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I get called "EMO" all the time..just cuz im sad a lot....which i think is crazy...i would moree call myself depressed but i guess its a new term for being sad..hmm.. i dunno

atleast you waited it out...i mean as long as you tried other coping things before....dont be mad because you slipped...and hey if you wanna talk PM me...k?

I feel the same way about crying.....i feel when i cry it shows that im weak.In therapy i don't like her seeing me cry and i will just look down the whole entire time trying to hide that i actually have feelings. I guess crying shows that im vulnerable...fragile..i dunno..so i can see where you are ...

How do you learn to cope with who your are?....like that you have faults and imperfections....

* I have something im holding in because im ashamed of it*

Give me my space....i cant deal with you comforting me when ive been told so many times that you hate me...i dont want to talk to you about this...

talking to friends,
music
puppy
writing
reading

beyond crazy....i feel not like myself...i feel upset..sad..angry...

i feel like crying but i cant seem to...so these are for all the tears i cant cry at the moment....

*when i really need to talk....i stop talking....even if im in need of help...*

well you can say that you hurt your self at work(if you have a job).....dog/cat scartched you....or you can say i dunno...wow..how did i do that...hmmm...

have a little stress ball.....throw it at the wall as hard as i can but it never seems to break stuff...cant get any better..

I would just try to do anything that makes you happy..makes you smile even if you wouldn't even think of doing it normally.....go see a movie..take a nature walk...go for a drive to your favorite place....do things for yourself....

So heres some updating on the mediatating...I've done it twice. Usually when im feeling a little edgy...I light a candle....a good smelling one...put some relaxation music on....i find it helpful to have it dark...helps me concentrate a bit better. I then close my eyes...take deep breaths....inhale ...

Thank you so much for your reply...made alot of sense. It helps knowing that i always have someone there to guide me through the tough times...All i have to is pray...thanks alot for reminding me that im not alone... .....

Yep..your welcomes.....I think im gonna go buy All american rejects...

how do you put emoticons in your signature..?

Well i was thinking this may be a good idea..kinda sounds a little nutty but hey it may work..I thought well i could buy a cd...not open it...stick it in my lil distraction box...and when i get a really bad urge..i can decide to open the cd...then i will have atleast a distraction for hour of music ...

I am....
me...
confused....
a little lost...
..and alot more i dont wanna ramble