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I often use my Tarot cards to sort out my thoughts. Good to see others use them as well.

I saw you Friday, in the cafeteria. You were so close, I could have reached out and touched you. I don't know if you saw me or not.... I kept my promise again...I walked away because I know it hurts you to see me...and I promised I would leave you alone and let you live your life in peace....But it ...

Sad, alone, hurt, devastated, lost...very, very lost....

A- I am fucking tired of everything being by your rules. The world does not revolve around you! I'm sorry that your mom is dying but that gives you no reason to treat me like shit for trying to keep my life together. I never want to see or hear from you again. I'm better off without you in my life. ...

It is not words or fire in my soul that I require. It is music. And you have reawakened that music...And I have to to live without you....How does one live in complete silence?

It's been a year and I'm not any better. I pretend like everything is fine for everyone and I lie to my own sister so she doesn't see the pain. I miss you and I love you. I would give you the world if I could and you would let me......but I know you never will. And I don't know how to let you go. Pl...

Only one in color - Trapt

I wish I could get rid of this horrible house I wish I could keep the rest of my family in my life without having to include my mother in it I wish that he would miss me, even a little bit I wish that I could feel like I have my life back I wish I didn't love him I wish that I didn't feel so trapped...

"Only One In Color" I've been searchin all my life I used to be so color blind you opened up my eyes Do you want to share your dreams, see a different side of me your everything I need I like it when you think out loud the things you say when you know there is no one else around I can dig my own gra...

Frustrated, sad, lonely

S - I'm sorry that one moment, one weak moment, of selfishness on my part is going to mean emotional pain for you. I regret my actions and am truly sorry that I have been selfish at your expense. You're too nice a human being to deserve that. C - I love you, I miss you and feel like I'm slowly dying...

I wish I could find some sort of peace in my life....

After months of not writing, I've started again. And it's coming out in a flood. I don't know what to do about it and I want you to be the one to help me fix it. But you can't be because you don't want to be. Last night I dreamed that I was marrying you and I woke up and felt happy and calm. Then I ...

Scared that I won't survive all of this and worried that I don't want too.

terribly lonely, lost and sad.

I love you. I always will. It tears me apart that you can walk right by me and never even look at me, like I don't even exist.

You know, I was bound and determined that I would not like you for our first date. But then I liked you and I thought that you would never call me again. But then you did and now nearly 6 months later I love you. And I can't tell you because you only want to be friends. You can be a self-centered pr...

I love you and I will miss your presence in my life forever. I feel like a piece of my soul died today.

*SI*

I pick at my body also, but it is usually worse when I am feeling the need to cut. It seems to replace the cutting for me temporarily. Unfortunately, the only way I have found to stop picking is to cut.

I'm proud of myself because I admitted to my faults and instead of running away from someone I actually reached out to restart our friendship.