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I wanted to be able to tell my SO that I had resisted the urge instead of giving in. Because a few days ago my sister was telling me how much better she was doing with managing her own ED triggers. Because I knew I could ride my bike later instead of SI'ing now. Because I had to drive home. So I cri...

Tired. Lethargic. Sad. Bored. Uninterested. Hopeless. Grey.

So this is my first post in this forum. I've been struggling with sort of a relapse of my SI lately. Particularly now. I don't think I'll actually SI now. But I want to look at what's going on with me. how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I'll probably get that quick relief. B...

I slept with C. But I dreamed about J.

No. It's not ok that you made an "executive" decision. I'm the fucking director. You clear things with ME first before making any IMPORTANT decisions. Did they vote either of you director? NO. They voted for me. Don't fucking patronize me. You're both business managers. Don't do my fucking job. FUCK...

I'm grateful to my friend Joseph. He's been there for me for a while. He always has great advice, and he makes sure that I stand up for myself. He's a great friend.

I guess I just really didn't want to.

Whenever I was in public and wanted to SI, I would always get very withdrawn and isolate myself from everyone around me. I would just get absorbed in the thoughts that were going through my head and wouldn't be able to focus on anything else. Maybe you could try focusing really hard on what's going ...

Even though I'm in a committed relationship, even though I love him with all my heart...I want to f*ck my best friend.

It kills me to say this. I think I'm attracted to him because I'm not satisfied with our sex life.

Wow, what an inventive coping method. Congrats for figuring it out.

Mom, what have I ever done to make you believe that I'm irresponsible and untrustworthy? I've always gotten good grades in high school, and I still work hard in college. I didn't end up like so many other people my age dropping out of college and working a minimum-wage job with no future. I have a f...

i can't stand it! There are so many things floating around in my head, I'm so confused! What I should do, what I shouldn't do, what's best for me, what's best for you, what's best for him, what's best for "the relationship." I don't know! All I know for sure is that I love him. And I want you.

i can't fucking do it anymore!!!! I love you, I love you with all my heart, but I can't take it! There's nothing I can do to help you! If you're just going to wallow in your misery and do nothing about. You don't listen to me. I try my hardest to help you and you don't listen to a fucking word I say...

again....too dumb to do my math...

I'm glad theres a thread here for this...can't cry in real life. They'd suspect something....

yeah. that happens to me a lot, and it brings me a lot closer to SI every time. I just remember how it feels, and it's so tempting

I wish I was perfect.

I'm just not good enough. My grades aren't good enough. Sure, I got A's. But not in Calculus. I have a B, but that's just not FUCKING good enough. Why can't I be like the smart kids? I'm sure my parents would be happier with a smarter kid. Or a kid that could actually drive. Or do anything better. s...

James...i don't really want to hold hands, or kiss you, or anything like that. I just want to be with you. All day. I just like being with you. You're such an awesome guy. I'm just too shy to tell you. I like you. A lot.

music is definatley a good idea. If I'm in school, I usually start doodling or writing down song lyrics or something, jsut anything ot distract me. So any things that can distract you from what's going on is good