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I was so PISSED at myself yesterday...yeah i bought this new portable easel that mainly is a desk top thing, and has compartments...it's been sitting on my table for more than a month because i was painting (finished this 3 weeks ago)...a painting...then yesterday i tried to close it up and FUCK i a...

i haven't been to those threads...but i started up the BITCH FEST....i find getting all that anger out of me helps a lot in the moment...and i agree with FLIPFLOPFETISH that i too BOTTLE up stuff inside and that it helps a great deal to let all the steam out!!!!!!...... http://buslist.org/phpBB/view...

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FUCK ALL THOSE FUCKERS IN MY GRAD PROGRAM (SUPPOSEDLY FRIENDS) WHO BACK STABBED ME!!!!!!.......ONE FUCKER "alledged that i was impairing her learning process and my conduct was threatening"....well to hell with them...i did not do anything wrong as the ADMINISTRATOR FOUND OUT...they have MAJOR FUCKI...

i hate my fucking advisor!!!!!!!!!!.......man, i dropped a class with her approval because i got a PT job...then she told me she was so happy that i talked to her (because she knows some of my emotional stuff/prob)...then later i get a phone call- she telling me that i should drop my SAT class...wtf...

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oh i hate my FUCKING prof.....we had a group presenation last nite...i went second in my group...and it was on a broad topic TEENAGE SEX EDUCATION...and 2x that stupid prof interrupted and told me to SUMMARIZE....like i wasn't???????.....so i thought that was so FREAKIN RUDE....plus the fact that sh...

hey brittany that's good u are in recovery from SI...i still struggle...so i don't know if i can help... stuff that do help me: taking a nap reading a book talking to someone playing an online game praying art music etc take care http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=89417 (my POETRY) http://busl...

sorry brittany u feel ignored too....i have been in really bad state and haven't been able to offer ppl support...but i you are not alone...sometimes too when i post on here it takes awhile for ppl to reply...i know it sucks...but anyways...take care :1hug: http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=8...

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK i'm so fucking pissed...first couldn't find ASLAN STUFFED ANIMAL at TOYSRUS that's closing and having discounts...then that stupid FUCKER PHOTOGRAPHER LADY...she only gave us a 1 8x10 picture of me and my bf for our 6 months, so we go to WALGREENS to make a copy and the dude at W...

well since u are seeking counseling for other things i would go for it...the si thing, it's up to u to tell or not...and i also believe as someone else mentioned that if your SI was really bad or you are SU...then they would call someone... http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=89417 (my POETRY) ...

hey at least u get to go to the dance....i never even went to PROM- no one asked me out... anyways...i'm UPSET about my LAMICTAL...it was making me feel pretty moody today...depressed...it's like work one way or the other FUCKER???...either make me feel not depressed and have mood crashes...or don't...

i was just REALLY PISSED OFF at my PROF today...she annoys me...she keeps talking and talking and letting ppl ask stupid questions...she gave me a B+ on my assignment...and she didn't give us a break...she makes me hate that class now....

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[MOD NOTE: I have merged Collide's "Bitch Fest" thread with this thread. - Snow]

hey jen welcome....and not much to say but sorry u are having a rough time with SI/hospitalization...and slipping...i wish i could help u but all i can say that those doctors are cruel to say that to u...i mean, i have BPD and DEPRESSION and i know what it's like to SI...on top of having to deal wit...

thanks for the advice TAMRICK.... u sound like a therapist...i don't know how i can rememeber doing all what you said but it does really make sense...i guess i can print it out and hang it on my wall somewhere...the hard part is believing myself that i am wrong...that i am seeing or percieving the s...

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i just want some advice and support from ppl...my situation is i've been living with this Borderline Personality Disorder since i was diagnosed with it at 22...and one of my main symptoms is fear of abandonment and rejection...which usually makes me SI, try to SU........right now i feel like some cl...

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