bus

i wish i didnt feel so ashamed and worthless most of the time
i wish i didnt have to live in this house
i wish my parents were divorced
i wish i didnt have to work this thrusday
i wish my dog and i could run away

currently i dont talk about it, only on bus but one ex friend knows tho i dont talk to them regually anymore and a couple randoms when i was drunk. its not so much people knowing that i do it i just dont have the gutts to discuss it with anyone...

PMs welcome

I trusted you, you lied to me, yay im alone once again.
I carry a knife with me in case i feel the urge.
I promised myself i wont live past 30.

trapped
alone
fat
unworthy
helpless

thats a conplicated question ive gone from loving them believing they were beautiful but also hiding them in shame to hating them but also realising they are a part of my and my past and being able to live with people seeing them tho i do try to hide most of them im not afraid to allow a few to show...

alone
ugly
unheard
saddened
unsatisfied

...because i was at work and couldnt get away

LP: ok wearing two bras is just way to much and please stop with the fake tans and get someone PROFESSIONAL to teach you how to apply foundation. CH: i act like a bitch around you, i tell people i hate you, i ignore you and try to make your life hell.. what you dont know is this all couldve been avo...