bus

restless

R, please call me. or mail. or whatever. please show that I do matter to you, that you do care about me

why did you tell me I don't have DID? I already knew that... but I don't know what I do have... its not the same but something similar I think. But now that you said that, the little one and the other have been refusing to speak with me or come forward. I miss them. And I hate you for scaring them ...

why did you react to me in such an angry way? I didn't do anything to make you that mad! Just go punch someone else emotionally, but not me, and not the day before my birthday. I didn't invite you to come to my birthday. Thats because I hate you. I hate you for being needy and wanting attention. In ...

Not at all!

(by the way, thanks for bumping my post... it had "died" )

I still find myself hoping that I die before I turn 30.. yet I keep going on

PMs okay

I'm sorry R. I know its not fair of me to cut before I give you a chance to make me change my mind.
I'm sorry you know me.
I'm sorry I destroy everything.

claire wrote:and i did go research, cos thats just me AAAAAAAAND yeah fish has omega 3 in it, that is thought to help with depression.

You know, you can even buy omega 3 capsules... concentrated fishy

R - are you getting fed up with me? I sense some kind of change between us.
Or did you find my place here on BUS. I sure hope not. But if you did, why did you read it?
I can't stop thinking that you are angry with me, or that there is something wrong, but you're not saying it.

I'm going downhill again but too afraid to tell anyone irl...

(not writing all of my pozzies here anymore.. I have a little book in which I write them down now... I do post the more important ones in here... don't want to bore you all with how well I did doing the dishes today, stuff like that :tongue: ) :star: My sister pulled her "I'm ignoring you because yo...

well, I am one... but I don't know how long I will stay one.
I'm thinking of quitting and going back to my original study
(which is biomedical sciences)

its okay, I like reading other peoples pozzies as well

Today I cleaned up the garden.. I did it really well.. spent a lot of time on it.

I'v been neglecting my log

But pozzies for today:
I went running and took a shower. I'm taking care of myself
Had to make some calls, I hate calling.. but I did that anyway.
Did some work around the house to help out my mum.

Good that you answered the questions! (and I'm glad you found them useful) :D Now its my turn to start firing questions again (yes... annoying, isn't it? :tongue: ) (tell me if you want me to stop... and I'll shut up immediately) :star: Always, no matter what I've ever done, I've had to be the best ...

I hope you manage to find something
take care

happy
content
loving

Your last paragraph sounds just like me. :oops: But let me ask you some questions I started to ask myself a short time ago. *Do you have to live up to other peoples expectations? What happens if you don't? Is that a disaster or can you live with it? Can you accept yourself when you are not able to d...