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had enough of this

going to her house for xmas this year - gah! taking my car, whether my dad is taking his or not, so i can escape if needs be. there's no way im staying at her house on xmas night. or xmas eve for that matter. new year. well, last year i got wasted, went home at 11, was asleep by 11.15. i plan ondoin...

her

this is going to sound pathetic, and i'd imagine people would wonder what the big deal is (i would if it wasnt about me :roll:), but its actually really upsetting me. my mum died last year. we have this scent in our house, you know them plug in air freshners? we have the same one at the mo that we h...

i keep dreaming that he's goin to die and me and kayleigh are going to be left on our own. im terrified it will happen

im scared its coming back...

thats it!
thank you muchly, treasure

have been searching for it, but cant find it!
it was a thread on main last month at some point and had a picture of the "cycle" of si in it. i hope someone knows what i mean - i dont know how else to explain it. i dont remember who posted it or anything.

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snow

i cant do this anymore. i give up.

i hate that she is keeping me alive.

im staying home too. have been invited out by several people, but dont plan on going. my excuse is that i'm going t london on 1st, so have to be in bed early on 31st i planned to sleep through new year anyway.

i some how got through christmas. now new year. new year is usually harder than christmas. i'd imagine more so this year than any other

fast-forward to past christmas, please.

i am really not okay.

my mum read my diary, which is how she found out. she was nice about it - she asked me one night "sarah, have you been cutting your legs?" but i denied it. Obviously she knew i was lying as it had said in my diary several times "cut last night" :roll: she was supportive - she went to the doctors and...

I just want to scream at someone "I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE" and have them take me away from home and look after me. They're driving me fucking insane. I can't handle it. i'm NOT okay.

i dont want to anymore

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