bus

like she doesn't care about me.

I---




am worried that one day my crazy jealousy and mean nature will drive her away.

i'm proposing

sometimes i get sick of it all.









but at the end of the day, i'd do it all over again.

i'm really sorry.

i doubt there's anything i can say or do to help you out.



eh.

I really wish my girlfriend would accept my religion.

loved

Yeah, I've woken up with cuts before.

Recently I've been waking up with a REALLY bloody lower lip.




EW!

happiness is...



fleeting.

*language* I pretend to feel better. and all my friends think I feel better. and my family thinks I'm "normal" now and not that fucked up weirdo I used to be. I am living another huge lie. I feel like I felt three years ago, when everyone thought I was the bubbly wholesome girl-next-door family girl...

"There is really no way to reach me." (mmhmm.) Here's the story. I had a boyfriend. She liked me. I was confused. She had a boyfriend, too. We broke up with them for eachother. She met my best friend, and decided to fuck him. They broke up yesterday, and now she wants me back. "Am I already gone?"

i'm sorry..

my parents are divorced too.


PM anytime.

Stay out of the light Or the photograph that I gave you You can say a prayer if you need to Or just get in line and I'll grieve you Can I meet you, alone? Another night and I'll see you Another night and I'll be you Some other way to continue To hide my face [Chorus:] Another knife in my hands A st...

I kind of like looking at them, it does remind me of bad times ect. but it also reminds me that I've passed those times, maybe not sucessfully, but nontheless I have.

I've had a good night.


But I know I'll either drink myself to forget it all

or cut until I can't think.

haha

joy

I think it's before.


I think I'm feeling urgy. I can never tell when I am actually urgy though,
or whether I'm just feeling off.

Either way, it constitutes for some kind of inner panic; that leads to my
calming ritual, hence the SI.


So...I guess I'm trying to *not* panic.

My mother got married over winter break and didn't tell me until last week. In therapy. For some reason-- I feel emotionless towards her. No matter how hard I try I cannot conjure anything. love happiness hate sadness bitterness mostly it's just indifference with a little teen angst mixed in for goo...

Reply via PM, please I hook up with guys to make me feel better about myself. My sister and I took a secret trip to Virginia and met this guy and we made out all new years eve, new years morning, and we were sort of close to having sex, which is something i'm TOTALLY against. I want to be a virgin t...

Ugh...you warm climate people!! It was 56F here, and we were all happy for the nice weather! There was no frost on my car!!! 70 is hot for me.

haha. wow, hugeee difference. for me, hot is around 100!!!