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by shadowavenger
Thu Mar 01, 2012 8:01 pm
Forum: coping
Topic: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......
Replies: 1252
Views: 57170

Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

If I do my girlfriend will insist on taking me to A&E when she gets home from work, and I don't want to sit in A&E all night or worse have to talk to the Crisis Team.
by shadowavenger
Mon May 19, 2008 3:52 am
Forum: before and after
Topic: before
Replies: 1
Views: 78

before

comments/hugs are okay how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? If I SI I will relieve some of the tension that is building up in my head, and I will feel calmer. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? It will bring complication...
by shadowavenger
Sat Jun 23, 2007 11:23 pm
Forum: coping
Topic: I'm proud of myself today because....
Replies: 1894
Views: 83790

I am proud of myself today because I tidied my room.
by shadowavenger
Sun Mar 04, 2007 12:46 am
Forum: before and after
Topic: before
Replies: 1
Views: 91

before

* how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? If I hurt myself I will feel pain instead of just numbness. I will feel that I have achieved something in having the strength to bring physical injury to myself. I will feel in control of myself instead of out of control with all these f...
by shadowavenger
Mon Dec 18, 2006 12:15 am
Forum: coping
Topic: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
Replies: 4840
Views: 182658

Mum: SHUT UP RIGHT NOW PLEASE.
by shadowavenger
Mon Oct 30, 2006 4:43 pm
Forum: coping
Topic: What song describes how you're feeling?
Replies: 1417
Views: 68068

Brain Stew - Green Day <b>I'm having trouble trying to sleep</b> I'm counting sheep but running out As time ticks by still I try No rest for crosstops in my mind <b>On my own... here we go</b> My eyes feel like they're gonna bleed Dried up and bulging out my skull <b>My mouth is dry My face is numb ...
by shadowavenger
Sat Jul 22, 2006 11:32 pm
Forum: coping
Topic: Place to cry
Replies: 2185
Views: 92362

*curls up in a ball in the corner and cries quietly*
by shadowavenger
Tue Jul 11, 2006 11:48 pm
Forum: coping
Topic: Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!
Replies: 1666
Views: 67558

I don't think it will work out. I hope it will, but you're over 7000 miles away and I don't think it will. And part of me is glad, because when you leave I can die without guilt.
by shadowavenger
Fri Apr 28, 2006 11:54 pm
Forum: coping
Topic: Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!
Replies: 1666
Views: 67558

I've stopped cutting. I've started burning. I'm thinking of taking up smoking just so I will have an excuse to carry a lighter. I really, really wish I had locked the door. I wanted to do it so badly, I don't have the courage. I wish with all my heart that I did. I'm tired and I want to go now, I w...
by shadowavenger
Tue Apr 25, 2006 2:33 am
Forum: coping
Topic: Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!
Replies: 1666
Views: 67558

I want to get worse, I want to hit rock bottom because that is the only way I will find the courage to SU
by shadowavenger
Fri Apr 21, 2006 9:19 pm
Forum: coping
Topic: Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!
Replies: 1666
Views: 67558

Today I threw up because I was ill. I was really happy about it because it was so easy. I only wish I had puked more.
by shadowavenger
Mon Apr 10, 2006 4:19 pm
Forum: coping
Topic: Right now I feel...
Replies: 2081
Views: 60225

anxious
by shadowavenger
Sun Apr 09, 2006 3:56 pm
Forum: coping
Topic: Things Left Unsaid *LA*
Replies: 1872
Views: 67234

b - for the love of G-d PLEASE listen to me when I tell you what not to say. If you say you're going to be there for me you have to at least not say anything to make it worse. If you don't know what to say, don't feel you have to say anything. Just please don't say hurtful things that undermine me a...
by shadowavenger
Fri Apr 07, 2006 2:26 am
Forum: coping
Topic: Bitch Fest / Things Left Unsaid II *LA*
Replies: 421
Views: 16699

Mum - I'm sorry, it's not funny. I won't try to motivate you by putting you down anymore. I will respect you as a person in your own right, I won't try to live through you. I <i>honestly</i> don't care what your grades are, they don't make you any less of a person. I am getting a divorce. I will nev...
by shadowavenger
Thu Apr 06, 2006 2:19 am
Forum: coping
Topic: Things Left Unsaid *LA*
Replies: 1872
Views: 67234

Mum - I stopped going to kickboxing because of my scars. not because I'm a worthless lazy sack of crap as you seem to think. I'm sick of hearing how I do nothing for you, how I never help around the house, how I don't study in school (you won't even believe I go to school half the time - I've never ...
by shadowavenger
Thu Apr 06, 2006 1:56 am
Forum: coping
Topic: Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!
Replies: 1666
Views: 67558

I want to be a ballerina.
I want to be a gymnast.
I want to be a cheerleader.
I am insanely jealous of my friends who have done these things. I sometimes wonder if I was a ballerina and thin and pretty if I would still want to transition.
by shadowavenger
Tue Apr 04, 2006 12:37 am
Forum: coping
Topic: What song describes how you're feeling?
Replies: 1417
Views: 68068

<b><u>Worry Rock - Green Day</u></b> <b>Another sentimental argument and bitter love</b> Fucked without a kiss again and dragged it through the mud <b>Yelling at brick walls and punching windows made of stone</b> The worry rock has turned to dust and fallen on our pride A knocked down dragged out fi...
by shadowavenger
Sun Apr 02, 2006 6:55 pm
Forum: coping
Topic: Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!
Replies: 1666
Views: 67558

My friends think I've stopped SI. They don't know about hitting myself or purging or restricting my eating.

Sometimes I think I deserve everything my mum did to me. She's a saint and I am a horrible worthless person. Sometimes I hate her and then I feel guilty, so I can't win.
by shadowavenger
Sun Apr 02, 2006 2:11 am
Forum: coping
Topic: What will your 5 things be?
Replies: 113
Views: 10476

:star: my dippy-speaking friends (you know who you are :) )
:star: laptop
:star: mobile phone
:star: CDs
:star: my guitar
by shadowavenger
Sat Mar 25, 2006 7:28 pm
Forum: coping
Topic: Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!
Replies: 1666
Views: 67558

I'm terrified I'm falling again, but I won't admit it to myself because they'll just tell me to go back into therapy, although I don't want to and it isn't helpful.