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-----how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? The tension will dissipate. I'll stop feeling so bad about myself. It'll get some of the pain out. ---what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? Bring -see above Take away? Feeling of c...

Yeah. You can't really tell what they are from. But I know, and sometimes when all is going fine I will look at them and it's just a reminder of how sad and broken parts of me are. And that just brings me down... it's hard. They don't bother me so much as they sadden me. And I want to do it again so...

yeah. I keep thinking I'm better. And then the feelings come back. And my eyes are starting to get weepy. Sooooooo yeah.

because it doesn't fix things; it just creates more "things"

and because I don't want scars or questions

Check it out! You can pick how many puzzles you want to print, how many on a page, difficulty, and then run them off on your printer for free.

Sweet!

http://www.opensky.ca/~jdhildeb/software/sudokugen/

Yay! I love those too. For me things like this are perfect because my urges come when I let my mind rest. In a way I suppose that's bad because I'm constantly staying busy trying to fight it off; but I guess that it's good too because it's easier to distract myself... until I try to go to sleep, but...

interesting stuff to note.

I come home from work (teaching) with red-blue-green-black hands from overhead and dry erase markers. that stuff doesn't like to come off either.

haha.

Oh yes - and welcome, HURTING8705. A welcome cow, per tradition, and the first one I've given thus far!

I was in middle school and was upset and knocked something heavy off my dresser. It landed on my foot by chance, not intention - and the pain was overwhelming, (I still have a discolored scarlike area from it)... but it immediately calmed me down. I felt like I needed to be punished, and hurting mad...

My buddy spent the weekend with me. We hiked ten miles, ate great food, went to church, and visited animals at the shelter

Winter can be so wonderful! But the darkness is hard - and the cold after a while.

Do you have pets? My kitty cat is a great stress reliever when I feel yucky. We play fetch and such and then cuddle on the couch.