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This therapist is very good. She specializes in severe childhood trama and abuse, so she knew and expected my trust level. At our first meeting she asked me to tell her what I need from her to help make me feel a little safer. That was good. The person I feel wants me to go away it the first person ...

I do have another friend who knows about my SI and has been supportive. I also started to see another therapist who I think will suit me much better than my last. I do not trust easily (OK, at all) so I have to say my support network is quite small. I can't help but feel a certain level of rejection...

I have this person in my life who has been a huge help to me. She has been like a mom in many ways. I have made some progress in working through some of my issues, but it's a slow process. Well, this person who has been helping me is only doing so because of a promise she made, and not because she w...

spanishfly~ I do the same thing!! I push people away. I very recently have not done that. I force myself to call a close friend (who happens to also be my minister) She is amazing and has literally saved my life. I always feel better after calling her or reaching out to another friend who knows. It'...

Great post!

I was sad yesterday, and someone who loves me just held me for an hour while I feel apart. She's like a mother to me (I never had a real mom), and I have never felt so safe or warm in my whole life. It was beautiful.

Also--all the halloween stuff coming out. I LOVE Halloween!!!

holly

I am sorry you are having a tough time. You may have to literally force yourself to follow through with seeing the counselor. Can you call the crisis team again for assistance? Do you have someone you can call... a friend, family member, minister, whatever who can talk with you? I am only a week fre...

I am sorry you are having a tough time. You may have to literally force yourself to follow through with seeing the counselor. Can you call the crisis team again for assistance? Do you have someone you can call... a friend, family member, minister, whatever who can talk with you? I am only a week fre...

Thanks for your replies; they help. Tomorrow at 3:30PM will be one week. I am having a hard time today, so I hope I make it. I have copied the sticky on urges and put it in my SI journal.
here's to one week...I hope...
holly

Dreams can be very scarey sometimes, because they can be so real and tap into emotions that are so easily masked from everyday life. I also was SA, and the emotions from that go so deep. Right when I think I am "done"...WHAM! The person in my life who has helped me the most said she thinks that when...

I am going into day 4 of being SI free. I have been SIing since I was 5 or so (I am now in my early thirties), So SIing is just a "normal" part of my life. I have "quite" before, but fall back pretty easy. I notice that for the first couple days it's pretty easy to not SI, but around day 3 and on it...

Thanx.
I needed this thread and these questions today.
holli