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:blush: thank you B.. It makes me happy that it makes you happy :D some positives for today: :star: went to an art fair... it was huuuge (500 artists!) but I picked up some great ideas I definately want to try :star: I feel like painting again... after months and months of feeling "bleh" (maybe its ...

had fun on the zombie threads
took a walk, good for me. healthy. aaaah fresh air.

I see I'm a bit late.... but you could try lucid dreaming as a weapon agianst nightmares.
(just google lucid dreaming and there's tons of sites explaining what it is and how it works and how you can get a lucid dream)

really, no rain the coming week?? thats good

didn't go to the hutspot-"appointment"... flu is bad..
but I've got another positive instead.
was very urgy today, but I managed to keep myself distracted by posting a lot on BUS.. so didn't cut.. which is good

sunday:
yay!! the sun is shining!!
going to eat "hutspot" with friends tonight
(hutspot is some weird dutch dish... cooked potatoes and carrots, mashed and mixed... )

saturdays pozzies :blkstar: sat opposite a mother with baby in the train... suddenly the baby looked at me and gave me the biggest smile i'd ever seen...like even his eyes were smiling.. wow.. it made me smile too. every time the baby looked towards me he started smiling again.. sooo cute :blush: :b...

positives time again :D :purpstar: I finished the assigments!!! yayyayyay!! and a friend is going to hand them in for me, so I don't have to waste an hour traveling back and forth just to drop them off at the right office :D :lpurpstar: This weekend is extra-long... free monday... relaxing time agai...

Laura - erm... *scratches head* ... dunno... I hope not.. I love my new place
dont speak - yeah.. thought it was cute. and it made me smile. everything that makes me smile goes here
jamie - hi! and welcome

today:
I finally spoke to a good friend (that I haven't seen/spoken to for many months)
I've been working almost all day, and my final assigments (due tomorrow noon) are almost finished!!

ah, I found one!!

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amyfairy, what_if, Lina - thanks for the replies
positive pictures... wow good idea! can I steal that from you?

Lina, Laura, dont speak and plantt - thanks for the replies :D today has just started, will probably edit later :lgrnstar: today I was two hours early for class :lol: so right now I have spare time for bussing and extra time to finish some assignments :grnstar: I had banana and toast with peanut but...

todays positives:

I got myself together and attended all classes, even though I didn't feel like going at first
Had a really nice cup of tea
I am going off to row again, for the first time in a couple of months

Well, I decided it was time to make a log of positive things.
Gotta keep track of that too.
And maybe looking back when I've posted some will cheer me up too
I thought the best way to keep them all together was a new place.

Feel free to comment.
Everyone is welcome.

sometimes I wonder what it would be like to drop everything I am doing (study, hobbies, sports), and leave all my friends and family behind....(or somehow dissappear from their memories) change my name and move to another part of the world, start all over again. to change everything. would I be happ...

I hate my life

*SI*

I swore to myself I would never cut when I was at a friends place, and never cut with a kitchen knife... last night I betrayed myself.


PMs fine.

Thanks for the replies, strmdncr :bluestar: and notmardy :lblstar: Agree about confronting people, I mean it was scary as hell to tell my friends, and they know me well. So confronting a stranger would be even more tough. I'm still kind of curious about the girl, did she scratch because something's ...

As for naming my emotions...working on that. (Mab sounds like my old T...hmmm) I am much better at naming them when they are not so intense...the stronger they get, the less I am able to put words on them. And I let them get way too strong this time...couldn't find any words. Still having trouble f...