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generally massaging them with moisturizor will be good for them because it will help the blood supply flow to the surface, and help heal the red-ish ones, and help break down the tough scar tissue on the white ones. it really helped mine.

it helps me to think of what (rationally) is the worst thing that can happen. they can say "no" and possibly be rude about it. thats not so terrible. deep calming breaths before you talk to them. remember that though it feels aweful to do, soon it will be over.

lots and lots of long sleaves. lol. and you can get special make-up that is quite effective, if your in england st.johns ambulance does corses in how to use make-up to hide scars. I've used bio-oil, and it was ok. though I found the best thing for fading scars is just moisturising them ALOT. cos thi...

I did go to the doctors (a friend had to pull me through the door). I have some anti-biotic cream. its healing better now, thankgod. The doctor put up my prozac dose at the same time, so I'm feeling alot more stable

I've made an appoinment for tuesday (CURSES!) getting it checked out. keeping it clean till then.

thankyou for all the advice.

I really _really_ hate doctors...

warning, this is kinda gross, and about SI, but I really do need advice from anyone who knows any first aid, or stuff. so I'm leaving pleanty of space to look away! 7 days ago I got a pretty deep cut. its quite serious, but I didn't get it treated. now its really not healing well, it won't scab over...

mums are wonderful.

I had a breakdown this christmas, and I finally ended up telling her everything about what was going on. not only did she pay off all my debts (which took a considerable weight off my mind) she told my doctor off till I got some help.

bad memory: sitting in the hospital A+E, crying so hard I couldn't breath, just feeling so desperate. so utterly panicked. so alone. at 4am, with all the staff treating me like s**t because I'd come in because I'd SI'd. Good memory: sitting on a beach, watching seals swim by, and jump out of the wat...

I know its a really hard to believe, and really cliche as well. but it _will_ get better. and one day you will find a way to deal without SI. and you'll be ok without it because you'll have found a way to cope. you just need to hold on.

sorry. I know that doesn't really help you right now.

what did your therapist say? I've just been diagnosed with BPD...its tough.

concentrate on the good things that will happen when it all goes fine. take a couple of minutes before each session thing to just calm yourself, clear your mind and not be flustered. take in a good luck charm if you have one. speaking as a psychologist (I did a degree and everything) if you think po...

I quit meds because they made my depression worse and made me self injure ALLOT more. since I went off them a couple of months ago, I've only SI'd twice, whereas when I was on them it was every week almost. I've started swimming as a way to get back into physical excercise. and it seems to help a bit.

hmmm maybe a cure for feeling numb

YOU *BLEEEP* I CANT BELIEVE YOU'D DO THIS TO ME! RRRRRRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

ok, that did help.

I've just gone through something very upsetting. the situation is a little complicated. so I won't even start trying to explain. but I should be devistated. but I'm not. just numb. it's like I'm sleep walking. nothing touches me. I can fake all the pretences of emotion. but it's like I'm not even re...

no stiching done, but is ok now.
*shame faced* I got edited.
it was a very scary experience. thankyou for your support everyone.

thankyou. why are things so scary?

sorry, I just want to talk about this, its not like I can talk about it anywhere else. Trig space I hit an artery, I'd had a bad night...you know the kind of night, depressed, suicidle, wanting to destroy me and everything about me. my razor was blunt, {edit for graphic method description}, I didn't...

sad and tired, very tired.

and thirsty...

the problem is that suicide is horrendously selfish, no matter what way you think about it. even if the only damage you do is that someones going to have to find your body, or watch you die. for people who love you...wanting to die is always going to hurt them...I havn't found a way to make it bette...