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Name: Mindy Are you currently trying to stop or reduce SI: Yes If so what is your motivation: God Favorite coping skills: Prayer Coping skills that work the least: Writting the process Safe places you can go: friends house Identify stressors (be specific as poss): rejection, lonieness, anger If at s...

I am right with ya.. I have made it about a month though. uhh its been soo hard and I still have lots of moments when akll I can think about is SIing. the only thing that is getting me through, other than prayers is my sponcer.. ya see its different than a T b/c i can call her anytime. I ahve to kee...

My T says I have to say 2 so.....

anxious, and relbelious

I have 3 days off!!!! Celebrate Recovery tomorrow morning!!

*rel*


JESUS!!!

--- ( In prayer) my sponcer said that i am like a daughter that she never had.

--- my sister smiling and joking with me

---the clouds in the sky ( they always make me smile)

I wish.... My parents would go to church that someone would hold me all night long. that i could fall asleep at night. That i was thin That i was inspired and the insparation lasted I didn't feel so alone I could connect with people I didn't mess up all my friendships I could just cut and not feel g...

MOM -- THanks sooo much for ( while being drunk) shareing you problem about a ingrown hair ( down there) with me.. I am soo happy to knwo. NOT!!! IF I WANTED TO KNOW I WOULD HAVE ASKED!!!!!!!!!! J - your welcome for you clean room.. I love ya girl! Will- UHH will you just leave me alone! I don't wan...

MOM - if you must be so negative and critical about everything then do it away from me. Don't talk to me if it is something negative I am grown up and I will choose to live how ever I see fit! And as far as whats wrong with you latly..... UMM YOU!!! D- You said you'd call back??????? Where were you....

Wow I am so glad that is post was put up b/c I though I was a wack o ( ok Ia m but...) for feeling that way. Everything that was said on here I have felt! I am soo glad to know that I am not alone!!
I am so thankful for BUS!

I wouldn't get rid of my scars.. I can't imagen living with out the. Now that I think about it It's a scary thing.

have you taken care of your physiacl wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. They are fine..... what had happened just before? I was in a downer mood and was tired of feeling rather numb. I starting drinking and one thing lead to the other. what were you thinking and feeling? I was thinking that...

OH YES... I understand. I want help, but do I want to stop? no... I want the pain to go away, but how? I too feel that I can't really call myself a cutter, although i do b/c its what I do. The reason why is b/c I can go through a week and not even feel like cutting. But the in the next week I'll cut...

**** Triggering******** how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I would be able to go to work happy, ok maybe I'll try music instead :roll: what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? It wil bing happyness and excitment.... It would...

UMM.............
* My day off (wensday)
* getting an e mail/ talking to my grandmother
* being able to take a sleeping pill and sleep all night and 1/2 of the day

UMM.............
* My day off (wensday)
* getting an e mail/ talking to my grandmother
* being able to take a sleeping pill and sleep all night and 1/2 of the day

* I want someone to hold me at night
* I want to be a small child and get the love I need

* uneasy
* easly frustrated
* and triggered

I said no its not wrong b/c for me if i cut on my arms, its one like one cut and its small. I can explain it away or no one notices. My scars, for taht I don't care who sees. But for my legs they are bad and I have lots of big scars so I wear bord shorts in the poola nd nobody ever sees them.

LAG**** Ok...... I know this is harsh ( and its not in my personality) but I really never got to tell these people off! Pam : You are the person I am most mad at on this whole earth!!! You said you cared, you even said you loved me. I trusted you, you knew how hurt i am. And still you selfish bitch ...