bus

I thought i was okay today. but... im not.

I want you to get sacked.
im a bitch, so what?
you annoy me so much.
i am going to put forward a complaint about the way you have been treating me, and the way you have been acting both in and out of the view of customers. it's sickening.

someone at work called me fat today. ill show you fucking fat.

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i put myself in danger purposely. if something happened, then i'd have a reason to whine.

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pms are okay.

seems to have been a spammng spree in f&f

ED

like i want to throw my dinner up.

fuckyou, okay? Fuck. You.

hate you. so so so so much. you make my blood boil.

Thank you very much out of none, stevielynn and El for yor input. its much appreciated. <hr> am finding it a bit easier to deal with now, seeing as i have managed oget used to the thought of her knowing (dunno if i mentioned above, but i think she only thinks i've done it once, and that was with the...

I AM FUCKING SICK OF SEEING THE WORD CHICK!

i have been od'ing for a while now. my mum knows, not 100% how, but i have an idea. so, i was made to go to the docs this morning and he made an emergency referral to the mental health team. someone phoned me and gave me the number for the crisis team and they're on about coming out to see me tomorr...

tired and achey

i have been making myself sick

pms are ok...

maybe its a faulty camera or something? I dunt know.
is there a helpline on the packaging? try ringng that.

i find it rude when people dont reply to my welcome PM's, so i stopped PMing people. maybe thats just me or whatever, and i know maybe its scary for some members to get a PM when they have *first* joined -- but it wouldnt hurt them to reply and say thanks, or reply to any questions you ask. also, i ...

sadness: i am just sad today. not sure why.
happiness: i havent hurt myself for almost 5 months

hope you are okay seeshellz if ok

um. my new year was... eventful. too much alcohol to remember it. the last thing i remember is crying down the phone at someone

the build up to christmas was bloody hard. but i managed to get through it alright. yknow.. no crying/si'ing or anything like that.

new years eve tomorrow. ths is the worst time of yr ever. going to need lots of alcohol, i think.

dont like your new hairstyle.

it scares me, the thought of a new year. i find it so daunting. i dont want another yearl ike the last year and the year before but i cant seem to make it stop. its alyways "tomorrow i will make it better. tomorrow i''ll stop doing that" and tomorrow never comes :roll: the thought of growing up terr...

thought i'd start this thread...
the poll on main suggested that a lot of bussers find christmas/new year difficult...
so.. use this thread for whatever. share coping tips ( i know i could do with some ), talk about your feelings.