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I stroke mine because I like feeling the different textures on my skin. I like my scars when they turn white but not when they're purple/pink because they look too new and too much like cuts. I think of my scars as what I've been through. I almost always hide them but yday I was on a bus, I was real...

Sassafrass Roots - Green Day Roaming 'round your house Wasting your time No obligation, just Wasting your time So why are you alone? Wasting your time When you could be with me Wasting your time Well, I'm a waste like you With nothing else to do May I waste your time too? Warding off regrets Wasting...

well done (*Haven*)

Today I did my homework

I want to quit therapy, it just makes me feel worse. It's not my therapist, it's just therapy in general. I hate it.

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I have laxatives. I take them when I eat during the day. It makes me feel good.

I'm scared that if I tell my friends I'm considering converting to Judaism, they won't like me anymore. There is one place and one person I feel truly safe with, and I want to be there every second of every day. I love her, but not in a sexual way. I'm scared if someone found out I wouldn't be allow...

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just wanted you to know I read your post and am thinking of you. I don't know if you accept hugs but have as many as you like if you do. I hope your doctor appointment goes okay tomorrow. Could you talk to your doctor about getting some help to deal with this? There are people who care about you, so...

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maybe if I wasn't so tired and so numb I could cry myself instead of having my left arm cry for me.

tell me that I won't feel a thing/so give me Novacaine

fucked up, just generally. and numb, in so much pain that I can't actually feel anything except a slight twinge in my left arm. It almost scares me how I can feel nothing.

like my pain is trivial to other people

* have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. done * what had happened just before? my friends all went offline and I listened to every song i could bear to * what were you thinking and feeling? I can't really remember, it's a bit blurry. I got high and I starte...

well i went and played Donkey Konga for an hour, and my hands are red and I feel even more disassociated than before, but I haven't done anything to hurt myself yet.

right now I want to SI, drink and get high so this is about all of these. also dealing with suicidal feelings that I don't want to act on. comments and hugs welcome x how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? if I SI it will make me feel worse but I will enjoy the pain and the feel...

Today I am proud of myself because I coded my ICT homework in HTML and learned how to put a new feature on my web pages through doing that.

* have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. yes * what had happened just before? I led on the sofa in the sixth form common room for 40 minutes, staring at the ceiling. * what were you thinking and feeling? was feeling isolated and like i didn't want to talk t...

I don't think it's wrong, but I agree that it can be insensitive. I cover up cuts because I know some of my friends would get very upset if they saw my arms with cuts. I generally cover my scars too but I'm not so neurotic about that. Sometimes I feel like I want to show people my cuts, because I do...

Are you currently trying to stop or reduce SI: :star: Attempting to stop If so what is your motivation: :star: Trying to get better Favorite coping skills: :star: Listening to loud music, talking Coping skills that work the least: :star: crying Safe places you can go: :star: the sixth form computer ...

Last night I was literally unable to sleep because I wanted to so much, but I didn't. I didn't because I didn't feel I could trust myself not to do some serious damage and ending up in hospital would be a very bad idea right now.