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I'm gutted!!! I fucking don't know how to deal with this. Why is it I'm on the outside? They're saying no contact - you know how hard it was for you when you couldn't be in touch. I have no one else, there are people but its all empty. This isn't unhealthy, its not that I'm being over the top...but ...

•have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. Its fine. •what had happened just before? Nothing at all. I've been in company for about an hour after being alone since friday, I guess I over did it and didn't easy in gently. •what were you thinking and feeling? I j...

I miss you so much. I don't know who I am without you. You called the other night and I didn't want to let you go. I wanted to tell you that I'm not okay without you and that I'm scared as fuck that you'll replace me or find someone who'll take my place on this next part of your journey. I try not t...

The Real me - Natalie grant (awaken) Foolish heart looks like we're here again Same old game of plastic smile Don't let anybody in Hiding my heartache, will this glass house break? How much will they take before I'm empty? Do I let it show, does anybody know? But you see the real me Hiding in my ski...

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I'll gain some clarity...my thoughts can become my own again instead of being so caught up And consumed by thoughts of SI and the pressure and anger will subside. I'll hopefully just be able to breath out, if that makes sense. what will hur...

I dont know what else to do anymore short of cutting all the time, which is harder to hide. i dont really know what i ment by that comment. i guess if i grow to love people it tends not to end too good...nothing drastic, just life moves on but i cant deal with it just now. im supposed to be going aw...

Been looking after my friends house while she and her family are on holiday. been so weird being in a family home again...even without the family. I hate how it highlights how empty i am. I love these people, but that doesn't seem like a good idea. I haven't cut, which I kinda need to - just because...

I've been to the doctors but where i am (scotland) the support tends to be pretty poor. I just don't really have anyone to talk to, or the words to say even. i sound so dramatic - but i just cant seem to find anything better. i haven't cut yet so maybe thats a good sign? thanks for taking time to po...

* how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I will feel less like a ticking time bomb... I won't have the constant thought of SI after I've done it. * what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? it will bring me peace....thats all i n...

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I will feel like I've tryed to make a diffrence...instead of feeling like i need to get out of here - cus i have no place else to go what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? it'll bring me ...

There's nothing going on that hasn't been there long term. its just that now I cant filter it. I've just recently found my birth mum...I guess thats bringing up alot of crap from before...that i thought i'd delt with. Do you ever feel like thinking about somethings gonna make your head explode...lik...

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I'll feel less un-focused...like my hearts not about to burst with all the pressure what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? It'll bring a kind of calm peace I guess...something better to ...

Name: morven Are you currently trying to stop or reduce SI: kina If so what is your motivation: that I'll never give it up Favorite coping skills: being on computer Coping skills that work the least: talking Safe places you can go: no where Identify stressors (be specific as poss): my life..all the ...

Mum - I don't know why you left me but it hurts and to be honest....I guess I don't think anything you say will change that - but that does not mean I don't need to hear it. You left me with him when you knew he'd been beating you...why did you think it would be any diffrent with me? I need to tell...