bus

Because I ate a crumpet and bowl of cereal this morning
lame thing to be proud of but... go me

I'm sticking to my meal plan and i'm still here fighting -ED WILL NOT BEAT ME

My parents - my drive to make them proud of me

drained
aprehensive
cold to the bone

A visit from your parents coming up when it's been AGES since you've seen them
Weetabix with banana,warm milk,raisins and cinnamon on a cold autum eve

irrational

In 2 days time I will have been living in a shared student house for 3 weeks despite my ocd- and everybodies reservations about me coping because of my contamination issues Because I've been going to the gym fairly reguarly Because I came up with an idea for my performance realisation Because I init...

Today when I was mega homesick I made myself a sunday lunch of yorkshire pudding,chicken,veg, boiled potatoes n gravy - ok so it's not my mums sunday roast n never will be- but I felt closer to home knowing they'd be eating a cooked meal at the same time as me n it helped a little - i'm proud I ate ...

Tearful,so tearful
Needy
Childlike

Because I scored another victory over my ocd to take a bath
Because I went to the gym
Because I did some more washing
Because I've been cooking my own meals and eating sensibly
Because I've managed to socialise to some degree despite my anxiety

deeply sad,
mournful,

izz - I can relate to how 'training' can effect the meaning and inspiration behind the creative arts - before I started training in dance seriously I had all the inspiration for my own way of moving and ideas for choreography that u could imagine - the more I trained the more I begun dancing somebod...

tense/strung out emotionally, insecure about my looks, tenseness: vent in my journal,may-b look at my collage I was working on, watch a scrubs dvd Insecure about my looks: Avoid the gym as this will just encourage me to count numbers,instead do my workout video,be a bit more active by going into tow...

What a brilliant topic... I would tun my fear into a tiny helpless kitten so I could see it isn't so big, It needn't have so much power, and that it doesn't need shunning away but gentle care and allowances and acceptance to be what it is I would turn my depression into a feather that could blow awa...

I didn't cry till my lunch hour when I let myself shed a couple of tears,stuffed it down, ate my lunch, took a deep breath and went back to work again

I ate my mixed cereal and a decent lunch and dinner and most importantly I went to work and - :star: Cleaned up a childs pee from the play mats without freaking out my ocd majorly :star: Interacted with the children SO much better than I managed yesterday and in a more connected way :star: Because I...

scared/aprehensive
A bit sad

I ate a bowl of mixed cereal (so I didn't know the EXACT fat and kcals) I ate normal bread rather than recude calorie I ate reduced fat chips which weren't weighed out kg for kg I had a regular soda when they ran out of diet rather than going thirsty I went to the health and safety induction of my n...

dangerously stupid
a little to out of my own control
triggery,very triggery
wobbly -trying to stablise my thoughts

:star: I like the fact that I care about people and only have good intentions (even when my intentions don't always pull off in reality) :star: I like being a dreamer :star: I like the way I find my comfort and confidence in nature and the landscape that's around me :star: I like the way my collar b...