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:blkstar: how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I will feel calmer and less frantic and trapped. :blkstar: what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? It will take away all the emotional pain I'm experiencing and replace it with c...

Thank you everyone for all the advice!!! After attempting suicide twice in one weekend, they took me to Laureate in Tulsa and now I'm doing OP treatment for my mood swings and we're working on my ED as well. I got diagnosed by my Pdoc as Bulimic, Depressive Disorder NOS,and Anxiety Disorder NOS for ...

Not really sure where this goes exactly, but oh wells..... I just don't know what to do right now. I know I need to get better, but don't meet the ED requirements anymore for an official diagnosis and a treatment plan, that I know of anyway. I'm not underweight and my weight doesn't really bounce ar...

* Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point? :blkstar: I feel really out of control and really depressed. I have been so stressed out with school and my life in general. * Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then? :blkstar: I have, but ...

I'm sorry you have to put up with all my issues and all my bad days. I'm sorry I have so much emotional baggage. I don't want you to leave me. It may be true that you're one of the first people that have actually cared about me, but that doesn't change anything. You are still my soul mate and I can'...

I'm really proud of myself today for eating and not feeling horrible for doing so.

I just wish you would hold and comfort me when I'm upset or crying. You have no idea how much that would mean to me.

I'm worried I may be pregnant

I'm worried I can't cope anymore

I'm worried I'll start SI again

I'm worried I'll be a failure

I'll admit it, I have been one to largely use "Oh the cat scratched me" and they don't deserve the blame so aye for me!

I love you more than words or anything could say and I want you to know that even though you think this is your fault, it isn't. I'm trying to deal with this the best I can because I love you and I don't want to hurt you or for you to worry. I want us to have the most open relationship ever and I wa...

I have one of those!

I'm worried that my depression will come back fully and I'll start SI'ing really bad again and it will ruin my marriage.
I'm worried when I have children that they will be depressed like me.