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Maybe if you let yourself feel for a little bit it would be ok: you won't explode (I promise). :cry: hey i was freaking out again denying my feeling i let myself feel (jesus h christ i sound like some 70's hippie bullshit) my tear ducts made that little squeezy feeling (no actual tears, emotions ar...

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a lot of what you said made me really mad

so maybe you are right!

thanks

scared
and dissapointed in me

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i agree

Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point? spinniing spinning fast brain fast running and hiding from every thought deal with nothing Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then? oh yeah i made a list, checked it twice, and started kicking...

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no reply i hate everyone i don't really but i want no human contact at all and the mantra "hate you" repeats and repeats hate hate hate me hate you hate me hate me hate me hate me antidepressants sleeping pills alcohol pot morphine do nothing no love in me for me no one loves me hate you hate you ha...

you have a strong body
you are determined and you achieve your goals!

hi collide i don't think you're "insane" at least not any more than the rest of us it sounds like you are just feeling like "help someone please help i am not equipped to handle this life nobody taught me how to handle people and emotions and all this is just too much for me and nobody is here to he...

thank you thank you and thank you balletomane you are very helpful i have vacation coming up next week that should be good plantt you are wily you cut to the issue and leave no room for ego your ideas are hard and true they require work and challenge me much masturbating in the gutter - joke, nervou...

yeah i've been buying myself the male equivalent of stockings all month that would be tools, hardware, and even some lumber ok, i stole the lumber from pile of wood behind a storage bin but i forgive me anyway i've spent too much already this month - mostly on books (and some bandages) i dunno it di...

have you taken care of your physiacl wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. yep what had happened just before? was thinking dreaming praying what were you thinking and feeling? sex thinking if i could have one beer a good solid 7 and a cosmic guarantee of no consequences i would do it why did y...

i tried to post my worst secret as a guest
but i can't
so i will not post it
because i hate it so much i am afraid
but i posted this
because it hurts me so much to say nothing at all

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? i dunno. i just want the spinning to stop. it will be intense to cut then the spinning will stop. i won't have to break down and cry. i just want it to stop. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the s...

i am intrigued in myself i can see a link i think the sa made me retreat into my own head then my family discouraged having any feelings at all so when i am stressed or whatever i hide in my head and deny all emotion so the result is: i don't do anything about it or ask for help or anything and the ...

hi bbb999 yeah, what collide said i cut etc as a drug a nice adrenaline shot some dopamine precursors and epinephrine analogs the mind's reaction to physical pain to wake me from total numbness or shock me out of insane pain thought hurricane nightmare then the bandanging and healing is like taking ...

thanks nobody last night i played online video games till midnight felt better no si didn't think i was really gunna cut but decided to post a before as a pre emptive strike went home and went to bed and didn't do any dishes! so feeling ok -er today and i requested a t appointment so i'm on the road...

Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point? spinning faster and faster and faster did they put something in the water did i forget my meds what the hell is going on why can't i deal with anything right now what the hell is going on i'm freaking out and i don't know why d...

hi thank you um plantt (why do you keep locking your places!?!?!) did go for a walk w baby 2 hr walk w like 20 min break for the swings at the park then when we got home he was asleep then mom got back before he woke if i didn't si wouldn't have hurt him prob would have left him in his crib crying f...

have you taken care of your physiacl wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. yes what had happened just before? working too hard taking care of wife not of self just returned from weekend visit to her in laws wedding, lots and lots of in laws her dad is a whiny bitch didn't feel comfortable cal...