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I just can't imagine someone that wants to marry me

Sometimes I do think about living in the wilderness,
with a bunch of pets (dogs, cats, a horse)
those thoughts make me happy...
..yes I'm a loner

-I'm almost 22 and never had a boyfriend, I'm too scared to start a relationship just because I'm afraid I'll end up hurt anyway. *SU* -Its been over 8 years since I tried to kill myself. Everyone around me thinks I'm over it. Yet I keep wishing I would just die in my sleep. I keep making plans. I'm...

healthy coping skills? do you mean finding an alternative?
I can't seem to get them out of my head - all the coping things I've thought od only seem to distract for a while.. then the urge just kind of rebounds.

Okay - so the situation (to quote from my place): ugh, I'm really wanting to cut right now. haven't done 'nything yet though. today is 9 weeks since the last time I SIed... Someone (lets call her C) asked me about this girl I know, J, what was wrong with her. I was like; why do you think something i...

out of my head... like i'm floating a few feet away.

has it stopped bleeding/did you get it stitched?
sorry things are bad. yeah it is scary to hit a major bloodvessel..
<hugs> if okay
take care.

It will bring something exterior to focus on, an outside hurt for a while instead of so much pain inside. can you think of other exterior things you could focus on? (like exercising, taking a cold shower, etc) or focussing in a different way? something that works for you. Its good that you've talke...

Yeah, I recognize the problem. Some of my friends know about my si and at some point all I could do was talk about it to them. To go over everything that happened, and how I would cut, stuff like that. Then I felt like I couldn't do that to my friends over and over again, I wouldn't want them to wor...

I can't cry in front of others too. Not even my friends. Maybe because I feel that I would be vulnerable when I would cry in front of others. I'm really uncomfortable with showing weaknesses irl. I'd rather not show them at all. My T gets annoyed by it, because every time I feel like I'm going to cr...

A few days ago, I got a letter from a good friend. She wanted to give me some hope, and had written this for me (below). Thought I'd share it with you, so others may get something out of this too. So this is for everyone that is not feeling well. take care :star: Anne. Don’t spend too much time con...

Hi, I'm posting this for Jenna,
she has changed her email adress, and has a new account (new name is teddybear). she really really wants to get on bus, could someone unlock her new account for her?

feeling down. and sad.

:grnstar: The mahna-mahna song (that one from the muppets) :grnstar: Philosophers beer drinking song (monty python) *does mention alcohol abuse* :grnstar: Other monty python songs (eg. I like chinese) :grnstar: ooh and those answering machine messages are fun to download as well... I've got loads o...

First of all, don't panic. Relapses do happen, but that doesn't necessarily mean that you are back to zero, or that your SI will start to increase all over again. Like you said, you have people to pull you through now, you have become stronger. So now you can learn from relapses and grow even stron...

I was actually feeling very angry. Were you angry with yourself? and why were you angry - because of your husband speaking that way? Or because of the way you felt? In retrospect, are there coping methods that you now realize might have helped? What were they? I haven’t found one for when I’m so an...

Its good that you understand what caused your anger, so you can look for a way to maybe balance your 'mean part' and your 'nurturing part'. Like your T said - a compromise. name at least two things you will do to help yourself remember those coping methods if you end up in this situation again. I do...

:star: When I feeling really bad I read one of the letters my friends wrote me. (I asked them all to write a letter or a card that I would open when I feel I am going to SI.. they're really comforting to read, and sometimes it takes my mind off cutting long enough to change my mind about cutting) :...

I think that situation would be very difficult because it brings up so many strong emotions...is that what made it so hard for you? Or was it something different that made his comments so triggering? It was especially triggering because of the way he came with the comments. Somehow he brought up st...