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I'm starting to feel the way I know I should but I still want to do this. I'm just worried about the future. What should I do? The problem is, I know exactly what I should do. We all know that. The real question is what am I going to do and how and when? I don't want you to worry though. I'll be ok...

*I've slipped up twice, the cuts this morning were worse than ever I think but I love them. I don't know if I plan to stop. I haven't decided yet. I figure I've f@cked up twice now so might as well. *I know what we're doing is really wrong. I know we'd both be screwed if anyone else know, especially...

Good job everybody!!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D -I'm proud of myself because I managed to keep him off my mind for most of the day and when he was on mind or when I talked about him it was mostly positive. Thats a big improvement. -I just thought it and I think I was actually happy today (for the most part...

-I hate you and I love you. I want to hug you and yell at you too. I'm glad you at least know how I feel now. Did you know before? Oh, and I know she doesn't like me. But thats OK. I'm not sure if I like her either. You're way different when she's around (different for the worst!) -I want one to hug...

Oops, I lied to you. I am still angry. I'm angry because I'm hurt and it feels better to be mad. I want you to come back even though I know you won't. But I don't think I'll tell you that anymore.

Because on the 17th it will be 9 months and there's not even a chance that I am going to ruin that! Plus, I've been tempted like 100000 times since I stopped and just haven't done it. Some of those times it was even worse so why give up and do it this time!?

I'm proud of myself today because... -I finally went looking for closure in a relationship I used to have but that ended and I actually found it. -Also, I can now let the person go, move on, forget about him and all that. I didn't know if I'd ever be able to do that, at least not for a long while. -...

I don't have any really close friends and I wish I did. I really wish I had a best friend.

I told him! I can't believe I told him! Why did I do that?! I am SO pissed at myself!!!!!!!!! Man, how stupid of me, and how embarrising. (forgive my bad spelling)

He called. I answered the phone. I wish I hadn't.
Too many times I get my self-value from who I'm around.

The man I talked about before said he's going to call me tomorrow. I told him it makes no difference to me either way but it does. I want him to call because I want to be the one who decides if we talk or not. Then I'll be in control. And I might be the jerk, not him. I still don't know if I'm going...

**PMs OK** VowsofSaddness you said: "-Okay people know I am bad at hearing but they think I am joking, they don't realize to what extent. ...I use a combination of watching people's lips and hearing what they say Thus my next secret is: >>>>>>>- My friend since childhood katie speaks really softly a...

I didn't read all the replies here so sorry if any of this is repetitive. Anyway, I did this very thing. I gave my razor blades to a guy that was a close friend of mine. I didn't hide them though because at that point he already knew about my cutting. So basically I just handed them to him. He ended...

I have a couple of reasons for not si'ing the last time I wanted to (which happens to be last night): 1) Your body is a temple (1 Corinthians 6:19-20) 2) It's been about 6 months since I last si'd. I'm proud of that and I REALLY don't want to ruin my record! 3) I know that there are numerous people ...