bus

i. cant. do. this. anymore.

I found this on a self harm website magazine type thingi.

go look

http://www.acceptadapttraining.co.uk/we ... ediary.pdf


its a pdf file, meaning (i think) you need adobe reader to open it.

but yeah. i think its quite good

im close to just shutting down. i dont feel like i can look after myself. hense the need to make a drs appt. i just have to gather the courage to do that now...

dancing_shoes wrote:im so confused.

seconds that

ive had enough now. i want to quit.

why didnt you tell me you didnt want me to go? I wouldnt have gone if you'd've said something. i miss you so damn much :( its unbarable. can't handle the fact you're gone forever. Im just... annoyed that no one told me the real truth. and that you let me go when you knew there was a possibility you ...

overwhelmed

i *hate* his motorbike. i'm terrified he's gonna die on it.

im worried about... everything.

have had enough now. i want to sleep until it has all gone away.

pm's are okay

Mine found out my accident too...
My mum read my diary. bleh.

im not coping today. at all. i want the dreams to stop. i want her to start doing something to help. she does absolutely nothing, and i have so s much to do today but no energy to do it. I have exams in 5 days, but can't revise for them cos im to busy doing fucking housework.

There's so much thats left unsaid and undone.. and now ithas to stay unsaid and undone because you're not here anymore. I wish i would have said the things i felt. I wish i could have told you. I wish i would have done the things i wish i had done. wishing isnt enough, is it? things like that happen...

I KNOW it cant possibly be my fault, but cos of the things we said to each other, the things i wrote, and the things i thought, i still feel like im to blame, even though i KNOW im not. <hr> the thought of having to deal with it is way way way too scary, and to me, the only way i wouldnt have to, w...

i feel like its my fault.

i noticed balletomane...

A, I cant be like that with you. If i could, i would. i can barely deal with my own stuff, let alone yours as well. It hurts because you're so similar to me, and i try to say stuff to you i wsh people would say to me, but you dont listen to me and it seems pointless saying it to begin with. maye blo...

i dont get iteither...

but this thread made me laugh lots

sarah, arcadia, xafier, lotus and nev, thank you very much for posting here! i appreciate it. i would do individual replies, but at the mo, im a bit tired and downish so its proving a bit of a job! found an email i wrote a while ago (it was an email to myself, haha), in like October when i started t...