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i havent sied for 6 months officially

because i got enough sleep *yawns*

incredibly tired
worried

teddy bears

you poor, poor thing, i hope you accept hugs, coz you need them at the moment! I do the same, with the therapist thing, i turn off and i feel i have wasted time, but you must remember, that you will always have another session, and in that maybe you can say that you have troubles with listening and ...

sad, scared of myself and shit!

-i still love him
- I want to be a goth, but i cant tell anyone
- Im scared i will never be with him
- I cry myself to sleep every night
- Every night i have an urge to get up and take those pills, the only thing stopping me is the thought maybe we will be together
- i think hes the one

yea... i used to think everything i did was just "scratches" but when i made myself bleed alot and cudnt type i realised i needed to cool it a bit...

I wish i didnt have to lie I wish i could go out wif stu I wish that SI didnt exist I wish i didnt have to have these problems I wish i could just die I wish i knew what was after death I wish i could cry I wish i wasnt so skinny I wish that my parents didnt take drugs I wish i was born into a diffe...

Last night, i felt like cutting really badly, i went into the bathroom, and i was planning to, but i thought that soon my mum will notice, soon my friend will crack and tell my mum, and that means i have to go to the counsellor that doesnt know anything. so instead i screamed into my pillow, forced ...