. |The feeling of empty will go away and so may the temptation to take an overdose. :star: what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it ...

OK, I'll try this again.. and even if I do do it, I will come here and do the "after" questions. Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point? I don't know what else to do.. I'm just.. so anxious, and so damned angry, and depressed because it never seems to stop or go away ...

OK, this is my first try at this.. I'm hoping I can figure out what sets me off feeling like this and what I can do about it. I'm a little nervous, as this is a half step forward into taking some responsibility for what I do to myself, so even attempting this is a positive step ... any help greatly ...

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Confuzzled Jaime

Dad: I'm sorry, I do mean it and I accept that I have no right to expect your forgiveness or your love any more. I will never scream at you or hit you again, and I will not touch you and pretend everything's fine. I will not blame everything on you, impose restrictions on you even though you are an ...