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B- It's not your fault. It will never be your fault. It is not your fault that your dad drinks, or that your mom for whatever reason stayed with him, or that he takes it out on her. Unless you're putting a gun to his head, it is NOT your fault. Unfortuantely, you've already heard this (at least I ho...

J- Please stop hurting me. I made many mistakes. I am sorry. I don't know what else to tell you. Why are you doing this? I am not making up the sexual abuse. No, I can not give you hard evidence that it happened, but in the past four months I have had of therapy, it has become more apparent that som...

please make it stop..... make the dreams stop, please make all of the pain go away.... please.....

~Diamond~

EVERYONE! Just FUCK OFF! I CAN'T FUCKING GO TO SCHOOL OR DO MY HOMEWORK OR ANYTHING THAT RESEMBLES NORMAL HUMAN FUNCTION RIGHT NOW. JUST SHUT UP AND LEAVE ME ALONE! THIS IS NOT HELPING! I DON'T need to be reminded that I'm not eating well, or that I need to pass my core classes, or anything else! I ...

B- I keep fucking things up with you and I feel like all I've been doing lately is freaking out on you and throwing more stuff at you than I should be and I don't know how to fix it and I don't know what to do and I just have no idea what to do next. There's so much stuff that I don't tell you that'...

[*]Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point? I had a nightmare/flashback. I can't get back to sleep. I'm scared to. [*]Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then? Yes, I have. I stayed up and talked to people until I felt safe. [*]What I...

B- If you want to hash out what happened and what to do about it and all that jazz, then I'm all for it. God knows I could use the closure. If at some point you are willing to let me beat this to death and then poke at it with a stick while it rots, but would prefer we figure out how to have a conve...

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! BRANDON YOU JUST PISS ME OFF SO MUCH YOU CAN PISS ME OFF EVEN WHEN YOU'RE NOT DOING ANYTHING!!! AND THAT JUST PISSES ME OFF EVEN MORE! GODDA...

K- He did NOT sleep with my "best friend". I don't give a fuck what you think about that, I don't give a rat's ass if you think I'm being a sentimental jackass, he didn't. Yeah, fine, he didn't deserve me, tell me something I don't fucking know. And you did? Excuse me? I don't think so. You cheated ...

edited because i'm a bitch

~Diamond~

I wish I could make someone, who made me happy, happy. I wish I didn't hurt the people who try to help me. I wish I hadn't cut on Monday night. I wish I could look into a mirror and not think "fat stupid ugly bitch." I wish I was pretty again. I wish I had someone to spend Valentine's Day with. I wi...

Oh, and I'd also like my ex to say "My mother was in a horrible accident and died a hideously prolonged death."

~Diamond~

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I'm sorry Katie. I never meant to hurt you.

Funny. I haven't heard from my ex in almost four months...and that's all I want him to say to me.

~Diamond~

On the other thread I started, it was a place for people to say things they felt they couldn't. This is a place for you to pretend to be someone else talking to YOU. For whatever you want someone to say that they haven't said. What you want to hear from someone who will never say it. ~Diamond~ [MOD ...

B- I am SO confused on SO many levels here. Did you mean to send me that email? If you didn't, ok, fine, whatever, I could give a rat's ass at this point if you still hate my guts or not. If you have absolutely no desire to speak to me, delete this immediatly and we'll go back to not speaking. If yo...

(why do i even bother to put this? he's the only i ever post about anymore anyway....) B: Do you have any idea how much my life SUCKS right now? GRRR. And I can't even blame it legitimately on you. RAWR. I miss you. You were actually semi-useful at helping me. And I miss that. Alot. I could use some...

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B- God I fucking miss you so much... idon'tunderstandwhatthefuckhappened. idon'tknowifitwasmeoryouor what the hell... who the fuck are you? seriously, who are you? are you the guy who held me while i cried? or the guy who cheated on me twice? are you the guy who would walk off the end of the earth t...

EVERYONE JUST FUCK OFF!!!!!!! I FEEL LIKE BLOODY FUCKING HELL RIGHT NOW. I'm tired, I'm sick, and my cunt is being a, well, CUNT, and doing nasty and unpleasant things to me right now. Just lemme alone. No, you don't understand. Maybe if I told you, you would, but I can't, ok?? I just can't...not ye...

B- You wanted to help me? You wanted to be there for me? You wanted me to go to you whenever I needed someone. WELL WHERE THE FUCK ARE YA NOW, YOU SON OF A BITCH. YOU WANT TO SAVE ME?!!! YOU WANT TO FUCKING RESCUE ME?!! FINE!!!!!!!!!!!! HERE'S YOUR FUCKING CHANCE!!!!!!!!! I GAVE EVERYTHING TO YOU!!!...